Though it had seemed ageless and foreboding, as the boy placed his first step upon the way up through the Spire he was made aware of just how long it had stood in place. Cracked stone steps covered with moss, walls wound through with ivy, it was a wonder the thing had not fallen apart before now. It did not appear as it had from afar... Was this just an illusion? Was his own consciousness affecting the mountain he was now to climb?
Thesh had spent plenty of time with only the Force for company, locked upon worlds far from the throws of society. Surely if this was it he should have known, but he didn't. It felt real, tangible... Unnerving. He took the stairs two at a time, following the hollow cries of the disembodied voice, onward it pulled him, and onward he leapt, until his legs ached and fatigue threatened to put an end to it.
Even then he felt compelled to continue. A snatch of red hair peeked around the next bend. Was he gaining on it? Surely a little while longer and he would have it in his grasp...
"Please, wait..."
The light of the moon was eclipsed by rising sun as he came upon a room, the first afforded to him by the aged stairwell. When he set his first foot into the place it rippled and distorted, until what lay before him was not the Spire at all but a place all too familiar to the one who entered. A moment lost within the corners of his mind.
Before him stretched a vast room, filled to the brim with bodies and machinery he never thought he'd look upon again. They whirred and moved, each as much a cog as the other. The next breath he took stuck within his throat, and after an involuntary blink of his eyes he felt certain he had shrunk several feet in size. His view was lower, now, barely able to stand at the conveyer belt.
He slid into place alongside the others without much thought, and joined them in the assembly of something far more complex than his mind could comprehend. He did not need to be shown what it was he was meant to do, he picked up the two parts and slotted them together with ease, before returning the item to the conveyer belt. At his right the next child picked it back up, screwing something new into the device. And so on. Down the line... away from view.
Soon enough he fell into a rhythm. Everything around him melted away until his body, robotic in nature, took over the menial task and his mind his a state almost akin to meditation. Thoughts and dreams drifted throughout, hope that one day a brighter day would come... Hope... He had not felt such in so long now; it swelled within his chest, and alleviated much of the aching he felt within his body. Hours toiled by, but he kept it up, he kept going.
An explosion shook the foundations of the factory. Glass shards blew inwards as the windows shattered. All around him children fell to their knees, their terror palpable. Mirrored upon his own expression. Even the guards who stalked the floor, tasked with keeping the youngsters in check, seemed to falter. They called to those who were sane enough to listen, a new mission swiftly overtaking the prior; to shepherd, to protect.
He fell into pace alongside several others, hands pressed over his ears as further blasts echoed beyond the walls. Blaster fire rose among them, screams in the streets beyond. Thesh kept his head down, his heart raced and strange thoughts occurred to him: His mother... Who would protect his mother?
They were met at the doors of the factory by strange men in armoured suits. Balked at to follow, held at gunpoint, the children complied. Their saviours, men they had hated for so long, crumpled to the ground as bolts were loosed. Like his fellows Thesh kept his head down, Thesh followed...
But something within him stirred, a sensation he had not felt in a great many years. Not since his Father had eroded his will... A desire to stand tall, to not walk silently into the night. As they were herded toward ships, as Ession blazed around them, the boy reached out and snatched a holstered weapon from those who would bring them into their abattoir. The blaster felt cold in his hands, foreign, but determination rose within him and as quickly as he had it he loosed several rounds into the nearest man.
His one simple act seemed to spur on a desire to live in his fellow children. With one of their assailants down they turned into quite the viscous pack, making quick work of the second who barely had time to comprehend what had happened.
Pride swelled within his chest, as together they took a stand. They turned back toward the planet, away from the ship they'd been herded toward, and fell upon the streets. Others rose to join them, unwilling to go down without a fight. And then he slowed... His face scrunched up as he peered around himself, confusion wrought upon his expression.
This wasn't right. This wasn't how it had gone at all...
Thesh shook his head. In an instance the weapon fell from his hands and thudded against the duracrete ground at his feet. "No," he called out, "This is not how this plays out. I didn't do it, couldn't do it..."
All eyes fell on him in the seconds which followed, and aside from the turning of heads the chaos subdued as though someone had merely hit the pause button. He shuddered then, peering at all of the faces which were quick to fade away. He did not know who they were, could not attribute a visage to any one of them. Faceless beings every one.
"I cannot change it. Will not change it. Let it go. Let me go."
Around him the image began to fracture; like the windows the façade shattered into a million little pieces, until he stood once more within that empty room. More steps ascended upward but Thesh simply shook his head and scoffed.
"I will not play your game," he announced, to the boy he had heard, perhaps, or maybe to no one. He turned, and descended those steps as swiftly as he could. In fact he seemed to be out of there in mere minutes. As though there had only been a hundred steps to scale, not the million he felt certain he had previously stepped upon.
As the strange air hit him when he reached the field once more Thesh dropped to his knees and hung his head in shame. Face to face with his greatest moment of weakness, offered a chance at redemption... Should he have taken it? Should he have altered that which was set in stone?
"It wasn't real," he told himself, despite how much it had sucked him in, despite how real it had felt. It wasn't real... Right?