Sometimes she would glance in Leenic's direction. His input would have been more valuable than perhaps anyone of the three could know. He had been a teacher first, a guardian next. He was often the one she had looked to for approval where Aloy seemingly had none to spare. He treated her like a person, where she believed Aloy would not. And where Tan'yill's opinions were perhaps tainted by her love for Aloy, Leenic was simultaneously family and neutral third party.
That is why his continued support of the Once-Daimyo stung as if it were betrayal.
That is why she closed herself off to him on Batuu.
That... is why becoming his enemy made it feel so simple now. She didn't need to feel guilty anymore, not when she could hide his twitchy trigger finger like a shield, not when she could hide behind a perceived aggression that took all responsibility off her shoulders.
Issue being, she could never quite tell if it worked. Not that she even understood what she was doing.
We never said you were the problem, but if we took a wrong turn somewhere, wronged you in some way, then please tell us!''
Tan'yill was another story. She had never wronged her, there was nothing to even perceive as herself being wronged. Had Aloy come alone, this would have been a much simpler, shorter story. The only thing she would ever fault her for was blind obedience to her partner, when it seemed to obvious that something was wrong.
So she had no choice but to listen. And there was a lot to unpack.
She... didn't realize they had kept searching for so long. She always sort of assumed that they'd given up after the bounty hunters came back empty handed. She'd seen the reward posted, seen the details that described her as a "missing person" case. But given Aloy's history in special operations, she always thought it was a fancy way of saying they needed a target brought in alive, maybe cuffed even.
''Now, Aloy wants to understand! I want to know! Want to know what you have gone through all this time!''
"I... I can't"
"I'm sorry... but you're not ready to hear that story"
She said mournfully, unable to bear the shame of revealing what had truly transpired.
"Deathsticks..." Aloy admitted after a long pause, allowing her wife to finish pleading to her own daughter.
"I've... I've been where you are, Tae'l... I... I shot my father, in the halls of my home on Concordia..."
Then Aloy spoke up, and for the first time since coming of age, the woman had her undivided attention.
It was a long, tense and frightening story. Even as Aloy approached, inching closer like a viper she thought, Tae'l couldn't move. She just stared at the woman, visor to visor.
It told her a lot... more about her human mother than she had learned her entire lifetime. She always knew that Aloy was cunning, or at least scheming. And ruthless, always planning a few steps ahead of herself, but she was also...
Weak.
Tae'l had never seen her like that. She had never seen Aloy so vulnerable, certainly not so regretful of her actions, she didn't think her mother capable of the thought. It was so new... so... unsettling. She didn't know how to feel about any of this.
"I'm not asking you to forgive me... much as it pains me to say, I know how hard it can be. But will you come home? Not for the fleet, not for war... not even for me... just... for yourself? for a rest from all..." She gestures to their meager surroundings, to the violent world of Nal Hutta "This?"
please, Tae'l... take your mothers hand and let her in... Let us understand, and know... If forgiveness isn't humanity in its purest, then I don't know what is...?''
She visibly stepped back when offered her mother's hand, equally out of shock as out of animalistic fear.
And yet, the grip on her pistol eased, and she shakily released a breath even she did not know was being held for so long.
But that didn't mean she was surrendering this newfound freedom.
"I can't... I just... can't. I have my own duties to attend, even if I forgave you, I will not abandon my post."
Her voice was softer now, saddened. But still determined as they day they lost her.
Tan'yill Vizsla
Leenic Ellsil
Aloy Vizsla