Memories of the past {Polaris Sovereign}

[Syss Rembala]

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Location: Pillar of Ascension​

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10 years ago...​

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The little steps of a creature broke through the giggled filled air of the spacious room aboard the Pillar of Ascension, home to the brothers and sisters of The Awoken faction.

Those little steps belonged, obviously, to a little creature with long white hair and intense violet eyes who was gleefully running around with a storybook in hands. She didn't laugh for a long time though, her giggle subsided and now she ran silent with some sort of daring expression and clear determination in her eyes.

Every day that passed the very young princess was growing healthy, beautiful and...colder. To no ones notice, the youngling was becoming more silent and more observant. She had never been too childish to begin with but this were the last months of her life in which she actually enjoyed child-play.

Because she was playing. The spawn of Queen Winter was running away from her twin sister, [member="Polaris Sovereign"] . Maybe in the future she would grow colder but today, today she was still a quite innocent and playful infant.

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

Upsetting huffs and wheezes lined the air - parting giggles with a small sense of desperation. Young Polaris was on the edge of her limits trying to get a book, and it hadn't even been that long of a running. The chubby youngster was in no shape for sports - or even playtime for that matter.

A few tears daringly escaped from the corners of her eyes as she reached out again, wheezing a loud breath in before she staggered to a stop and plopped down onto the cold floor, burying her head in between her knees.

Not even moments later stiffed and blocked sobs emitted from the small shield of legs, and a given up Sovereign rocketed on the tips of rage and self pity. Unsure what to do, she did what she could and cried, so quietly and hidden in the middle of the walkway, in between her legs.

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]

 

[Syss Rembala]

The little Princess kept on running a couple of meters more when she noticed she was no longer being followed. She came to a stop but did not yet turn, an unconscious reaction to the possibility that maybe her own steps were hindering her from listening those of her sibling. Yet everything was silent.

Little Iceis then heard some strange noises, as though something was trying to strangle them mid-throat but failing miserably, and turned. Her big violet eyes were met by the sight of her little sister sitting on the floor and hiding her face between her knees. She was emitting those sounds.

Iceis stared at her for some long seconds. She knew Polaris was crying, she could tell because she had sometimes done the same. She also knew that Polaris wanted the book and, for what she had learnt from watching her siblings she could relate this two ideas and come to a conclusion. Polaris was crying because she couldn't get the book.

If someone had been inside Iceis head he would have found funny how, apparently understanding the problem or at least, having arrived to a credible conclusion she still felt so confused by her sister's reaction. The purplish skinned Princess walked to where her sister was and sat, cross-legged in front of her before reaching Polaris' forearm with her hand to give her some pats, signalling she wanted her sister to look at her. Iceis shifted her head to the side a bit.

"Polaris, why are you crying?" She asked, not much of an expression on her still childish features but a clear look of curiosity present in her gaze. She wanted to know if her previous assumption was right but most importantly, she wanted to make her crying stop. For a reason she didn't quite understand, se disliked the sight of her sister crying.

[member="Polaris Sovereign"]

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

The head attached to Polar's body slowly rose up and looked at a twin sister with tears steadily streaming down in small bubbly lines. She never considered herself a princess - which gave her access to so many things. She could cry, she could eat like a not-princess, she could do all of these things that would be frowned upon for a princess, and act like she didn't care for the punishment.

Her thought system was a bit out of the ordinary, having lived the way she had for so long lead her to believe she could do what she wanted, how she wanted, for whatever price she desired. This time it was a book, in trade for a few well acted tears.

Her eyes gave an answer almost as soon as they met her sister's hands. She wanted the book, and she didn't want to stop crying until she got her prize. Slowly she pointed with a singer finger and a broken voice, "B-b-book," she whispered. Her attention was mainly focused on the ancient piece of technology, something so simple and so out of the normal it had to be hers, like a collection of rocks.

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]

 

[Syss Rembala]

Iceis was seemingly blind to the hysteric reaction of her little sister. She had never been capricious herself and had more often than not ignored the luxurious life she had access too. She hadn't asked for many of the things she couldn't on her own, even if getting them on her own simply meant climbing a couple of steps and reaching to get something purposely left for her to grab, she had always been...independent. Yes, Iceis had always felt more comfortable in the solitude of independence.

So, in her still young and very naïve eyes, her little sister must have really wanted the book for some deep reason. Maybe she had spent endless hours looking for it and couldn't find it because Iceis had it, maybe she had a strong desire of reading the stories it held. They were children stories, stories about heroes and monsters and fables and myths. It was the kind of book Iceis would read for fun, immersing herself in one and not coming out of the literary fantasy world until she was finished.

This way, wanting simply to cease her sister's sobs and maybe even enjoy one of the stories together, the white haired Princess offered the book to Polaris. "Stop crying" She added, in a tone not commanding but slightly cold for after all, she wanted the disturbing feeling of having her sister cry to be gone. She remained seated, watching Polaris and waiting to see what she did with the book.

[member="Polaris Sovereign"]

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

The simple achievement of robbing the book from her sister's hands was complete. Polaris slowly got up from her sitting position and up-turned her nose to her twin in a snotty victory. The crying had ceased incredibly, and now she was slowly walking away with both arms wrapped around the prize.

She didn't necessarily want to make comments on how much her sister was gullible to her soft crying trick, but she was. This behavior was starting to really shape her life, and it didn't seem as if many people were working to stop it.

Heading to her room, without so much as looking at the cover with her sister's company, she felt a deep pride building up in her chest. Anything was better when it was stolen, in her opinion.

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]

 

[Syss Rembala]

Iceis remained in her position for some minutes after her sister left. She was no longer trying to understand her sister's behavior but rather just pondering on what to do next. Today was a day in which she did really have nothing to do and her Mother was occupied with important matters, meaning she was not able to tag along with her as she usually did.

She then decided to head to her chambers which where right next to Polaris'. Her room didn't look like a child's room at all. There were a lot of books and scripts tidily placed upon shelves and the only "toys" that where scattered in the floor where inoffensive replicas of weapons Iceis had been playing with earlier. She picked them up and returned them to their original places, leaving the room tidied once more.

It was right after this that a servant entered her chambers and, after bowing, addressed the only white haired child in the room, "Dinner will be served soon, my Princess" The green twi'lek spoke. Iceis looked at her and nodded before adding, "I will call my sister, you can leave" She was polite when speaking yet utterly distant.

Without loosing time, Iceis walked to Polaris chambers with the intention of calling on her sister so that they could both head to have dinner.

[member="Polaris Sovereign"]

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

In just the few minutes that had ventured out, young Polaris had read small bits of the book - and once finding it was not as wonderful as she had hoped, she put it on one of many shelves around her room, filled with action figures, stacks of credits, small metal figures, and tons of datapads, as well as a collection of various holopads.

Sitting on her bed - which was just as messy as the terribly cluttered floor, giving some clean-up servants something to do when they walked into her chambers, she ate a few of her small ration bits, staring down at one of her many new colored holopads to watch cartoons that were aired by her favorite radio station. It was a kid, just like her, but she was so bright!

Her eyes sparkled in amusement. She wished she could meet that girl some time in the future, some time be as great as that little black haired girl in the picture was. The princess gently took hold of her hair, then looked down with small silent tears dripping onto her holopad.

A gulp of bravery later, she had taken it upon herself to take one of her metal figures, and simply begin to chop off chunks of her hair so she couldn't see it anymore, taking on a very tomboyish look to her young age.

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]

 

[Syss Rembala]

The white haired Princess took a step into te room,

"Sist-..." Iceis violet gaze had reached Polaris, who was apparently randomly cutting her hair with a metal figure. Automatically Iceis head tilted to the side as confusion was plastered in her expression. Her little nose was scrunched up a little bit. She wasn't bothered in the slightest bit about her sister cutting off her beautiful hair, it was her hair after all but...why?

Iceis couldn't understand such an apparently purposeless action. Even if it did have a purpose, it would have been more logical to ask one of the servants to do it for her.

"Is something wrong with your hair?" She asked. It was very well known that Iceis was also quite tomboyish but her hair...she did take good care of it. She liked it. She then decided adding a proposition before her sister answered.

"I can cut it if you'd like" It was strange to see Iceis offer help so openly but Polaris was family, which meant Iceis was naturally more comfortable around her. Dinner could wait if Polaris accepted.

[member="Polaris Sovereign"]

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

A startled gasp emitted a dreaded silence from Polaris as Iceis made her presence known with the sound of words. She sat there in a very quiet pose, and soon looked down at the metal figure. Without much more to say, she answered the first and second question with a hint of shyness. "It's not black... I don't want to see it anymore, so you can cut it all off."

Such a boast of bravery was put into use as she held the metal figure, which had it's very own sharp edge to assist the process of cutting through. She shook in her bed, afraid of what her mother might think. She now had a reasonable excuse for it, if she did end up getting caught and scowled at for her destruction.

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]

 

[Syss Rembala]

Silently, Iceis walked to Polaris and gently took the sharp edged metallic figure from her hand. She then moved over to the bed and sat, behind her sister. She hadn't offered an answer yet but Polaris' words resonated over and over again in her head. What was wrong with white hair? Did black make any difference? To her sister it did but still, for some reason, Iceis was very reluctant to see her sister bald headed.

She did understand that if she did not cut the hair, Polaris would do it herself and probably get injured in the process seeing as how cutting one's hair so close to the scalp, specially when in the back of the head, was not a precisely easy endeavor. So, without a word but with a thousand thoughts, Iceis proceeded to gently cut her sister's hair.

During long minutes she did this. But, what Polaris probably wouldn't have noticed right away, was that Iceis had not shortened her hair in the slightest bit apart from what Polaris had shortened the pieces she cut, just matched it all in length and structure so that it didn't look messy. Then she stopped.

"We could dye it black" She proposed. It wouldn't be difficult, they only needed to get the dye and this would be easily done if they required it from a servant. "I think it would look good on you" Iceis added, giving her sister a sweet and meant compliment, a strange but clearly honest action on behalf of Iceis.

[member="Polaris Sovereign"]

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

As her beautiful white locks were being trimmed down, Polaris took ahold of her holopad and stared at the beautiful person she saw before. She wasn't aware of it yet, but she had a crush on this stranger on the internet. After a while of silence, she held up the pad to her sister's view, turning her head just a small bit.

"I want my hair like that," she said with a bite of her lip. Her cheeks flushed in embarrassment, but she was brave enough to openly express her feelings. "I want to look just like her," She told her sister.

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]

 

[Syss Rembala]

The violet eyes of the Princess examined the girl on the holopad that her sister was holding for her to see. She very slightly tilted her head as she observed for some seconds. One would have thought she was trying to discern the details of the image but truth was, she was simply trying to find what made that girl so special that she generated admiration in her sister.


Whatever...She thought after arriving to no conclusion. "I like your hair like it is but if you want it like this then we can do it" Iceis said and stood up from the bed. She walked to the wall were a pad with different buttons was located and pressed the first one. Soon enough, a servant came and Iceis required of her the dye and proper elements to give her sister a hair cut.

Iceis shifted and looked at Polaris before the servant arrived with everything she had required for. "Thank you, you can leave." She said and returned to it on her sister's bed.

"Are you sure you want to change your hair?" She asked one last time, just in case.

[member="Polaris Sovereign"]

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

The young princess had felt nervous about it this whole time, and now that more people knew about it she was shaking in her own anxiousness. As she trembled she nodded her head slowly, leaning forward so all of her hair could be altered.

"Just make it look pretty like hers. I want mommy to think I'm pretty." She said with a tiny little smile hidden back on her face. Who knows what mommy would think...

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]

 

[Syss Rembala]

"Mommy already thinks we are pretty" Iceis responded fairly quickly. Their mother wasn't precisely the most warm and affectionate mother of the world but Iceis knew she loved them and cared a lot for them. Plus, she couldn't really tell how her mother would react to Polaris' change of appearance.

She also realized that, in the hypothetical case she got mad, Iceis would also get in trouble. She looked at Polaris for a moment, apparently she really wanted to look like the girl on the holopad. Iceis took a very short breathe and nodded, "It'll look even prettier" She said upon opening her eyes, an inkling of a smile on her small lips.

She got to work immediately after that and after some minutes finished cutting her sister's hair. She still needed to wash it and dye it and so she guided Polaris to the big bathroom located in her chambers and proceeded to start the remaining processes. After an hour and a half she was done. She looked at Polaris for a minute or two, satisfied with her work, she allowed her sister to look at herself in the mirror. Iceis had gotten it quite right, apparently she was handy with a pair of scissors and following the dye's instructions had been easy.

"Do you like it?"

[member="Polaris Sovereign"]

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

Polaris didn't exactly believe the first statement that came from her sister's mouth. To her, she imagined having a nice mommy who got her whatever she wanted and always came to hug her when she did something cool. Like breaking an entire wall down with just a hammer. For her sister's peace of mind, she didn't verbalize her expressions.

After all was said and done with her hair, and she was dried and ready to look at, she went up to the mirror and slowly stroked her hair, keeping a blank expression in the mirror. After a while she spoke into it. "Hello I am Jane," She coughed a tiny bit, then tried again in a deeper voice. "Hello I am Jane, I do things... Cool things." She blinked at the sight for a while, then turned and ran out of the bathroom and into her room.

She was again, unstated. Under the covers of her bed she hugged her holopad and began to weep once more in self disappointment.

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]

 

[Syss Rembala]

Iceis decided to stand, observing of her sister's reaction. Nothing. Her face was blank at first and just when Iceis was about to repeat the question, Polaris started to speak in a funny voice, introducing herself as Jane.

It didn't take a mastermind to discern that Jane was most surely the girl from the holopad. But, at least in Iceis opinion, it did take a mastermind to understand why her sister ran out of the bathroom and into the bed, to cover herself and start crying once again.

Iceis, now standing in the middle of the room, took in a sharp breath that left her mouth open ever so slightly and her fists curled a little. She was simply so confused by her sister's reactions. She couldn't understand them. They were beyond her.

"Polaris, what is it now?" She asked, running and jumping onto her sister's bed, landing on her but in a way she didn't hurt her at all. Polaris was still under the sheets but the violet-eyed sibling needed desperately an explanation.

[member="Polaris Sovereign"]

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

Chilly tears ran down Polar's cheeks and spotted the bed with imperfections. She sniffled and whimpered a tiny bit, slowly lowering the sheet between both herself and her sister. With sniffles ranging left and right, she rubbed her eyes and spoke in a very quiet and shy tone.

"I wanna be like the podcaster, b-but my voice is too high! It's too clean and n-not like her!" She bursted into tiny tears and plopped to the side, whimpering and shuddering in a mess of sobs. At least she looked a little more like Jane.

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]

 

[Syss Rembala]

Iceis removed herself from over Polaris before plopping on one side of the bed, next to her sister. Her head was hanging back in defeat. She couldn't understand the reasoning behind Polaris emotions but still, she wanted them to stop.

"You know you don't need to be her in order to be...cool?" She asked, the last word sounding strange in her mouth but that was how Polaris had described the girl in the holopad.

"I think you are cooler than her, sister." She added. Her tone was calm and rather inexpressive but fully honest. It indeed was her opinion and she didn't see why Polaris should feel differently. Iceis really didn't know what else she could say, comforting wasn't her best ability. She simply looked at Polaris with hopeful violet eyes and wished it was enough to return her sister's emotions to a stable, understandable state.

[member="Polaris Sovereign"]

 

[Polaris Sovereign]

It was now her turn to not understand. She stared with confused eyes, then shook her head to the questions. She had to be cool, just like Jane. Her sister was obviously just behind on the cool stuff. She hugged herself a small moment. "I have to be cool like her, or else I'm just like you, or like mom, and not cool." She murmured.

[member="Iceis Sovereign"]