Alkor Centaris
Son of Liberty
There comes a time in every man's life that he has to question everything he knows. For some of us, it comes early. In other cases men experience this in the autumn of their lives, just before death comes to claim them. Alkor Centaris has struggled with his identity for nearly half of his life.
The two stand in a room designated for target practice, one out of place in his own skin while the other remains oblivious to his struggle. While they converse and he slowly begins to understand her motivations, he also begins to realize that his own have been lost for a very long time.
This is what it feels like to be Alkor, right now.
Your hand is there. You can physically see that it exists, touch it, and move it to a limited degree; but you cannot feel it. From elbow to fingertips, there is no natural sensation. The dull pain that lances up your arm when you attempt to move your fingers is the residual effect of atrophy- it will not last, it never does.
All around you, you are aware of strange, tumultuous emotions. Uncertainty and fear, hate and desperation. Closest to you, there is a warmth, and you can recognize it as hope. You've felt this before, but you always dismissed it. Now, it is directed at you, and you find yourself at a loss.
The recent memory of a lost friend's voice remains with you.
So you listen as the woman talks. She smiles, and she laughs, and she does everything that people do, everything that you've never done. That you have never felt compelled to do. For that, you find not envy so much as a desire to understand. This human experience she lives every day, you don't necessarily want it, but you strive to connect with people who have it.
You're tired of being completely alone, despite being surrounded by people. Friends. You're sick of not belonging anywhere. So, when she prompts you to speak, you try your best to give her an answer. She frowns, then laughs. She knows you're lost. She puts up with it, because that's what friends do.
But you know it tears her apart inside, because you can feel it. And you're sick of that, too. You're always disappointing someone.
That is what it feels like to be Alkor Centaris, right now.
The two stand in a room designated for target practice, one out of place in his own skin while the other remains oblivious to his struggle. While they converse and he slowly begins to understand her motivations, he also begins to realize that his own have been lost for a very long time.
This is what it feels like to be Alkor, right now.
Your hand is there. You can physically see that it exists, touch it, and move it to a limited degree; but you cannot feel it. From elbow to fingertips, there is no natural sensation. The dull pain that lances up your arm when you attempt to move your fingers is the residual effect of atrophy- it will not last, it never does.
All around you, you are aware of strange, tumultuous emotions. Uncertainty and fear, hate and desperation. Closest to you, there is a warmth, and you can recognize it as hope. You've felt this before, but you always dismissed it. Now, it is directed at you, and you find yourself at a loss.
The recent memory of a lost friend's voice remains with you.
So you listen as the woman talks. She smiles, and she laughs, and she does everything that people do, everything that you've never done. That you have never felt compelled to do. For that, you find not envy so much as a desire to understand. This human experience she lives every day, you don't necessarily want it, but you strive to connect with people who have it.
You're tired of being completely alone, despite being surrounded by people. Friends. You're sick of not belonging anywhere. So, when she prompts you to speak, you try your best to give her an answer. She frowns, then laughs. She knows you're lost. She puts up with it, because that's what friends do.
But you know it tears her apart inside, because you can feel it. And you're sick of that, too. You're always disappointing someone.
That is what it feels like to be Alkor Centaris, right now.