The Grassy Plains of Tython
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Pre-War Training l Pre-War Meeting
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Jax Thio
The Jedi Master placed his hand on Annelise's shoulder a part of him wanted to tell her about the events of the battle but he pushed it aside. She needed to know that Jax was not perfect not the fact that he was likely the son of a Monster. "It's only through experiencing fear," Jax continued. "Is when we find out who we truly are. A person can't be brave if they're not afraid."
She recalled back weeks prior to her first legitimate field mission, the one that took place on Tatooine. There she had met Ghora, a rather large and skilled, but compassionate mercenary, a smile creeping to her face as she thought on his strength. It was there, she had met the man who was now her Master. Not knowing at the time, but Jax had taught Anneliese a valuable lesson that day... admitting and knowing your strengths and weaknesses. She had been gung-ho to please, like normal, but when it came down to the wire... it had overwhelmed her. Fear had crept into the door... but those words....
. "A person can't be brave, if they're not afraid.".... These words resonated deep within her. Deep in her core, she
wanted to be brave, not just for her, but for all of those she came to love and hold dear within her heart.
Jax released his hand from her shoulder and motioned Annelise to follow him. "You need to find what drives you," Jax said. "Who or what gives you the motivation to keep going. Once you do, cling on to that no one can take it from you. A healthy attachment is what separates a Jedi from a Sith. Find something worth fighting for and you can always conquer your fears."
This
whole time, the
WHOLE time... what got her up daily out of bed, what pushed her for one more minute of extra training... was the sheer effort and drive to please those around her, to finally be accepted by her peers, to have, a Master. But now that she had achieved those things, now that the hustle of the days had come to this halt as they stood on the precipice of war... she had to ask herself this question -- nothing standing so that she could conveniently push it off. She spoke it aloud, as if unsure and unsettled.
"What... drives me?" Her voice cracked slightly as she pondered on it, the question hitting her harder than expected. She didn't have an immediate answer to it, and that bothered her.
He chuckled. "You're just jumpy from the combat high," Jax said. "I share your concern with your taste of battle but when the fighting starts, you're going to be far away from the action. You're not ready yet."
Still, Anneliese needed to clear her mind from what happened at Tatooine. "Sit down and meditate," Jax said. "Clear your mind and breathe, allow the Force to flow through your body and relax. Trust in the Living Force."
This following statement bothered her even more. Anneliese from the time of Tatooine had put in more hours and time in spare mission time and lightsaber training than she had ever done prior... I mean, if there had been an award for working while you slept, she probably would have won it. Wasn't ready? She visibly pouted at Jax as she crossed her shoulders just slightly, her spirited nature emerging.
"Aw, come'on Master. I know my forms are a bit choppy, but I'm tellin ya -- I've been working on them." Grunting, well, more like growling under her breath, the young girl sat down in a defeated manner, knowing Jax wouldn't be having it --- and simply crossed her legs and began to relax as she closed her eyes... he was right, she needed to slow down, breathe and relax. She needed to find her pace again... and so, breathing in and out deeply, the young padawan began to meditate.