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Derek Dib
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Daegon Corvinus
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Muad Dib
Location: Garden
Wearing: XOXO
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“I cannot help myself. You know this. Every time I think about how close we all came to losing each other…I cannot find air. If my eyes are the price? It has already been paid.”
These words did not sound like the cheerful woman he had married so long ago. She felt more herself when he stood at her side, but things had changed.
Serafina held to the arm of her husband as if it were her lifeline. In some ways—It was. She doubted herself as she never had in the past. Her moral compass had always led her in the direction she needed to go. Now, it felt askew. The quiet diathim walked alongside the Viceroy Thyferra and the darkness felt a little less complete. Even if she wasn’t fit to stand at his side it didn’t change how she felt. Her heart was full of him. Daegon was her family. Beloved, and cherished.
He was all she had ever dreamed of; but never had the chance to hope for.
The words that fell from him were made to comfort her. Reassure her. They would not leave their family alone, especially, in a time of need. Things between herself and Daegon had changed since she had awoken blind as a newborn kitten. She had retreated into herself as she never had. Her smiles were fewer. The longer it went on the more she felt herself forgetting. Were his eyes really the shade she thought they were?
Or was it something different?
Was her mind making up tricks?
When she touched his face, she could imagine the cut of his jaw, the soft cupid of his lips. The way they still fit so well against her own. How. How had they come to this?
“I do not forget that, husband.”
No. Serafina didn’t forget to let him love her. The auburn-haired princess simply didn’t think she was worthy of his affections any longer. How could she please him? How could she tend to any younglings they may have had without sight to see them grow or play? To love them and keep them safe from harm? What kind of mother would that make her? What kind of legacy did that leave?
Her chin tucked a little lower while her eyes burned behind the blindfold. Her heart quickened while her shoulders tightened. What if the Jedi could not mend what had been ruined?
“—And it was not your mistake Daegon. I have begged you not to say such things.”
They arrived at the gardens soon enough. The air smelled floral and light. Beautiful. If sunlight and warmth had a scent, she knew it would be here. The peace was broken by the rage that burned through the Dib they had come to see most. Seraphina thought Maud an eccentric brother, though, did not truly understand the depths of depravity of which he would pervade in order to avenge his brother. She did not know what lay beneath the surface.
Her aura spilled through the gardens in a cooling wave. It was the natural ambiance that the fabled Angel of Thyferra held that washed them all with perfect gentleness. Serenity in the purest form. For a brief moment, it gave the sense of feeling whole, of knowing, they were eternally loved by something far greater than themselves. It wasn’t forceful nor did it wane. Waiting for those who could let go of their pain and come to the light. It battled with the embittered and unfettered emotion that raised to the sky from
Derek Dib
. She pulled forward, briefly, and almost tripped over a piece of broken stone that had rolled unbidden in their path.
Frustrated—A subtle song began to bubble from her throat. A wordless aria that was softer than a whispering breeze. It wasn’t bewitching so much as it was just intriguing to listen to. For Seraphina, it gave her some semblance of spatial awareness as she read the sound waves that bounced back through a form of weak echolocation. Sound had always been her art. Without her sight—It was growing stronger.
She heard the telltale sound of a lightsaber extinguish.
Daegon would feel her urgency, despite, the titillating words he used to soften the event.
The soft song continued to leave her.
Carefully—She released her husband. It likely wasn’t the smartest thing. Her hands reached out in much the same way that she had sought the love of her life in their rooms. Unsteady. Hesitant. She could, in her own way, feel two shapes that might have been men. Or oddly shaped statues. The reverberations of her voice throwing notes to reflective surfaces let her approach the rest of the way.
Her first hand touched
Muad Dib
. As if burned, she drew back, as she realized it was the wrong brother. Seraphina didn’t know how she knew. She just did. Two hands found Derek. He was their family just as much as anyone with their blood had ever been. She wished more than anything that Derek could stay with herself and Daegon on Thyferra where it was safe.
“Derek…”, she breathed, and the song stopped. She had him now.
A shy hand moved up the front of his fancy dress clothes. Far up. Seraphina was slender but she wasn’t as slight of stature as some females. “Daegon, my love, can we simply stop loathing ourselves here and now?”, Sera uttered, sightlessly, finding her way. Eventually, her palms found Derek’s cheeks and the tenderest of touches brushed his singular tear away. As if she could see it. As if she knew it was there. The soft-touch let her learn him again. See him in her mind. Daegon was easier to recall. This brought back some of the things she had forgotten.
“We are here too. Sir Muad is also here with us. Please, Derek.”
The blindfold over her eyes could not be moved. Even without seeing her, he would know that her sincerity was always exactly that. She meant everything she said. The guilt was coming to rest among them all with the heaviness of a storm cloud. What should have been a meaningful reunion as Olanet and the Siskeen returned from the dark; was marred by that which had laid them low.
So many, many people, had died for nothing.
“I understand. I feel it too. We all feel this…Guilt. This notion of being capable of doing something more. We blame ourselves…”, she whispered slowly while one hand fell from Derek so that she could find her husband again. They were all so much stronger together—As the Vicelord said in his broadcasts. “When are we going to stop and let the blame lay with whom is actually responsible?”
Seraphina still struggled with it. She couldn’t get it out of her head. The feeling of Derek protecting her first. Feeling her body grow cold, numb, in the arms of Daegon. Feeling the heart of her husband break. It was all too horrible to think about.
They had to be strong.
“I can’t do this without both of you.”