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Aliris stared at Braze. What he was saying, it was only going to get her in more trouble if he finished that sentence. He didn't, and maybe he didn't think she was in danger. But she felt for sure that she was in as much danger now as they were when they faced down that dragon. No, more. This man had killed that dragon with ease. And if she was at all a threat to him, he'd kill her. The Ashlan's wouldn't have hesitated before. If anything, it was weird they didn't just kill her now.

She turned her gaze between Braze and Jasper as they spoke, though her focus was more on Braze. How much would he say? How much danger was she in? Questions she wanted answers to, but..

He was crying.

Aliris looked right away from him. He was crying. She had no idea what to make of that. Why was he crying? She didn't understand. It didn't make sense. And worse, the Jedi didn't want to let her go. He spun it as looking out for her, but she knew the truth. That was just how the Jedi were. She scoffed. "I'm not suicidal. I won't attack anyone. It's not like I have a choice anyway." She didn't want to be close to Braze right now. She was.. So confused about why he was crying.

Honestly, it made her feel like she should be too. Worse, why did it make her feel so.. Warm?

"Let's just go."

Jasper Kai'el Jasper Kai'el | Braze Braze
 






Braze's body language became tense and withdrawn as he observed Jasper and Aliris. He felt a mix of emotions swirling inside him, and it was evident in the way he fidgeted with his partially gloved hands and picked at his sleeves.

Braze wrapped his arms around himself wincing lightly at the feeling of his exposed singed hands. He looked down and picked at the partially gloved hands and frowned looking over how filthy Jasper was now, and took in the odd, and not very pleasant scent that clung to the man. He wanted to hug him too, despite the smell and filth; But Braze was not about to admit to that and settled for hugging himself briefly in an act of self-soothing comfort.

Braze continued to fuss at his sleeves as he had been transfixed in watching how Jasper had healed Aliris. He listened to Jasper address Aliris and was likely trying to think clearly about what story to give Jasper. He hadn't expected them to meet at all— especially like this. He was grateful that Jasper was so kind-hearted, and the man was treating Aliris nicely even as he realized her 'little secret'. Braze sighed, having fallen silent let them talk amongst one another.
"Sorry," he sighed. "I should've gotten here sooner. You guys probably wouldn't have gotten injured."

Braze was drawn back from his distant thoughts that were spiraling. His ears twitched hearing the apology from Jasper of all people. As Jasper expressed his momentary feeling of incompetence, Braze's confusion deepened. He looked back at Jasper, his expression a mix of bewilderment and surprise. How could Jasper blame himself when he had come to their rescue and saved them from further harm? Braze struggled with his own emotions, his feelings of gratitude mingling with his frustration at himself. Why was he sorry? He didn't know— Oh... Oh yes. Braze didn't think before running off and abandoning his task. He didn't think to ask for Jasper's help. He just reacted. It was as if this revelation suddenly hit Braze as his thoughts weighed him down with a pang of guilt for his mistake that could have cost both of them their lives.
Jasper turned to Braze, giving a stern look.
His eyes briefly met Jasper's stern look, but he quickly averted his gaze, feeling contrite and guilty for his impulsive actions. As Jasper's look fell to Braze he flinched, Braze immediately choosing to stare at the ground, looking rather contrite in that brief moment unable to meet Jasper's stern gaze. His heart skipped a beat and he felt his blood run cold. By the force presence Braze was emanating, Aliris could definitely feel Braze's emotions. Briefly, oh so briefly, the truth that Braze held some semblance of fear that was far greater, and more exponential for this man, than he had for that monster which almost killed the two of them. It was fear of disappointment that welled within Braze. Brace had winced, bracing himself for what he expected to be a harsh scolding, a stern lecture, or even to be yelled at for running off without thinking.

But what came next was another shock to the snowy-haired youth.
"Don't say it's okay. Just let me feel incompetent for a moment."

He blinked and tentatively looked back actually meeting Jasper's eyes with an expression of bewilderment and confusion. He was stunned into silence as Jasper continued to talk to Aliris. How could he be so kind and so forgiving and still blame himself for this? Jasper did come and saved them, he helped stop Aliris from bleeding out and he wasn't even lecturing Braze for running off without so much as a word to him; and now he was blaming himself for their injuries? This wasn't fair! Braze could feel his emotions all over the place and realized he had frozen in place under that one simple glance Jasper had given him. All these intense feelings shifted in a matter of mere moments.

Then he heard Jasper's next few words...
"Or I could just let Braze heal you."
When Jasper suggested letting Braze heal Aliris, a flush of embarrassment washed over Braze, coloring his cheeks crimson. He felt caught off guard and childishly frustrated. He attempted to address Jasper respectfully by using his last name but couldn't help blurting out his inner turmoil. "Master Kai'el! Alright fine, you're right, you're incompetent, it's all your fault," he huffed, his voice tight with pent-up emotions.

Deep down, Braze knew he didn't mean his words. It was his way of deflecting and protecting himself from exposing his own vulnerability. He wasn't prepared to take on the responsibility of healing others, especially someone as important to him as Aliris. It was easier for him to resort to his practiced defense mechanism of pushing people away with harsh words, even if it hurt him to do so.

Despite his outburst, Braze's inner turmoil and his true feelings were still evident in his eyes, reflecting a mixture of frustration, guilt, and a desire to be understood.

Braze felt he was being incredibly childish as if he was nothing more than a 'crybaby' in front of Aliris, and that was definitely NOT the demeanor he wanted to display, nor how he wanted to portray himself. On one hand, he was incredibly grateful for Jasper's intervention, and the fact he chose not to give him a verbal dressing down in front of Aliris, on the other hand, he felt rather abashed and flustered by that last comment he had heard from Jasper. Why Braze felt such a way, the youth couldn't put a finger on it.

Braze hesitated to admit his lack of expertise in healing others, especially considering the sudden responsibility that was now thrust upon him to heal Aliris. While he was willing to do anything to help her recover, there was something about the way Jasper spoke that triggered a whirlwind of emotions within him. It was a conflicting mix of fear, inadequacy, and a deep desire to prove himself.

In normal circumstances, Braze would never dare to utter something audacious to a member of the council, let alone someone like Jasper, who had just saved their lives. But his inner turmoil took control, overpowering his usual self-control. Instead of expressing his vulnerability and fear, he resorted to his practiced defense mechanism of lashing out with hurtful words to keep others from realizing just how unbalanced he felt himself.

Deep down, Braze knew that his words were a facade, a shield to mask his own insecurities. He didn't mean what he said and regretted the hurtful comment almost instantly. It was a coping mechanism he had developed over time, believing that pushing others away and appearing strong would protect him from being exposed. Little did he know that this self-protective behavior only served to isolate him further and hinder his own growth.

She scoffed. "I'm not suicidal. I won't attack anyone. It's not like I have a choice anyway." She didn't want to be close to Braze right now. She was.. So confused about why he was crying.

Honestly, it made her feel like she should be too. Worse, why did it make her feel so.. Warm?

"Let's just go."
"I would feel better if she were treated by a proper medic... " Braze offered in a quiet sullen tone.

He offered one of his crispy singed hands to Aliris. "No one's going to hurt you Aliris. " He seemed to offer in gentle assurance. If Jasper didn't ask, then Braze wouldn't express anything he knew about her.

 

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"Master Kai'el! Alright fine, you're right, you're incompetent, it's all your fault,"

Jasper gave a warm smile. He knew Braze didn't mean it. The intention wasn't present in his eyes.

"I appreciate it," the knight sighed, placing a hand on the boy's shoulder, "But you don't think that... You're okay. We'll talk about all of this later to clear our heads, yeah?"

It was something to work with at least. Jasper understood very well the ways in which he could bring out the emotional cores in people. He had spent his entire youth trying to pick up the pieces and figure out how to make connections. Now he was gonna make good on what he learned to help people figure out and come to terms with what they felt. Slowly but surely, anyways.

His attention turned back to Aliris, a frown coming to his face.

"You do have a choice here," Jasper remarked. "I understand what makes you think that, but I'm not holding you against your will."

He was pretty well aware of what she was now. Sith. It was clear as day. Or at least, the girl thought she was Sith. Jasper was pretty sure that for everything that the girl wanted to become, her heart wasn't fully invested in living in the dark. She was motivated by fear. He could sympathize with that, being someone who was once controlled by fear in his own youth. He gave Braze a quick glance when he pushed for her to seek medical attention, promising she wouldn't be hurt

"You have no reason to trust me, I'm sure," he added, "But I give my word that no harm will come to you. Once you've recovered you'll be free to go your separate way."

And with that, Jasper simply started walking towards the exit.

"Come on," the knight called back. "The sooner you both get treated the sooner you can get some sleep."


 

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Braze was so adamant, but.. Aliris couldn't trust them. There was no part of her that could think she wasn't in danger at any moment. That the Jedi, for all their public mercy and forgiveness, were just as cruel and uncompromising as the Ashlan's they allied with. That the Jedi chose to protect. People who tried to kill her and ruined any chance of a life she could've had otherwise. She just couldn't believe the Jedi didn't know. They were complacent. They were her enemy.

They would kill her, if they had the chance.

"Stop trying to convince me of things I simply don't believe. When I'm on my way, that's when I'll believe any of this."

Still, she followed along. No, she didn't trust the Jedi, not in the slightest. But she did trust Braze. For now, that's all she'd trust.

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"I appreciate it," the knight sighed, placing a hand on the boy's shoulder, "But you don't think that... You're okay. We'll talk about all of this later to clear our heads, yeah?"
Braze blinked as he was offered a gentle touch to his shoulder and Jasper treated him with patience and understanding. Braze frowned discontent with his lack of control over everything but he seemed to concede 'defeat' to Jasper nodding softly at his words. " A... Alright. " He murmured half sure of himself, His head hurt and he was tired and he was just kind of a jerk to Jasper and now he was feeling a little bad about it. He frowned softly and glanced to Aliris. He wasn't doing a very good job of putting up a good display for her.

Brazemoved to press a hand to his forehead and closed his eyes as he padded gently after Jasper seemingly following the man like a lost puppy.

"I'm sorry..." Braze murmured lightly to Jasper in a quiet much more demure tone.

"Stop trying to convince me of things I simply don't believe. When I'm on my way, that's when I'll believe any of this."
He glanced back at her, "Where will you go?" Braze asked gently with a semblance of curiosity. He didn't sound like he intended to stop her but his tone carried with it a semblance of concern for her.
 

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"I'm sorry..."

"I forgive you," Jasper assured, looking back to his student with a warm smile. "So don't get hung up on it for now, okay?"

Aliris was a different story, however. She was completely dead-set on her mistrust. The knight sighed, frowning a little. He had encountered various cases in his time as a Jedi, but this was a new one. The Sith he were used to were old men that were generally far too stubborn to die. This was just a scared child, one who seemed certain he wanted to kill her.

Jasper would press on. He was a member of the Jedi council. Sith or not, this kid's life was in his hands, and he would see that she was taken care of. Besides, he was a man of his word. The knight had no intentions of lying, even if Aliris assumed the worst.

"You won't have to wait long," the knight shrugged. "We have our medical unit setting up to treat sickness that's been spreading through the local village nearby." Jasper stroked at his scruff, connecting the dots in his head. "I suppose we can blame the dragon back there for that one. That's one less thing to worry about, I hope..."

The knight turned to Braze, assessing the boy. He was wounded as well, though clearly not as severely. He would still need treatment regardless.

"How are you holding up?" he asked. "Anything more than the burns or the scratch?"


 

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"Where will you go?"

"Away." Korriban, probably, but she wasn't about to tell the Jedi Knight still there with them. Or Braze. He'd tell her not to, she'd tell her to just follow her there and stop being a Jedi. It'd be a back and forth, just like it was last time. She limped along behind them, listening to them talk. It was almost like he was Braze's father or something. A quick glance between them dismissed that thought pretty quick. They had nothing in common that she could see.

Jedi were really weird.

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"I forgive you," Jasper assured, looking back to his student with a warm smile. "So don't get hung up on it for now, okay?"

Braze listened attentively as Jasper forgave him, a weight lifting from his shoulders. He nodded in understanding, grateful for the warmth in Jasper's smile. As they walked, Braze remained quiet, his hand still pressed to his head, deep in thought.


"You won't have to wait long," the knight shrugged. "We have our medical unit setting up to treat sickness that's been spreading through the local village nearby." Jasper stroked at his scruff, connecting the dots in his head. "I suppose we can blame the dragon back there for that one. That's one less thing to worry about, I hope..."

As they walked, Braze remained quiet, his hand still pressed to his head, deep in thought, and suffering through his concussion.

Jasper mentioned the medical unit treating the sickness in the nearby village, connecting it to the dragon they had encountered. Braze found some solace in Jasper's ability to look on the bright side, despite the challenging situation.

"That's looking on the bright side of things... " Braze murmured softly. He offered an uncertain glance back with concern for Aliris, his concern for Aliris only grew, noticing her limping. He frowned softly.

"Hey, Ali," Braze called softly, his voice filled with genuine care. "If it hurts to walk, I can carry you. How about a piggyback ride? It might make it easier for you." He knelt down, offering himself as support if she chose to accept.
"How are you holding up?" he asked. "Anything more than the burns or the scratch?"
"Hmnn? I think I'll be fine my head hurts though... " Braze offered belatedly thinking about how sore he felt. He was used to being battered and broken in truth, so it was easy for him to over look his own status or minimize it.
 

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"Hmnn? I think I'll be fine my head hurts though... "

"I'd say that's pretty natural," Jasper remarked, chuckling a little. "You look a little toasty."

The knight turned, his expression becoming more solemn.

"Just... make sure you don't overestimate how much you can take," he added, knocking on his mechanical shoulder. "You can only sacrifice a part of yourself once."

Jasper had learned about being reckless the hard way, even after he had a friend who pretty clearly laid out for him that what he was doing was stupid. The knight still toed that line a little these days, but he at least had the skill to back it up. Needless to say he was always worried about his students falling down the same path.

It wouldn't be long before they had emerged from the depths of the old abandoned Temple. A medical camp would already be in the process of being put up, mostly to treat afflicted civilians unfortunate enough to wander too close and grow ill. The Redwind, one of the NJO's non-combat transports, was landed nearby, with equipment being hauled out from within brought down from the Dawnbreaker. The Redwind would occasionally be on loan to the Shield Core, and this was one such instance.

"Oh, that was fast," Jasper noted. "They were extra punctual with set up. Let's see if we can't find an operational med scanner before we get you two to a healer."


 

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"I'm fine."

She practically spout out the words, though swiftly regretted her tone by the expression on her face. She hated feeling weak more than anything. She'd failed to tame that Sithspawn, and now the Jedi who'd killed it is escorting her to a healers tent. And likely a prison, if not death. She stubbornly walked along with them, her gaze forward on the camp in question. On the ship. That could be her way out if she needed it.

No, when she needed it. No part of her felt safe.

"Let's just hurry."

She said, as the one very much slowing them down.

Jasper Kai'el Jasper Kai'el | Braze Braze
 




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"I'd say that's pretty natural," Jasper remarked, chuckling a little. "You look a little toasty."

The knight turned, his expression becoming more solemn.
Jasper's remark about Braze looking "a little toasty" elicited a frown from the young Jedi. He instinctively began picking at his gloves, his actions reflecting his slight discomfort.

"As you wish," Braze replied, giving Aliris a mock bow and managing a mischievous smirk at her. He then straightened up and walked alongside Jasper, dusting himself off and adjusting his robes, occasionally stealing glances at Aliris to ensure she was managing well.

As they reached their destination, Braze intentionally slowed his pace to match Aliris's, showing his attentiveness to her needs. In a hushed voice, he leaned closer and whispered to her, "I'm glad you're still with me." His words carried a mixture of relief and genuine concern.

Brace had an entire plethora of questions you wanted to ask her. However, Braze decided to hold off on his other questions for the moment, understanding that this wasn't the most appropriate time to bring them up.

 
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As they were approaching the medical tent, Jasper's com link began to fill with chatter. It was Seydan Toth, the Redwind's pilot.

< Hey big kahuna, we got a problem. Loose debris in the lower engine, fluid is leaking everywhere. Think you can swing by and help a brother out? >

"Ten four," Jasper answered, then turned back to the two wounded children. "Right, I got an emergency to deal with on the Redwind. Braze, I trust you can get Aliris where she needs to go to seek treatment?"

Whenever he got a sign of approval from Braze, from there Jasper would set off towards the Redwind. He wasn't worried about Aliris causing problems. She wasn't a threat, just confused. Giving her the space she needed would be a good first step to helping her get on a healthier path.


 

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"I'm glad you're still with me."

Aliris frowned. Looked away. It wasn't like she had much of a choice, right? It certainly didn't feel like it with how hurt she was and the threat of the Jedi around her. Even now in the camp she didn't feel safe. Just uncomfortable, scared. .. At least she didn't feel alone with Braze there, not that she'd say as much.

".. Let's just hurry up, okay..?"

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Braze noticed the frown on Aliris' face, a flicker of worry passing through his own eyes. He understood the weight of her unease, the lingering fear that clung to her like a shadow. He gently reached out, placing a comforting hand on her shoulder, and tried to offer her comfort, and consideration.

"I'll keep you safe. " He seemed to assure. " You'll be fine here the Healer's will help. " He moved to lead her to where they were and offered a simple explanation one that involve only what they needed to know.

He offered her a soft reassuring smile, " We'll hurry, but let's also take a moment to breathe... Ya know you only really heal naturally when you're sleeping and at rest right?" Braze asked.

He was trying to offer her any semblance of confidence, ease, and comfort he could even actively reaching out through their force bond to try to do so.
 

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"I don't need you to keep me safe." She muttered softly. Almost angrily. She hated being here. Hated feeling so weak and helpless. It was a frustration to herself, and one she finally seemed to realize as she closed her eyes and took a breath. She gave a brief smile.

".. But thank you."

Finally she let herself lean against him, nodding.

"Okay. Okay. Let's.. Relax, then go to the medic. .. I'm not bleeding out, so it should be fine."

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"I don't need you to keep me safe."
".. But thank you."


Braze listened to Aliris's words, sensing the mix of frustration and vulnerability in her voice. He could understand her desire to prove her independence, that sentiment was something he wanted to strive for in his own daily life rather often. But he also recognized her underlying need for support. His smile softened as she gave a brief smile of gratitude, surprised to hear her offer thanks, and his smile grew so suddenly, marveling that Aliris actually offered him thanks. It was as if those words brought a spark of joy to Braze and he visually brightened up, revitalized by her words alone.

"I know you're strong, Aliris," Braze replied gently, his voice filled with reassurance. "But sometimes even the strongest of us need help every so often... It's okay to lean on others when you need it." He smirked and moved to offer her a comforting touch, rubbing her shoulder.

As she leaned against him, he wrapped his arms around her tenderly in a comforting embrace. " And you can ~always~ lean on me whenever you like." He practically purred.

He fetched her some fresh cool water and offered her a bottle to partake in. Next he fetched her a small chair and set it out for her. "Take a moment to relax, catch your breath," he whispered, his voice soothing. "I'll fetch the medic. We'll make sure you get the care you need."
He took a few sips from a water bottle he fetched himself and doused his crispy bits pulling off his gloves.

 

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"Would you.. Stop.. That.." She couldn't bring herself to look at him again, this time hiding her face in her hands as she sat down to try and take some relief off the pain in her side, her arm. Her leg. She was in too much pain to feel this embarrassed by his constant, instant compliments. He didn't hesitate in the slightest with it. She didn't deserve this kind of kindness and everything had her just too all over the place to sort out what she was feeling.

So, embarrassed was the only one that stood out.

"You're really just.. Too nice.."

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Braze perked up and looked at Aliris with wide-eyed enthusiasm. "Oh? Good! I've been trying really hard to be, uh, nicer. Before, I was kinda not nice to anyone, you know? And that's why I didn't have a lot of friends. But now, things are different!"

He fidgeted with his hands, trying to find the right words. "Being kind and stuff, it's important. It makes people happy and makes friendships grow. I've learned that from being with you and Loomi, you know? Being part of this new group is special to me."

Braze paused, his eyes shining with sincerity. "So, I'm making a big effort to be a nicer person. I want to be a good friend to you, Aliris. You deserve it. Everyone deserves to have someone right?"

He flashed a toothy grin, unable to contain his excitement and renewed energy. "If you ever need anything or just want to talk, I'm happy to talk. I haven't ever really had anyone I could talk to ya' know? But I feel like... you and I... We're different... We're like a team, you know? And I'm really glad to be your friend, and I want to be a good one. "
 

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Loomi, huh?

Aliris frowned a little. Right. He probably had way more friends himself didn't he? And he was likely her only friend. .. If he could really consider him a friend. Or at least consider herself his friend. He'd gotten hurt trying to help her with some foolish hunt based on her pride. She squeezed her eyes shut as she hugged herself. He even called himself her friend, but even walking here she'd been bitter, annoyed, angry.

".. I'm not a friend, am I? Or just.. A terrible friend, if at all. You were in danger just trying to help me. .. You're always just so- nice.. .. I'm sorry."

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Braze watched Aliris as she expressed her doubts and insecurities, her voice tinged with self-blame and remorse. His heart went out to her, understanding the weight of her emotions. He took a step closer, offering her a gentle smile filled with warmth and reassurance.

"Aliris, you are absolutely my friend," Braze said sincerely, his voice soft yet confident. "And you're not a terrible friend at all. We've been through tough times together, and that doesn't diminish the bond we share. I'm here for you, no matter what."

He reached out to place a comforting hand on her shoulder, his touch gentle and reassuring. "You're going through a lot right now, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed or angry. But remember, friendship isn't just about being there in the good times. It's about supporting each other through the challenges too... To me, that's more important for a friend... And I'd say you're the best one I have. "

Braze paused for a moment, choosing his words carefully. "I willingly put myself in danger to help you because I care about you. It wasn't foolish or driven by pride. It was because I believe in you and your strength. I admire you and your confidence. You don't have to be alone Aliris...."

He squeezed her shoulder gently, his gaze filled with understanding and empathy. "And you know what? Sometimes being nice isn't easy. It takes strength to be kind, especially in the face of adversity. I know it's really hard for me to do... and I've had some trouble trying to be better at it. You've shown me kindness too, and I appreciate it more than you know."

Braze took a step back, giving her space but still maintaining a comforting presence. "So, please don't apologize. We all have our struggles, our moments of doubt. But I want you to know that you are important to me, and I'm grateful to have you as my friend. I feel like you're someone who doesn't let rules get in the way of what you want. I... I kinda feel like we're similar that way. "
 

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