Silara had smiled slightly at the Dark Lord's remark of the sentient crystal's interest in the apprentice, something she didn't quite care much about - as obtaining this crystal would give her the potential for a third, and probably final, saber. Of the Acolytes within the order of the One Sith, it was she whom was the least known, her own master knowing extremely little of her past, and while that perhaps benefited her greatly, it was her past that was an excellent stepping stone in this little session. Hatred. Passion. Darkness. She needn't try hard to have these emotions surface under her disguise as a pretty-face, and she calmly sat down in a meditative stance, her legs crossed with her hands cupped between her legs with the shining crystal in the palms of her hands. The moment her silver-green and hazel eyes closed, her body relaxed - every fiber of muscle, every joint between her bones, and every synapse in her nervous system slowed down as she began to draw herself deep within her inner consciousness. Just as she had with her master, the Sith saw herself in a field of darkness, and around her she could feel the presence of others - yet not see them, not as one would with their eyes, and not feel as one would by touch. It was a pleasurable feeling, as she could feel the darkness that the others harbored and the throbbing of her own feelings surging to life on command by the Sith Lord.
It was an entirely different experience for her that others could not possibly begin to describe, for her it was a falling back to memories of a darker time. "Mother, mother, oh mother I love, why have you taken me, taken me, into this world? Father, oh father, hate me you do, why have you forsaken me, hated me, tried to kill me - your own?" The words within her thoughts flowed to the forefront of her consciousness and she felt the passionate hatred for her family boil up from within her, and the remembrance of her mother's demise at her own hand ignited the flame of passion within her and blew it into a raging wildfire. The image of her holding her dying, crying, mother in her arms. The sight of the gaping holes in her mother's stomach from her own blaster rifle, by the hands of her twelve year old daughter. And then the feeling of her mother's body being crushed like tinfoil beneath her as she called upon the force to finish the job for her, to give her mother the ultimate death - which she reveled in with her tainted love. It was oh so lovely, so exhilarating, and the dark side of the force pulsated within her body like a formless dark beast, wishing to shed the mask of pleasant beauty, to show her marred soul, her corrupt mind, and her love for a presence that was always with her and yet never there.
She was beyond hopeless for those who would seek her out to bring her into the light, for she was born in a life of darkness, in the shadows, and it was this hate, turmoil, and disposition for true evil that her Hapan father became blind to his daughter, whom loved him in the most twisted of ways. Hapans were blind to the night, and her father was oblivious to the darkness that dwelled in his own household until it was far too late. She killed him, too. And now there was she, Silara, to live for the dark side, not as its master, nor as its tool or wielder - no, she lived as its lover, and it was this passion that fueled her scarred soul and surged like black fire within her veins and nerves. While she meditated on this, the crystal in her hand spoke to her in ways that she would never be able to describe to others for the remainder of her life, like the envious cries of a rejected lover. When her eyes opened at last, she smiled. The passion that she had harbored was much like the pain that [member="Darth Praelior"] had inflicted upon them with her force lightning, and yet so much more twisted and sweet.