My Apology; I'm Sorry Chaos, I have failed you.

[Cloudburner]

I want to apologise for my behaviour and posts in the "My Pros and Cons of Chaos" thread. I wrote posts which may be deemed as rude, and disrespectful, and I generally was a bad sport about everything.

Now, I'm not making excuses for anything I said in that thread, but for the past month, a lot has been going on in my family. A member of my family recently died, and my family and I are struggling. I do not want to discuss that matter a whole lot right now.

Now, I want to redeem my integrity and hastily apologise for the things I posted. I was not myself when I posted, and I want to ask you all to forgive and forget.

What I posted was arrogant, self-loving and dick-ish of me to do. I just want to say, that was not the real me. I was blinded by hatred, sadness and negative emotions which overall clouded (Pun was not intended) my vision to see what I was doing was wrong.

I love you all, and hopefully this matter will be forgotten about in the time to come. For now, I just want to apologise for the immaturity I shown in that thread.

For you reading right now, sitting at your keyboard, you hopefully have experienced death of a cherished-family member before and know the emotions that come with it. If you don't, it is sad, and leads to an outright long list of negative emotions, which may lead to you expressing your anger in unnecessary ways.

But this is not an excuse, neither is it a get-out-of-jail free card. All it is, is me putting my emotions to rest and resolving a bigger problem. A problem, which I caused out of my own stupidity and indecency, enough to express my emotions in a take-it-out-on-everybody else manner.

The Feels of posting are intense right now, and let's hope we can brighten the mood with a few GIF images or memes or so.

 

[Zaiden Dean]

Wait...

You want others to have felt the loss of a family? 0.o

Either way, loss is hard. I feel you on that

 

[Connor Harrison]

[member=Cloudburner] Hey - life is cruel sometimes to us, and the only place we feel we can release these confused, difficult emotions is a place we spend a lot of time and sometimes fingers can type lots of things we may not mean at times.

We are one community here and understand we can't all be perfect all the time and these things happen.

Don't beat yourself up about it because worse things have been posted and will be in the future. Sorry for your loss; if you need time to focus and regain composure IRL, don't be afraid to take a LOA from here. That's what they are for, and you can come back refreshed, ready and with a clear head.

 

[Jack Sparrow]

Worry less about what other people think. Do your thing. Be creative. Leave negative people alone. Write your character. This is meant to be a hobby, not a job. Have more fun.

 

[Nyx]

We get it. Life happens, and sometimes we don't have a clear head when we're writing.
Just do your thing, and things will fall into place.

 

[Zenva Vrotoa]

[member="Cloudburner"]

Listen to [member="Jack Sparrow"], he's on the right path.

Lose sucks. I get it. My father has stage 4 cancer and was just put on hospice care with the game plan of "make him comfortable till the cancer kills his a$$"

Yeah it's not pretty. Yeah I sound like a real vile kind of person when I say it that way. But if I don't say it that way I'm going to have another breakdown.

Here's my point...

Your popping up a LOT in the little time you have been here. You're either throwing flak in someone's face or getting it thrown back every single time I see you.

My advice...

Step back.
Breath.
Wait.
You got your chit together right this second?

If not, maybe you shouldn't say anything else to that person right now. Maybe it's better to step away and regain your composure before you throw more flak. You don't know what's going on on their side of the screen. Maybe their father is dying, wasting away to nothing and all they can do is hold his hand and watch. Maybe they are looking for someone to pick a fight with to distract themselves from their pain. Maybe they need to hurt someone else's feelings so they don't feel alone in their anguish.

Try to calm down sir. Try to step back instead of making more posts were you have to apologize for "running your mouth" or whatever it is you did.

You don't have to listen to me. I don't really care. You want to be forgiven for being rude?

Than stop being rude.

Just my opinion though.

 

[Dune Rhur]

Frankly, I saw nothing to apologise for.