Evelyn Shaw
Snowbird
For several moments, Evelyn was expecting Amea to say nothing in response. And she wouldn’t have pushed it, wouldn’t have blamed her for wanting to keep tightlipped. It was something deeply personal to her, that had haunted her for ages and still did to this day.
So the Echani remained quiet, just watching and listening to Amea. Evelyn wondered how many times she had talked about this. If she had to guess? More than twice, but not enough for it to make it any easier. And frankly, Evelyn could understand why. The very idea of having your mind just wiped clean of...everything, was goddamn terrifying.
Part of her wanted to pull Amea into a hug, the second she saw the woman start to shrink into herself. The haunting memories creeping back to the surface, the slight shake in her attempt to lift her cup. But Evelyn was reminded of a lesson her grandma once taught her.
Sometimes you have to face the harsh reality, rather than falling back onto comforts.
And it was clear as day that Amea wasn’t done talking about what happened. Nor did she have to get much further before Evelyn nodded slightly, knowing exactly where it was going.
“So I took the first step.”
Was that when it started for her? Evelyn wondered, was that when killing became the primary problem solver?
“Holy crap, that’s…” Evelyn spoke up for the first time in what felt like ages. She looked away from Amea, staring at the wall before them. But a few seconds later her gaze returned. “Understandable? I’d probably have done the same, and I’m not exactly...keen on killing. I can’t even begin to imagine what that was like...” The mention of the images not leaving stuck in Evelyn’s mind though, and felt like she understood that somewhat. “I don’t think those images will ever go away, just lessen over time, after you’ve taken another step.” Evelyn could feel her mouth going dry, so she took a sip of her drink. “You already took the first one, I think. I can imagine the time before you hunted all those people down, the memory of that day haunted your dreams. Then after the killing, that started to ease off. But you’ve yet to take that second step in moving on.”
Evelyn knew that particular well, after all. Her first step had been leaving her home unannounced one day.
So the Echani remained quiet, just watching and listening to Amea. Evelyn wondered how many times she had talked about this. If she had to guess? More than twice, but not enough for it to make it any easier. And frankly, Evelyn could understand why. The very idea of having your mind just wiped clean of...everything, was goddamn terrifying.
Part of her wanted to pull Amea into a hug, the second she saw the woman start to shrink into herself. The haunting memories creeping back to the surface, the slight shake in her attempt to lift her cup. But Evelyn was reminded of a lesson her grandma once taught her.
Sometimes you have to face the harsh reality, rather than falling back onto comforts.
And it was clear as day that Amea wasn’t done talking about what happened. Nor did she have to get much further before Evelyn nodded slightly, knowing exactly where it was going.
“So I took the first step.”
Was that when it started for her? Evelyn wondered, was that when killing became the primary problem solver?
“Holy crap, that’s…” Evelyn spoke up for the first time in what felt like ages. She looked away from Amea, staring at the wall before them. But a few seconds later her gaze returned. “Understandable? I’d probably have done the same, and I’m not exactly...keen on killing. I can’t even begin to imagine what that was like...” The mention of the images not leaving stuck in Evelyn’s mind though, and felt like she understood that somewhat. “I don’t think those images will ever go away, just lessen over time, after you’ve taken another step.” Evelyn could feel her mouth going dry, so she took a sip of her drink. “You already took the first one, I think. I can imagine the time before you hunted all those people down, the memory of that day haunted your dreams. Then after the killing, that started to ease off. But you’ve yet to take that second step in moving on.”
Evelyn knew that particular well, after all. Her first step had been leaving her home unannounced one day.