Sarge Potteiger
Emotional Damage
fur sumone so popular u rnt very good at this 'timely' thing
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Nimir-ra to Iella, Jedi Shadow
@[member="Akodya Mune"] @[member="Rasu Gan"] I would be all for that, I just finished rebuilding my old saber from when I was a proper jedi shadow. @[member="Daella Apparine"] might be busy after all that work on ossus
Rasu Gan
Old Lady Returned
@[member="Sarge Potteiger"] Who are you referring to sorry?
Sarge Potteiger
Emotional Damage
akodya
The Wolf
@[member="Akodya Mune"]
THE UNDEFEATED
@Syn/@Rasu Gan/@[member="Akodya Mune"]/@[member="Cody Jorin"]/@MeCauseImAwesome
So, what exactly is the reason we are going for here? Because..... Meeesa confusedaa.
So, what exactly is the reason we are going for here? Because..... Meeesa confusedaa.
@[member="Meta "]We may possibly do a thread of these guys looking for Akodya after she goes rogue.
Aiden Clairemont
Member
@[member="Akodya Mune"]
Would you be willing to have Akodya interact with Aiden and Valentina (Aiden’s wife) sometime?
Would you be willing to have Akodya interact with Aiden and Valentina (Aiden’s wife) sometime?
@[member="Aiden Clairemont"] Of course my good man! Love to!
THE UNDEFEATED
@[member="Akodya Mune"], would that be after you leave or before and then leaving is a flashback? However....
HOLD YOUR HORSES! You can't just leave the order like 'that' *clicks fingers* There needs to be quite a bit of character development first. Especially for someone as devoted as Akodya, and besides if we are going for Potentium, which is still on the table. I'm going to be suppedly getting hunted too. But like I said, it should take a little longer than. "Ooh, this sounds really cool lets do it now!" Akodya's character needs to be in a mental state where she believes leaving the order is the right thing to do. Which, as I said with Potentium, would largely be up to me and my views. But, I'm not trying to tell you how to do your job, it's just hat the Walter White to Hiesenberg approach is far better than the Anakin to Vader approach. Therefore it will make sense, which is the hardest part for Jedi turning Sith in my opinion.
HOLD YOUR HORSES! You can't just leave the order like 'that' *clicks fingers* There needs to be quite a bit of character development first. Especially for someone as devoted as Akodya, and besides if we are going for Potentium, which is still on the table. I'm going to be suppedly getting hunted too. But like I said, it should take a little longer than. "Ooh, this sounds really cool lets do it now!" Akodya's character needs to be in a mental state where she believes leaving the order is the right thing to do. Which, as I said with Potentium, would largely be up to me and my views. But, I'm not trying to tell you how to do your job, it's just hat the Walter White to Hiesenberg approach is far better than the Anakin to Vader approach. Therefore it will make sense, which is the hardest part for Jedi turning Sith in my opinion.
Rasu Gan
Old Lady Returned
Don't worry Akodya and I have been chatting and we've figured something out so don't worry @Meta
Akodya has basically been building up to this since she got here, or am I mistaken? She's always had a bit of darkness in her, that is what I can see anyway. So I don't think this is a sudden decision that hasn't had any thought.
I might shut up now sorry everyone. @[member="Akodya Mune"]
Akodya has basically been building up to this since she got here, or am I mistaken? She's always had a bit of darkness in her, that is what I can see anyway. So I don't think this is a sudden decision that hasn't had any thought.
I might shut up now sorry everyone. @[member="Akodya Mune"]
THE UNDEFEATED
@[member="Rasu Gan"]
I'm not saying you're wrong. But, I do believe Akodya isn't in the right mind to leave the order just yet, and everyone has a darkness in them. Even people like Marek and DragonsFlame have a darkness, as do I. The only person without one is probably Nalu, isn't she just an angel? -BACK ON TOPIC- However, I just think Akodya's character is good and deserves more development before throwing away such potential for character development and in stead rushing into it.
@[member="Akodya Mune"]
I'm not saying you're wrong. But, I do believe Akodya isn't in the right mind to leave the order just yet, and everyone has a darkness in them. Even people like Marek and DragonsFlame have a darkness, as do I. The only person without one is probably Nalu, isn't she just an angel? -BACK ON TOPIC- However, I just think Akodya's character is good and deserves more development before throwing away such potential for character development and in stead rushing into it.
@[member="Akodya Mune"]
THE UNDEFEATED
Anyway....I'll see you all in the next 6-7 hours!
@[member="Meta "]DON'T WORRY I HAVE IT PLANNED OKAY
As I said at the beginning of this thread, I mentioned I have been planning this for I while. If you look at my previous threads you might pick up on a 'pattern' of hints and little flicks of dark side in her character. She started out as an emotionless padawan who's only interest was being a Jedi because that was all she had ever known, and has nothing to compare it to....except the stories of her father and how he died and maybe almost fell into the dark side. Her young and childlike interpretation of the story was HE DIED BECAUSE HE FELL IN LOVE AND WASN'T THE STEREOTYPICAL JEDI. HE DIED BECAUSE HE HAD EMOTIONS. EMOTIONS ARE TO BE FEARED. So at a young age she came to the conclusion that the only way to avoid the same fate was to be absolutely perfect. ‘There is no emotion, there is peace’ for Akodya means no emotions = best Jedi ever. Her commitment is her flaw. Because Akodya constantly strives to be perfect she misses the main point of being someone of the Order. She is supposed to be the defender of beings yet she avoids them at all costs because she FEARS relationships as she things they lead to the dark side. As it is her FEAR of NOT being a perfect Jedi that plants the first dark side seeds in her. She has always had it in her. She lacks emotional control despite being RAISED a Jedi. An example of her instability as a jedi and probably the first form of foreshadowing you see of her ultimate fate is her reaction to Senator Khan going missing. In spite of her determination to be completely one with the force and ONLY the force, she forms her first REAL STRONG FRIENDSHIP with the togruta senator of Shili. Because of her extreme lack of contact with others when he is kidnapped and presumed dead she reacts horribly. She grows aggressive and frustrated because she is deeply saddened by his situation and doesn't know what to do because she has never lost anyone significant to her BECAUSE SHE HAS NEVER HAD ANYONE SIGNIFICANT BEFORE and she doesn't know how to grieve. She also blames herself for the whole incident because she let her guard down and failed to save him, which in Akodya's eyes means she failed to be a Jedi.
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[SIZE=10pt]This pattern of lack of emotional control and fear grows to be more of the focus in later threads. She gets annoyed easier, she loses her cool. Akodya builds up her walls even higher now, not just giving people the cold shoulder but threatening them as well, scaring them away. She begins to question her whole understanding of herself. Her basic mindset is 'Why is it that even though I am so by the books and follow the code to the point of extremism, why couldn't I handle Khan's disappearance? why am I not progressing as a padawan? Maybe it's not me, maybe it's the order that is wrong?' although these thoughts are swimming through her head she is still committed to the order and it's morals. Although when she begins to experience more very normal things she has missed out on because she would keep herself away from that sort of thing. Like when she goes out to dinner with Cody Jorin. No one has ever taken her out before...she didn’t even hold his hand. But this ‘normal’ gave her another example of a life she could be living. Baros Sal-Soren does the same thing. When she goes out shopping she compares herself to other girls and realises she has never had adolescence. The more she socialises the more she begins to see emotions differently. Anger, sadness and bitterness weren’t BAD. They were good. She begins to slowly, bit by bit, channel her suppressed emotions into her fighting and makes her skills improve. When she was struggling to control them she wasn’t the best fighter, but when she USED THEM SHE WAS POWERFUL. Who, may I ask, use emotions such as anger to influence their abilities? Hmmm...I wonder?? [/SIZE]
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[SIZE=10pt]Anyway, Akodya begins to LIKE this new found power. She things she can still do good with this! In fact, she decides the Jedi ARE WRONG. Emotion is peace. She believes realising everything she feels gives her freedom and peace. She begins to unbottle all this self hatred and frustration and used it on the Jedi’s teachings. She begins to create illusions for herself to prove her point. Like when Rasu and Akodya infiltrate the library (I haven’t replied to the thread yet but I plan to work this into it) she can sense the death and grows angry at Rasu because she doesn’t seem to react to it. Of course being the sympathetic Jedi Rasu is she does, but she just needs to get on with the mission, Akodya interprets it that she DOESN’T CARE about the people that are dying and only about the Jedi’s on knowledge in the archives. At this point, Akodya has considered more than once to leave the order, and was kind of the last straw. The fear that Akodya had as a child and as a young woman was soon morphed into undirected anger and she gained power from it. [/SIZE]
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[SIZE=10pt]SORRY FOR MY WORD VOMIT THIS IS A REALLY BAD SUMMARY BUT IT IS BASICALLY I THINK A GOOD AMOUNT OF DEVELOPMENT TO MOVE ON WITH I SHALL DO MORE I PROMISE THIS IS MY LIFE BLOOD. [/SIZE]
As I said at the beginning of this thread, I mentioned I have been planning this for I while. If you look at my previous threads you might pick up on a 'pattern' of hints and little flicks of dark side in her character. She started out as an emotionless padawan who's only interest was being a Jedi because that was all she had ever known, and has nothing to compare it to....except the stories of her father and how he died and maybe almost fell into the dark side. Her young and childlike interpretation of the story was HE DIED BECAUSE HE FELL IN LOVE AND WASN'T THE STEREOTYPICAL JEDI. HE DIED BECAUSE HE HAD EMOTIONS. EMOTIONS ARE TO BE FEARED. So at a young age she came to the conclusion that the only way to avoid the same fate was to be absolutely perfect. ‘There is no emotion, there is peace’ for Akodya means no emotions = best Jedi ever. Her commitment is her flaw. Because Akodya constantly strives to be perfect she misses the main point of being someone of the Order. She is supposed to be the defender of beings yet she avoids them at all costs because she FEARS relationships as she things they lead to the dark side. As it is her FEAR of NOT being a perfect Jedi that plants the first dark side seeds in her. She has always had it in her. She lacks emotional control despite being RAISED a Jedi. An example of her instability as a jedi and probably the first form of foreshadowing you see of her ultimate fate is her reaction to Senator Khan going missing. In spite of her determination to be completely one with the force and ONLY the force, she forms her first REAL STRONG FRIENDSHIP with the togruta senator of Shili. Because of her extreme lack of contact with others when he is kidnapped and presumed dead she reacts horribly. She grows aggressive and frustrated because she is deeply saddened by his situation and doesn't know what to do because she has never lost anyone significant to her BECAUSE SHE HAS NEVER HAD ANYONE SIGNIFICANT BEFORE and she doesn't know how to grieve. She also blames herself for the whole incident because she let her guard down and failed to save him, which in Akodya's eyes means she failed to be a Jedi.
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[SIZE=10pt]This pattern of lack of emotional control and fear grows to be more of the focus in later threads. She gets annoyed easier, she loses her cool. Akodya builds up her walls even higher now, not just giving people the cold shoulder but threatening them as well, scaring them away. She begins to question her whole understanding of herself. Her basic mindset is 'Why is it that even though I am so by the books and follow the code to the point of extremism, why couldn't I handle Khan's disappearance? why am I not progressing as a padawan? Maybe it's not me, maybe it's the order that is wrong?' although these thoughts are swimming through her head she is still committed to the order and it's morals. Although when she begins to experience more very normal things she has missed out on because she would keep herself away from that sort of thing. Like when she goes out to dinner with Cody Jorin. No one has ever taken her out before...she didn’t even hold his hand. But this ‘normal’ gave her another example of a life she could be living. Baros Sal-Soren does the same thing. When she goes out shopping she compares herself to other girls and realises she has never had adolescence. The more she socialises the more she begins to see emotions differently. Anger, sadness and bitterness weren’t BAD. They were good. She begins to slowly, bit by bit, channel her suppressed emotions into her fighting and makes her skills improve. When she was struggling to control them she wasn’t the best fighter, but when she USED THEM SHE WAS POWERFUL. Who, may I ask, use emotions such as anger to influence their abilities? Hmmm...I wonder?? [/SIZE]
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[SIZE=10pt]Anyway, Akodya begins to LIKE this new found power. She things she can still do good with this! In fact, she decides the Jedi ARE WRONG. Emotion is peace. She believes realising everything she feels gives her freedom and peace. She begins to unbottle all this self hatred and frustration and used it on the Jedi’s teachings. She begins to create illusions for herself to prove her point. Like when Rasu and Akodya infiltrate the library (I haven’t replied to the thread yet but I plan to work this into it) she can sense the death and grows angry at Rasu because she doesn’t seem to react to it. Of course being the sympathetic Jedi Rasu is she does, but she just needs to get on with the mission, Akodya interprets it that she DOESN’T CARE about the people that are dying and only about the Jedi’s on knowledge in the archives. At this point, Akodya has considered more than once to leave the order, and was kind of the last straw. The fear that Akodya had as a child and as a young woman was soon morphed into undirected anger and she gained power from it. [/SIZE]
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[SIZE=10pt]SORRY FOR MY WORD VOMIT THIS IS A REALLY BAD SUMMARY BUT IT IS BASICALLY I THINK A GOOD AMOUNT OF DEVELOPMENT TO MOVE ON WITH I SHALL DO MORE I PROMISE THIS IS MY LIFE BLOOD. [/SIZE]
Sarge Potteiger
Emotional Damage
Wuts the TL;DR?
Based on your growth, I'd like to see you stick around a bit longer with the Republic. Sarge will be joining, and that's the path he will mostly be taking - but I have a different end goal in mind.
One that, perhaps, might be of interest to you. We shall see.
Based on your growth, I'd like to see you stick around a bit longer with the Republic. Sarge will be joining, and that's the path he will mostly be taking - but I have a different end goal in mind.
One that, perhaps, might be of interest to you. We shall see.
THE UNDEFEATED
@[member="Akodya Mune"] I'm just saying you might want to wait until you're a knight and you can hold your own alone then leave. Because once you leave. Rasu, Sochi, Nalu. They won't be there to save you.
Marek S'hadar
C R U S A D E R
@[member="Meta "]I for one believe my padawans (Rasu, Sochi) care about @[member="Akodya Mune"] for more than just her affiliation, I'm sure they'd still try and save her.
THE UNDEFEATED
@[member="Marek S'hadar"], of course they care. But they won't always be around when she needs them, not like before.
@[member="Meta "]You seem to misunderstand. Akodya has never been someone to rely on others. It's not like she going to sith STRAIGHT AWAY. As soon as she leaves I doubt she'd do anything anyway, she still has a lot to figure out.
@[member="Cody Jorin"] Cody's got her com channel, he can leave a message anytime.
@[member="Marek S'hadar"] ^^ true that. They are both fabulous! you taught them well!
@[member="Cody Jorin"]
Cody's got her com channel, he can leave a message anytime.@[member="Marek S'hadar"] ^^ true that. They are both fabulous! you taught them well!