Life before the tribes was nothing more than a feint whisper within his mind at this point. No longer did Kaharak muse of what may be happening off of the planet, no longer did he wish to leave and return to the life he had led before. Arriving on Croa, even if it had been through a crash, had been of benefit for the Togruta. His life before had been rudimentary, simple and without purpose. He had risen from his slumber every day lost and without aims, simply following his Master's orders. Nothing more, nothing less. Now, though, now he greeted each morn with a sense of purpose, an objective, no matter how simple, set out for him to pursue. Before, he had existed - his lungs had breathed and his heart had beat - but he had not lived. Croa had breathed the spark of life into him, now his souls sung and he thrived in the euphoric sense of living.
Croa had been good for him in other ways as well. His Master's death in the crash that had brought him to his new life had been saddening, he had mourned the passing of a great man even as he had celebrated his Master's union with the Force, but, it had liberated him in equal measure. With no firm hand to guide his training, a younger Kaharak had leaned upon the Force for the guidance required and, in doing so, found his true path. Constant studying of battle tactics in preparation for the rising forces of the Sith gave way to musing on social interactions. Rigorous training with a lightsaber faded away to be replaced by staring into the depths of the Force to listen and watch as it interacted with the bodies of the living. War gave way to Healing even as a civil war had broken out, training to fight on mass battlefields gave way to a battle medic who learnt methods of the Force to save a life more than he did to take one.
Yes, Kaharak still trained to fight, but he trained with the goal of defending others over fighting a growing threat - he trained to guard the precious spark of life against suffering. He was quick with a blade, never brutal. Serene even in his feralty, a peace with himself in all steps of his life. But, more than that, he was skilled in coaxing the Force to heal wounded bodies: sealing shut the faultlines that had opened up within them and fueling life, encouraging it to continue to burn bright. Croa had done the Togruta good, forged him into the man he now was and he was content with his life.
However, as Kaharak strolled behind two of his fellows from Clan Ooroo, one of them a fellow Togruta, his thoughts were not on the past but on the present instead. The plague assaulting his people was one of concern and vexation for the healer. An illness that he could not heal was not something that he welcomed with open arms; a challenge was well and good up until it started costing people their lives. No matter what desperate attempt he tried, no matter how much he begged and pleaded with the Force for a miracle to be granted, nothing would work. And for every life that left the mortal coil, he had suffered, felt a strike be delivered to his very soul. As such, as soon as the announcement had been made that a party was to be sent to investigate a tomb rumoured to be involved with the plague, he had volunteered himself immediately - without sparing any thought to the fact that his combat skills were not highly thought of among the Clan; after all, he never showed them apart from to a small number.
Stopping with the two other members of Clan Ooroo, Kaharak held his silence, hands falling to shift behind his back as he stood slightly separate from the pair; with them but not next to them as he lost himself in his thoughts - releasing his emotions to the Force and letting it fill him with his beloved serenity. He could spare no thought to his closest friend lying in pain back with the Clan, suffering from the plague. He could not focus on the way her face had been scrunched up in a tight mess of pain. No, such worried were not for now, now was the time to focus so that such pain could be removed.
A heretic for a Master had lead to Kaharak learning a Code of the Jedi different than the common one, one he believed in more, and those sacred words ran through his mind as he focused on centering himself.
Emotion, yet Peace. Worry, fear, panic and even anger at what may be the cause of the plague. He could feel them, never refusing them but allowing them to register and then flow through him and out into the Force. Emotion was felt but it gave way to peace as he let them flow through him. Ignorance, yet Knowledge. The plague was unknown to him, something that he knew nothing about and, yet, he knew that he would learn, knew that it could be fought as there were already cases of immunity - himself included. Passion, yet Serenity. Chaos, yet Harmony. His emotions did storm within him, but, just as he embraced peace, he embraced the harmony and serenity that came from accepting them and releasing them in equal measure.
Opening his eyes, red and yellow gaze locking onto his fellow Togruta, Paa'lee, he spoke gently and quietly. "They will come. Preservation if nothing else will drive them. The Force decrees as such. Our resolve is being tested, it is time that we cower no more and learn that which is unknown."
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