“I know what it is like to suffer something terrible. To have it change you in ways that cannot be changed back. But you can still find a measure of peace, even now. Please...”
Peace. I felt that before. It was a long time ago, back before everything happened. Before Lark's parents died and his siblings were taken away from him. Before he was taken into that orphanage and burned his home to the ground. Before he joined the Sith Empire seeking a new life. Lark and his siblings had gone to a local park, he had been pushing his sister's stroller while his brother sauntered along, reticent as always. The fountain was still working then, and the trickle of water harmonized with the chirping of birds. Lark couldn't remember what they were talking about, but he knew they were smiling. At one point they laughed. Lark had striven to feel that same surreal sensation, but like his brief search for his siblings, his mission ended in failure.
[member="Nida Perl"] reached out with a quivering hand, and Lark entered a dream-like state.
He was back at the park, although there was no birdsong or falling water. It was deathly silent, and in front of Lark were two figures. One sat on the edge of the fountain, gracefully twirling her finger in the still water. The other stood by her with dark, penetrating eyes. At first, he didn't recognize them. But when the girl turned her head, a lifetime of false memories surged into his head. Visions of what could have been. Lark and his sister bringing some stray animal home to take care of. His brother patiently reading them stories so they could fall asleep. All three attending school together. And eventually leaving Myrkr, exploring the beyond together.
All of that had been taken from them.
Is this what they look like now? Only recently had he discovered that his sister was even alive, and that his brother hadn't abandoned him as he previously thought. Is this all just some trick of the mind by the Jedi? Or am I just seeing what I want to see? Lark's siblings looked more alike than he did, with dark black hair instead of his scarlet.
"Brother," his sister said wistfully. "You made me a promise."
I’ll show you all the love this family has to give you. I can’t wait until you’re old enough to play games with Brother and I. We’ll play all day, and we’ll be the happiest kids in the world. It'll be great.
Lark was at a loss for words. In front of him was all he ever wanted as a child. His sister held up a hand, with tears in her eyes. His brother silently pleaded with him, begging for him to take her hand and make things the way they were before.
And when he blinked, the battlefield returned to him like a torrent of water to the face. Nida held up an outstretched hand in the place of his sister, and men and women died around them. I'm sorry sister, but I am no longer a child. I don't know what is was that twisted my life so horribly wrong. Was it our parent's death, or one of your kidnappings? My belief that my brother abandoned me? Or was I born this way? Lark wanted so badly to reach out and take that hand. To return to a sense or normalcy. Could everything he had done be forgiven? The Jedi might sincerely try to help him, but in the end they'd let him down. So many others had. Why would they be any different?
"I'm sorry, but... no. No, I'm afraid it's far too late for that. I've done too much, come too far. I've seen the unfathomable darkness of humanity, and one day I'll unleash that darkness onto the galaxy. Everyone will feel what I felt." Lark sighed, and sheathed his sword, walking towards the tiny Zeltron. "I want you to make me a promise. One day, we are going to meet again. And chances our whence you next see me I'll be someone completely different. I change personalities so frequently. Maybe I won't be so bad. Perhaps I'll be a monster. Either way..."
He placed his hands, covered in light pink scars from burns sustained as a child, around her open palm. "When we meet again, I fear I'm going to try and break you. Torment you until you beliefs are shattered and your humanity is torn apart. Make you become a monster like I am. I've brought ruin to so many people's lives. Promise me that no matter what I might try and do to you, that you continue standing tall. Keep believing in the good in people."
Lark hoped she would at least heed his words. There was a monster inside him, one that couldn't be stopped. Eventually Lark would die a nameless monster, and he'd bring the worlds down with him. But right now, that monster was at bay. Right now, Lark was playing the personality of a brother. A role he hadn't played for quite some time.