Dante Sotari
Rook to Knight Four
"Do you have any issues with hurting people? Killing?"
There was a pause at that. Not because she didn't know the answer, but a certain vacancy in the dark blue gaze. A bottomless distance, just for a heartbeat, two, and then she spoke.
"I do not."
Maybe, once upon a time.
Please, don't make me, an echo of a smaller, younger voice begged. But it was just one moment in a thousand. And enough insults and abuses had been piled upon her mind and body since that day that it was easy to dismiss it. It took no effort to do so, and the little voice died again.
His next question made a bigger impact. Instead of a pebble tossed lightly into placid waters, it was a stone flung with force. She blinked, immediately reaching out to check for mental traps because surely he did not mean that question. The sincerity, the intent floated easily on the surface of his mind, not even requiring her to dip into that pool. If it was a trick, a trap, it was something far deeper than merely the joy of an 'aha gotcha!' moment.
Every line of her body was still, tense. It was a subtle change, one easy to over look because she had schooled herself into keeping the barest of reactions, even in the face of fears far greater than this. But the unknown intentions loomed, and there was fear there- she knew what the risks of her life were, knew how to avoid them as best as possible and when they must simply be endured. And she knew how to endure.
A no would be a lie. A yes would be a risk- not because she truly believed this was a trap, to catch her somehow and punish her for thinking above her station- not a trap like that anyway. A no would mean nothing changed. And there was a certain safety in that, perhaps not of body but of psyche.
A yes?
Risked everything.
If he meant it. Oh, he thought he meant it. But how many men could say such a thing and then simply continue to use her as a different set-piece, because of course their use was different. The illusion that there was a difference in flavors of use, well....
There was every chance that he still intended to use her as he saw fit. Just that the illusion of it looked brighter from within his own mind. She couldn't find that without digging much deeper, and the chances of him feeling that, noticing, were too great. He was a sharp man at every angle, and she did not think she could go swimming through his mind without him noticing her presence.
Two things, she had kept back when he had asked her of her skills. The psychometry.... and the telepathy. Because those two would keep her safe if he was just another man that lied to himself in order to feel as thought he were in the right.
She gambled. Gambled that a yes meant learning new things- things that would expand her ability to keep herself safe because that was, ultimately, the only goal she could afford to keep in her mind. Not because she was small minded. But because experience devoured any other thing.
"Yes."
[member="Xian Valart"]
There was a pause at that. Not because she didn't know the answer, but a certain vacancy in the dark blue gaze. A bottomless distance, just for a heartbeat, two, and then she spoke.
"I do not."
Maybe, once upon a time.
Please, don't make me, an echo of a smaller, younger voice begged. But it was just one moment in a thousand. And enough insults and abuses had been piled upon her mind and body since that day that it was easy to dismiss it. It took no effort to do so, and the little voice died again.
His next question made a bigger impact. Instead of a pebble tossed lightly into placid waters, it was a stone flung with force. She blinked, immediately reaching out to check for mental traps because surely he did not mean that question. The sincerity, the intent floated easily on the surface of his mind, not even requiring her to dip into that pool. If it was a trick, a trap, it was something far deeper than merely the joy of an 'aha gotcha!' moment.
Every line of her body was still, tense. It was a subtle change, one easy to over look because she had schooled herself into keeping the barest of reactions, even in the face of fears far greater than this. But the unknown intentions loomed, and there was fear there- she knew what the risks of her life were, knew how to avoid them as best as possible and when they must simply be endured. And she knew how to endure.
A no would be a lie. A yes would be a risk- not because she truly believed this was a trap, to catch her somehow and punish her for thinking above her station- not a trap like that anyway. A no would mean nothing changed. And there was a certain safety in that, perhaps not of body but of psyche.
A yes?
Risked everything.
If he meant it. Oh, he thought he meant it. But how many men could say such a thing and then simply continue to use her as a different set-piece, because of course their use was different. The illusion that there was a difference in flavors of use, well....
There was every chance that he still intended to use her as he saw fit. Just that the illusion of it looked brighter from within his own mind. She couldn't find that without digging much deeper, and the chances of him feeling that, noticing, were too great. He was a sharp man at every angle, and she did not think she could go swimming through his mind without him noticing her presence.
Two things, she had kept back when he had asked her of her skills. The psychometry.... and the telepathy. Because those two would keep her safe if he was just another man that lied to himself in order to feel as thought he were in the right.
She gambled. Gambled that a yes meant learning new things- things that would expand her ability to keep herself safe because that was, ultimately, the only goal she could afford to keep in her mind. Not because she was small minded. But because experience devoured any other thing.
"Yes."
[member="Xian Valart"]