Igni Irae
Maeve Linahan
To Elpsis' credit, she didn't throw a tantrum. She didn't argue. She accepted. It stung...but such was life. "I-I....I, uh, understand," she said awkwardly. "It's okay, really. Wasn't right of me to spring this on you. Not fair of me. You've got..a lot going on, your duty as a Jedi...which is far from here, and I'm sure as hell not asking you to give that up...to make you someone you're not. And I've got...this. Odds are I'm going to be dead before the year's over and you deserve better." She was rambling, clumsy and awkward as ever.
Foolish little girl, the voice sounded like Siobhan, whether she had actually said that to her or not. Do your damn duty. Unfit for leadership. She suppressed a sigh. "But it's ok, honest. I treasure our friendship too much. You're a great woman and I hope you find someone who's worthy of you...if that's what you want. If you want to talk or anything I'm here...always..." she trailed off, taking a deep breath.
"Emira Bahara Jai Mahtaba?" Elpsis made a face. "Really?"
"I know her well. She can offer you ten thousand soldiers, she has light artillery, she has drones. And she holds a crucial smuggling route in her death grip. Never mind the minerals that can fill our war chest," Zabhara retorted. The former slave-soldier's voice was as iron as the sword in her scabbard.
"Was an enthusiastic slaveowner until it stopped being cool. Found all manners of excuses to hold on to her ex-slaves as 'sharecroppers'."
"You'll be hard-pressed to find a prominent Qadiri who didn't own slaves at one point, Elpsis."
"And has been happy to suck up to Firemane. Why the change of heart, huh?"
"Pride. Believe it or not, most Suquan nobles and chiefs are patriotic. They don't like foreigners tearing up their country. And Firemane offended her sense of honour."
Elpsis snorted. "Honour. Right."
"Honour has preciously little to do with goodness. Her blood's not far removed from that of queens, and Firemane treats her clan like common hirelings. Her nephew was badly injured in a drone raid. Firemane just provides excuses. You're not Qadiri, but you're willing to lose your head in a fight. People here respect that." Zabhara leaned forward, "but you must also get it into your thick head that marriage is going to be a job for you. Not some love story out of a play. Wed the Emira, or don't. I frankly don't care, but bloody marry someone who advances the cause. You have a duty - to win this damn war. And Elpsis Jai Saobana always does her duty, doesn't she?"
Elpsis grit her teeth. "She does."
Her flesh hand rubbed against Maeve's hands, soaking up what warmth the Jedi would give her. Her friendship was a gift, and not one Elpsis would selfishly reject. She snapped back to reality, to duty. "Well...we should get going. Quick stop at the medbay so we don't get chewed out for walking around untreated, some morale boosting for the wounded." So she let go of Maeve's hands, and turned, heading out of the chamber.
To Elpsis' credit, she didn't throw a tantrum. She didn't argue. She accepted. It stung...but such was life. "I-I....I, uh, understand," she said awkwardly. "It's okay, really. Wasn't right of me to spring this on you. Not fair of me. You've got..a lot going on, your duty as a Jedi...which is far from here, and I'm sure as hell not asking you to give that up...to make you someone you're not. And I've got...this. Odds are I'm going to be dead before the year's over and you deserve better." She was rambling, clumsy and awkward as ever.
Foolish little girl, the voice sounded like Siobhan, whether she had actually said that to her or not. Do your damn duty. Unfit for leadership. She suppressed a sigh. "But it's ok, honest. I treasure our friendship too much. You're a great woman and I hope you find someone who's worthy of you...if that's what you want. If you want to talk or anything I'm here...always..." she trailed off, taking a deep breath.
"Emira Bahara Jai Mahtaba?" Elpsis made a face. "Really?"
"I know her well. She can offer you ten thousand soldiers, she has light artillery, she has drones. And she holds a crucial smuggling route in her death grip. Never mind the minerals that can fill our war chest," Zabhara retorted. The former slave-soldier's voice was as iron as the sword in her scabbard.
"Was an enthusiastic slaveowner until it stopped being cool. Found all manners of excuses to hold on to her ex-slaves as 'sharecroppers'."
"You'll be hard-pressed to find a prominent Qadiri who didn't own slaves at one point, Elpsis."
"And has been happy to suck up to Firemane. Why the change of heart, huh?"
"Pride. Believe it or not, most Suquan nobles and chiefs are patriotic. They don't like foreigners tearing up their country. And Firemane offended her sense of honour."
Elpsis snorted. "Honour. Right."
"Honour has preciously little to do with goodness. Her blood's not far removed from that of queens, and Firemane treats her clan like common hirelings. Her nephew was badly injured in a drone raid. Firemane just provides excuses. You're not Qadiri, but you're willing to lose your head in a fight. People here respect that." Zabhara leaned forward, "but you must also get it into your thick head that marriage is going to be a job for you. Not some love story out of a play. Wed the Emira, or don't. I frankly don't care, but bloody marry someone who advances the cause. You have a duty - to win this damn war. And Elpsis Jai Saobana always does her duty, doesn't she?"
Elpsis grit her teeth. "She does."
Her flesh hand rubbed against Maeve's hands, soaking up what warmth the Jedi would give her. Her friendship was a gift, and not one Elpsis would selfishly reject. She snapped back to reality, to duty. "Well...we should get going. Quick stop at the medbay so we don't get chewed out for walking around untreated, some morale boosting for the wounded." So she let go of Maeve's hands, and turned, heading out of the chamber.