John Locke
V U L K A N
Wearing: Wait for it...a tuxedo
Accompanying: Gianna Aegis
Also as part of invite: Allyson Locke
“I think the Confederacy is plenty represented and can spare me for one night. One night where I can just be John and enjoy myself.”
Even as they moved past the ballroom entrance John was aware of the weight of duty that lay across the room, the weight almost stronger than gravity. So many people representing something greater than themselves, each person in there an avatar for the beliefs and dreams of systems and planets beyond counting. The weight of a galaxy contained in a ballroom. Tonight deals could be made and feuds would explode, friendships would be renewed and enemies might bury the hatchet. Words spoken with the voice of millions, of a galaxy would spread. For a single night the galaxy rotated around Natasi Fortan.
And John didn’t envy her.
To be at the center of all those eyes and not be able to show a moment of weakness or indecision. Who in that room dared to reveal a crack, to reveal that moment of weakness of humanity in front of all those others, these gods and monsters of the galaxy. It was a role that some took to, some revelled in but that life in the spotlight, your every action dissected every look examined. There wasn’t room for true friendship, there wasn’t room for true connection, everyone you met was a competitor or an enemy. Someone out for your blood, the blood of all those you represented.
Everyone in that room was on show, bound by the chains of duty that connected them to corporations and nations.
Duty.
It was such a small word to carry such a heavy weight. It had become the by-word for all their lives, the word which had them running from planet to planet, ship to ship. A never ending struggle to fulfil the ideals of those who believed in you, who needed you. It had consumed John’s life, the demands of his company, of the Confederacy, and he’d risen to meet all of them. But the cost along the way. He’d sacrificed his dreams and hopes, his wishes for the future. He’d sacrificed the quiet life that he’d sought, to become the man that they needed him to be.
Yet there was a line he wouldn’t cross. A sacrifice he wouldn’t make.
He wouldn’t sacrifice her.
The truth was, as much as he thought Gianna needed a night away from everything, to just relax and loose herself, he needed the same. A night to just relax and loose themselves in the fairytale feeling of the castle and it’s grounds. A night without the Jedi and the Exarch. Just the two of them, just as they were. A soft smile touched the man’s face, twinkling in the corner of his eyes.
“Maybe, but I can’t think of anything more important than what I’m doing now.”
There was a truth to that, John had seen the consternation, the heaviness in the woman’s gaze. He’d heard about Nar Kreta, he could see it in her eyes, in her demeanour when she thought no-one was watching. He’d seen it before, that guilt that ate at the woman, that feeling that she could have done something different. Something better.
It was the look that haunted him when he looked in the mirror, he could remember Atrisia, could remember Eshan, every battle he’d fought in brought with it no end of regrets. But, perhaps Taanab was the worst, the planet where he’d almost lost everything, given into the darkness that lurked in the heart of every man. It was the planet that made him realise that he could hate someone with every fibre of his being. It was a truth that scared him to this day, what he might have done, what he might have become. It was a truth that drove him to be better.
He was still working on that, trying to chart the path between the call of his duty and responsibility, but he was trying. Maybe he’d be trying for the rest of his life. He might never obtain the purity of the Jedi next to him…but maybe he could be a good man.
A smile touched John’s lips, that was his fondest wish now, to be remembered as a good man. Not what one would really expect from the Exarch, the Buisnessman. A soft sigh, dark eyes noting the smile on the flame-haired woman’s face, the was it lacked the sparkle he had come to associate with her. More than anything that was the proof that there was something wrong, something that troubled the Jedi. Fingers tightened gently around hers, squeezing softly as he led Gianna away from the castle, the refrain of the orchestra hanging quietly in the air around them lending the scene and almost unworldly feel. The shadows thrown by the trees almost dancing on the ground around them, the breeze causing them to sway, covering them in shadow one moment and light the next.
“Well then Miss Aegis, follow me into the unknown. Now I was a garden, where would I hide.”
He could have found the floorplan to the castle, have found a guide but…that seemed a little unfair. It seemed wrong to cheat like that, the whole point of an adventure was a a step into the unkwon, that little bit of magic that could only exist on nights like this.