The pipe would easily fall from the boy's grip, crashing against the ground with a loud rattle. His air flow had been decreased drastically, and he would reach to his throat with both hands in total desperation. His fingernails dug into [member="Ballen-Ist"] 's gloves to no avail, still left at the mercy of his grasp. He choked on air, desperately trying to breathe as he entered a bewildered state, feeling unable to move. His eyes widened in desperation, and his mouth gaped open helplessly, trying to catch even the smallest breath of air. Help.. Help... He thought in desperation, Why isn't anyone helping?
Images began to flood into his mind, storming him with his darkest fears. The death of his best friend, Mardekin, seemed to replay over and over in his head, like a mental tape recorder. He could see every detail: the blood, the tears, even the emotion of the instance. Pain began to seep through his skull, and it felt as though his life was flashing before his eyes. His best friend, lying there on the ground, and he couldn't do anything to save him. He was helpless to the wrath of his own fear- The fear of loss.
"Mardekin.. Mardekin..." he pleaded aloud, his voice hushed and raspy with a sound of panic to his tone, "P-Please... Mardekin.." His arms began to shake violently as he struggled to determine reality from illusion. Before him, the pureblood appeared as his former father-figure, choking him half to death in the middle of the streets of Nar Shaddaa. No, he couldn't let this happen, he wouldn't let this happen; his friend would never betray him like this. "G-Grgh.. Gar-Ggh.." he choked, wincing his eyes as he made a futile attempt to fight against the Knight's mind tricks. He could hear the words of [member="Rik'Tani"] , although his vision was almost entirely blurred, and his hearing was in a much worse state. "Wow... Torturing... Meal... Badass..."
In this moment he would crack, giving a final effort to resist Balen-Ist. His right foot rose with the last of his strength, quickly extending forwards in an attempt to make contact with the sternum of the man before him. Assuming contact was made, he would be launched backwards by the force of his own kick, and launched onto his back on the cold floor beneath him. He would release a loud gasp as his chest heaved, the wind having been knocked from his lungs. His breathing was hasty, and his movements were now slowed. A ringing could be heard within his ears, and he would be forced to grind his teeth in pain. "Damn.. Damn.. It.." he groaned, making an endeavor to crawl towards his weapon once more, despite his foggy vision. He still refused to give up- He would win, or he would die.