With eyes wide open (a past rp)(complete)

[Garith Darkhold]

[member="Arianna Organa"]

“We do not need more”, he did not look directly at her as he looked over his work. “I do not ay water ether. Our hard work has paid off though.”

 

[Arianna Organa]

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

She set the water down anyhow, "well it was just an excuse to come in, you've been quiet unusually quiet and I'm concerned if you're alright" She noticed that he didn't look at her either also not his usual habit.

Their work paid off, "Oh it has in what way?"

She could see that much of the damage was gone, only then did she have that sinking feeling.

 

[Garith Darkhold]

There was much he should say to [member="Arianna Organa"] but he did not know what to say or even if he could say the words. “The ship is fixed. I just going through double checking all my work. If it passes the test you will be able to see your sister soon.”

 

[Arianna Organa]

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

She stepped closer not away, "I don't want to. I want to stay here with you. " she touched his arm, "I love our life here, I love you." She touched his cheek, "do we have to go?"

 

[Garith Darkhold]

@Adrianna Organa’s answer certainly did not make anything easier. He felt the same way but felt guilt as well. His people needed him and her people needed her. She deserved more then what he could give her on this planet. What if he was killed and she would be stuck here alone. Would she be able to survive here alone without him? “I wish we could stay here too. Often following our hearts is not following wisdom. Here, if something happened to me you would be all alone. What sort of life would that be. You’re destined for greater things then just me. It would be selfish on my part to be greedy and not let you have the life you deserve.”

 

[Arianna Organa]

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

"I know in my mind you are right. But. My heart hurts." She felt as though she could not breath, "Garith I'm scared. Hold me please." Just as she had been when they were first here.

"How long do we have?" She asked her voice choking with emotion. She knew he loved her he showed her every day and every night. She hurt.

 

[Garith Darkhold]

This was not going to be easy on both of them, he new that. He was not without sympathy. So he got up, walked over, and wrapped his arms around [member="Arianna Organa"]. “The ship is ready now. When we plan to leave is up to the both of us. Would you rather us spend some time with each other before we leave? That way it does not seem so sudden. One minute we’re here and the next gone. Or would it be easier for you if we left as soon as possible?”

 

[Arianna Organa]

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

Tears already rolled down her cheeks her eyes listened with them, "I want some time with you, I want to feel your arms around me so that I can hold onto the feeling. I want to hear you talk to me so that when I'm afraid I can hear your voice, I want to feel your love for me so that when I'm lonely I'll know there was a time someone loved me." She was all emotion.

She kissed him gentle wishing she could hold him forever.

 

[Garith Darkhold]

He gladly took the kiss from [member="Arianna Organa"]. Frankly he did not know what to say without losing it himself, at that moment anyways. Then we shall stay here for a while. During that time all of me will be yours. Well shall have a time here for only each other before things will have to change.”

 

[Arianna Organa]

She nodded her agreement she couldn't speak.

The next few days they pretended they were like any other holiday. Their days spent walking holding hands talking about the ocean they wanted to see. The tops of the snow capped mountains in the distance. They laughed.

Each evening they made love with a fierce driving passion as if willing themselves to become a single being where neither had to leave.

The night before their departure they lay intertwined, "will I be able to talk to you if I need to? Will you let me know you're alright? I can endure it our being separated if I know you're alright." She buried her face in his chest trying desperately to be stronger

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

It was all herd enough. [member="Arianna Organa"]’s words made it more so. “If you need to call, then call me. Do be careful about it though. I do not wish you to be harmed by the life I led. We will have to be careful not to harm your reputation as well.”

 

[Arianna Organa]

She nodded yes. Back to the life of decorum and rules.. of people wanting everything and offering nothing. "I will try not to be that love sick girl trying to convince you come back. But you know it is in my mind. My reputation, yes."

Her fingers lightly drew circles on his chest, "where will you go?"

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

Yokuni wondered if [member="Arianna Organa"] will be ok. What her life would be like after this one. If she would be happy back on Alderaan. As long as she found peace he thought. “I will go back to my people and guide them like I have after all these years. They should be fine back on Shogun in Mandlaorian space”, he was quickly running out of things to say. Typical of him to close up and bury what ever he was feeling tell it blew up later in his face.

 

[Arianna Organa]

She looked at him. She knew him so well. "Will you be Yokuni then? " he was protecting himself from emotions that he often thought he didn't deserve.

"You are always welcome to my house. Your people are lucky to have you." She laid her hand down flat feeling the gentle thump of his heart. She looked into his eyes, "will you miss me messing with your things? With burning your dinner? With crying like a lonely child?"

Yes she wanted affirmation. She knew he might nit say it

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

[member="Arianna Organa"]

“I might have to take the mantle of a few different names I have been known by over the years. I will still be me. Figuratively speaking of course. Because of politics I am not really the man I used to be. It has been a number of years since I’ve been allowed to be myself. Thank you on the invitation to your home though. Maybe one day I will be able to visit your home.”

 

[Arianna Organa]

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

"Tell me Garith" when he didn't want to answer he avoided. She touched him on the lips with the tips of her fingers, "please. One time. " he had always showed.

 

[Garith Darkhold]

[member="Arianna Organa"]

Tell her what? This time he misunderstood the question and he was not avoiding it. “I’m sorry I must have misunderstood. We’re you asking if I would miss you? If so I think you know the answer that I do not think I have the strength to answer.”

 

[Arianna Organa]

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

That was enough he did not have the strength he hurt as much as she, "that's what I needed to know, that you will miss me." She would press no further. She leaned over to kiss him softly gently as she pressed herself to him one more time before the dawn maybe twice if they had the strength and then they would don the clothes that they wore the day they crashed. They would become the people of responsibility and reputation.

 

[Garith Darkhold]

He really did not have the strength to speak no more. Pressed to her he did kiss her again until they had to part and get dressed. After being dressed he gathered things within the ship to get ready for launch. If she needed to speak or talk he would not deny her. He was just try to keep things together.

 

[Arianna Organa]

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

She didn't know if she could speak more they she had said everything done everything. Now she worked on numbing herself to losing him. To not seeing him. To not loving him.

She sat in the back thinking of all the things that she had been taught about hiding her emotions. Her face would nit show this loss to anyone. Passive. Emotionless.

She could do it. Calming her thoughts. Dreading their next stop.