Ko's words hung in the air, laden with the weight of truth and introspection. Braze thought about that and considered this perspective. He had always felt a certain detachment, a nagging sense that he didn't quite fit into the mold that the New Jedi Order had for him. Previously, he had thought that was just what would happen—that he would always be overlooked, never truly chosen for his merits. He had spent so much time honing his combative skills, hoping to impress someone enough to choose him, and yet, when he was finally selected, it wasn't for his fighting prowess.
Those old fears and thoughts resurfaced, casting a glassy look in his eyes as his face grew heated suddenly. Nobody wanted him... Not his mom, not his dad, not the Jedi, not his peers. No one. The more he thought about it, the more certain he became that if he disappeared, he wouldn't be missed. Well... not no one. Maybe one person might miss him. That person was a lot like him but had become someone great, someone many others looked up to and sought out for wisdom.
Those were some big shoes to fill... Braze wasn't sure he could live up to such a legacy.
Braze didn't like anything Ko was saying to him, but he couldn't really argue with it now, could he? Or maybe he could. And he did.
"You don't know that. You can play a million and ten games of 'what ifs', 'could haves', and so on, and never come remotely close to the reality of what could be," Braze said with an almost bitter tone.
"I get what you're saying, Ko, but it's not that simple. The traditions, the roots, they're what give us strength, a foundation. But it's not just about holding onto the past. It's about making something of ourselves now, today. And sometimes, I just feel like... like I'm not making anything. Like I'm just here, filling a space that anyone else could fill better."
He paused,
"Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm not seeing the bigger picture. But it feels like no matter how hard I try, it's never enough. And yeah, I guess that makes me angry. Angry that I have to fight so hard just to feel like I belong."