Location: Ravaath | Soundtrack: Campus
The formless cloud began to bubble and amalgamate into a new form. A recognizable form. A
heartbreakingly familiar form.
Cailen knew it wasn’t real, but the telepathic voice that seeped into his mind was visceral. He could feel the spirit prodding around his memories, like tendrils tapping into his deepest thoughts and feelings. His hopes and fears, dreams and nightmares, were all at risk.
“You shouldn’t have come here, Cailen,” it taunted as a face took shape among the plumes, twisting grotesquely as it writhed into place.
“You shouldn’t have come here.”
Cailen stood breathlessly as the smoke demon completed its contortion into a visage of Master
Tarus Undara, warping even its sinister voice to match the fallen Jedi’s tone as it was in Cailen’s memory.
“You’re not real,” the boy spat, looking directly into the demon’s eyes. They looked like Undara’s, but were wrenchingly devoid of the spark Cailen knew should be there.
“Bold. Assertive. I like it,” the spirit said as it drew closer.
“You’ve come a long way from the spineless little boy I took from Anaxes.”
Cailen swallowed hard, but he held his ground. He took a deep breath and gathered his nerve.
“You are not my Master.”
“Who would want to be? You’re useless, Cailen Corso. Dead weight. Unwanted baggage.”
The demon floated closer, silently gliding through the hall. It’s face remained unmoved as it ‘spoke,’ seeding its toxic words into Cailen’s mind. He wanted it to stop, knew the words were lies, but-
“Nobody wants you, Cailen. Your parents gave you away to the Jedi. You stood there like a wastrel as your Master was slain. Your first love, she used you like a tool, then slipped away when you needed her most.”
A tear rolled down Cailen’s cheek, but the rest of his flesh was unmoved. Did they really not want him? Was he really just the stray dog that was only cared for out of pity?
Master Noble told him that he
was a Jedi, and that he’d make a fine Knight. It didn’t
feel like a lie. He
knew it wasn’t. But what if…?
“You’re- no, you’re not-“
“Close your eyes, Cailen. Let us in. Breathe in deeply. Become one with those who want you. Lend us your being.”
His eyelids fluttered as the smoke brushed around his skin, raising goosebumps on his arms. He expected its touch to sting the deep slashes in his bicep, but the demon was gentle, like soft puffs of air.
“They can’t see what makes you so special. But we do.“
“No…”
“It’s time, Cailen. Give up. Let go.”
Against all he knew, he slowly closed his eyes, and for the first time in a long while, Cailen felt incredibly weightless. Free. Deep inside, he wanted to call for Master Noble to save him. But the Sith ghost was right there the whole time, redirecting his efforts, sapping his will to survive.
He wanted it to end.
And then, there was the sharp, cold anguish of
nothing.