Nowhere to Run
(Post Soundtrack: "Human" by Ellie Goulding)
Daiya laughed. A sound that came to her as if from far away, as if from someone else. Ecstacy crept up on her, an old friend to embrace her from behind, surprising the teen while deep in the depths of the Abyss. It was the first time she felt it since coming down here, perhaps the first time since the moment the teen's nimble fingers had lifted the key from the old spacer in a drunken slumber. She laughed as if it had been there the whole time, standing by with its promise of life and hope for the future while Daiya struggled through planning stresses and their terrifying ordeal so far in the deep.
For now she rose up, clinging to a creature the defied all her expectations. The ringing sound of Brie's amplified voice came to her across the void between their chosen tentacles, and Daiya tipped her head up toward her friend's gasbag host. Her tongue stuck out in playful retort, only managing to touch the restrictive plate of her facemask instead. With Brie rising beyond earshot, Daiya just cocked a snook at her friend instead, answering the scrapper girl's ribbing in the only way she could now.
Her laughter met a discordant harmony in the sardonic wit of the boy nearby, his sense of humor making Daiya wish she'd picked another creature to ride now. She soured at his joke, aiming a withering gaze over at the ginger boy, piercing through him as if she could spy into his very soul. Her voice lost its gaiety as the young shadowrunner spoke low across the meter or so between their chosen tentacles. "You know what I read once? That if you're planning on taking out your treasure guide, you should really do it without witnesses."
Daiya didn't feel the need to gesture at the other Lotkaasi nearby, the watching form of Brie above them, or guide catching up from below. Her arms just shifted her grasp on the tentacle instead, leaning out from it as if she had not a care in the world. She opened her blue eyes toward Cartri, hoping he'd keep his mouth shut long enough to hear the meaning of her words. "But you've been on my case this whole trip, ragging on me and second-guessing everything I do, and everyone's sick of it. I don't think anyone else would mind if I made this gasbag one Human lighter, do you?"
"So what gives, Cartri," she asked, using his real name this time. "What's your fething problem?"
“My problem? What in the name of kark are you on about Daiya?" Cartri questioned back to her, his head tilting slightly from her sudden outburst of anger towards him. Did the stress of the spiders get to her? Or did that headache really mess with her senses?
“Sure I’ve been annoying, but that doesn’t give you the right to berate me. Has it not kept you on your toes and forced you to give your mind a moment's rest from the mission?!” the boy urged in a stern whispered voice between them, biting back at Daiya for saying those stinging words “I honestly don’t hope you think I mean it... Come on Daiya, you’re more smarter than that.”
"Wait, wait, wait. You think you're doing me a fething favor?!" Daiya stared bewildered at a boy she thought was only annoying. Somehow, in the midst of the most absurd setting she could have ever imagined holding a conversation, Cartri had managed to shatter her low expectations. "Were you raised on a starship? 'Cause I can't imagine how else you could treat someone so badly and think you're helping."
“Firstly, no I wasn’t raised on a blasted starship and secondly you’re blowing this way of proportion! We’re alive are we not? If it wasn’t for your little headache back there we probably would of been bug grub.”
Cartri slowly shook his head and looked down to the floor below them, a frown crossing his lips in remembrance of where he was really raised, “Who cares where I was brought up anyway, all I had was a run down orphanage for the past fifteen years,” he said in a lowered tone, clearly sensitive of spilling the truths of his past “The other kids there were as rock bottom as I was, but I still chose to at least try and make their loneliness tolerable. Back in that dump, it was the only way for us kids to keep our minds hopeful...”
Finally looking back into the eyes of the fiery girl he took a deep breath and bravely answered to her face “I’m helping in the only way I know Daiya, so if that’s what you think of it then so be it.”
"Well," Daiya started, trying to absorb the boy's whole life story in one go. "That fething sucks."
There wasn't much else she could say about it all.
"I don't suppose you'd want to hear about my childhood, but it sucked too. I get it, Cartri." The teen really felt a pang of sympathy for him, when Daiya had hit her low, she found Shenn and eventually Tawrrowaldr to help lift her back up. "But you need to seriously chill out. You're not helping, you're not even being funny. Look at me, am I laughing? Your jokes aren't humor, they're just crude. They hurt, Cartri. Call me a Headache, whatever, I don't give a chit, but everything else is just fething rude."
Cartri hated when him and Daiya argued, the thought of spiraling out of control again worried him to the core. The girl was someone he admired and more, being around her made life more tolerable. In other words, Daiya was one of a kind.
“I’m sorry if I’ve made you distressed alright? I-I just want to help you get out of this in one piece...” the boy said softly as he lowered his head. The teen's cheeks would lightly blush from what he said, almost embarrassed that he said something nice to a girl he liked.
“If that’s what you want, I’ll shut up and keep to myself. I’d rather not be a hindrance on the mission...”
For as long as he knew Cartri thought he was helping them out by giving their minds a moments rest from a stressful situation, but in reality he was only making it worse. The wake up call hit him hard, sending him into silence for the first time in a while. Daiya was nothing but correct, he had been selfish and crude to everyone on the mission.
“You were right and I was wrong, I don’t even know why I even questioned it to be honest,” said Cartri in almost a grateful tone, as if he was happy to finally get a kick up the ass for how he was acting. With a shy smile, he looked back to Daiya and sighed.
“Am I always this annoying to you?”
Daiya waited out the boy's diatribe, watching him put himself down better than she could. Her heart twisted a little to see it, Cartri really wasn't such a bad person. She'd seen him be noble, bold, and even a little sweet. So why did he insist on being so acerbic to her every time he opened his mouth? "Only when you talk," the teen answered, her small grin hidden behind a facemask. She sighed. "I didn't mean you have to shut up and keep to yourself. You could just be a little nicer."
She had no idea how to make Cartri understand, or if he even could. Daiya glanced up at the beasts of the air, wondering how long they would ride them. Until they reached the lower city again? That would take an eternity, even longer if Cartri kept being the misanthrope here. "Look, I didn't tell you off for coming along. I could have, and you know I would have if someone chit showed up. I don't hide behind jokes or politeness, so I guess I'm just kinda at a loss when someone does. Just say what you mean, Cartri, please?"
“I-...I like you Daiya,” he said in a lowered tone, his pale cheeks flushing brightly as he looked away from the girl he admired “You’re awesome, you’re funny... a-and dare I say it cute,” the boy muttered with a shy smile, almost like he was too afraid to look her in the eye and see her emotion.
In all honesty, Cartri had liked her from the very start. The fact they kept teasing each other was a telltale sign of their personalities bouncing off each other, and that was something he loved most about her. She was annoying, but she was one of the few that stood by him in his darkest moments. Daiya really was a friend he couldn’t let go of.
“There, I said it...I love you Daiya.”
Daiya just stared, her jaw loose as she blinked a few times. The teen glanced away, trying to focus on something in the distance. As if that was less complicated than listening to Cartri's declaration of love while clinging to the tentacles of an organic dirigible creature that lived and died thousands of meters beneath her head at night. Her jaw worked behind the facemask, her voice escaping her at the moment.
She sighed, a mournful pang that echoed her desperate wish to have ridden any of the other creatures. The young shadowrunner glanced down, as if there was an alternative beneath her feet. Nothing. Daiya could only cling to their generous hosts until the guides figured out their next step, stuck for feth-knows-how-long across from a boy who just ripped her offer wide open to knock directly on her heart. It pounded it her chest, mercilessly beating at Daiya for her own stupidity.
"Wow," was all Daiya could say for a moment, not willing to look back at the knuckleheaded boy yet. "So, you annoy the feth outta me...because you love me?"
“Well, I wouldn’t of done it because I hate you,” Cartri replied, his head finally looking up to finally gaze at Daiya with an unsure expression “T-the truth is I’ve always admired you Daiya. Not only were you there during my times of need, but you forgave me when I didn’t deserve it,” the teen frowned from the memory of what he did to her.
“So yes Daiya, I do. Our little insult contests is something I cherish greatly, even if it’s silly it really makes my day just speaking to you..."
"I don't get it, Cartri. You mean, all this time you've been puppy-tailing and insulting me because you're in love with me? Did you take a whiff of the toxic air down here?" The teen shook her blonde curls, pulling herself tighter to the Lotkaasi tentacle. Her world was spinning and her heart pounding, making unrealistic demands of her. She squeezed some more, the tentacle's firm flesh had just enough give to offer the teen some steady reassurance. "'Cause you're not making any sense, you keep doing the opposite of what you're saying right now. Like, you 'love' me? Oh my stars! I don't even know what to say to that, and this is so not the time or place. What do you want me to do, rip off our masks and make out with you until we suffocate?"
"Can we please save the loverboy act until we're not one slip away from death?" Daiya finally looked back at Cartri, her eyes pleading with him alongside her tongue.
Cartri felt his confidence return slowly after finally spilling the beans on the secret he had been hiding away for almost a year. A smile began to brew in the corner of his lips from the classic response she gave, one that forced him to nod in compliance.
“You could probably say I have to be honest, my mask probably had a leak somewhere,” he responded with a shy smile before pulling himself further up the tentacle “I do know it’s not the time and place Daiya, but you did want me to be honest after all. What else was I meant to do, lie through my teeth?”
The teen wasn’t berating her by any means, but calmy reminding her she was the one that really wanted to know what he was thinking. Sighing loudly through his mask, he look to the side to see something approaching in the distance “We can talk about this after, alright? Maybe then will it be a more suitable setting.”
Daiya let out another heavy breath, craning her head up to see if she could spot one of their guides. Or Brie. At least someone other than Cartri right now. It was as close of an agreement as he was going to get right now. "Havn? Sera?! Are we close?"
It wasn't just a simple desire any longer, the teen's whole body surged with a need to get off the Lotkaasi now. She could feel it rising into her throat, forcing her to struggle over it to breathe. Daiya knew the sensation, that gripping worry that she was about to miss something, just not where it came from.
"Sera spotted a place to get off, it's just coming up." Havn's words drifted back down, and Daiya felt a drop of relief.
Soon enough, Daiya saw what the guides had spotted. A massive cavern rose within one of the buildings, and enough of the crumbling stone walls still stood to make out what it used to be. The teen felt the constriction in her throat ease when the Lotkaasi drifted into the cavern, as if sensing the desires of their group.
It wasn't until Daiya touched a solid platform beneath her feet again that she spotted a building the center of the highrise-cavern. The need in her body unwound all at once, filling the teen with an overwhelming confidence to point out, "That's it!"
She pointed to the dome-topped structure, a grin consuming her beneath the facemask. The young shadowrunner could hardly stop from dancing in place, grinning at each of their surviving group in turn. "I swear that's it, that's where we'll find Nas'roth's treasure!"
At long last, Daiya was certain now, they stood on the threshold of uncountable wealth and greatness.
Taking a final cheap shot at Cartri's expense, the teen declared to the group, "Okay, now you can love me."