Ayda Elisantra
Angel of Mercy
Skye's hand was outstretched for Ayda to take, so why were she hesitant to reach up? This was Skye, not mask.
It were apparent Ayda's hesitation. But it were not one of fear, no.
No, she didn't fear Skye...not this Skye. Her spirit had no fear of her. In fact, her spirit didn't have any fear at all, just that her mortal self had somehow developed an instinctual caution like reflex. It were nothing short of a learned behavioral trait much like that of a child learning the pain of a burn from fire. It was something by which Ayda had to be coaxed in overcoming. And coaxed Skye did, urging her to take her hand.
In less than a quick hop and tug from Skye, Ayda was atop on the upper room of the chamber. Oddly enough, besides what appeared to be a cache of dry woods, there was what she had come to recall as a shipping box of some kind. The sort of containers she had come across many times before on vessels and transports. But why was it up there and how did it come to be there, she wondered.
And as she soon discovered, it had been Skye whom had come across it and brought it over, while she had been in her deep sleep days before. This took Ayda to wonder more about that..her sleep. It had come about on its own and with little to no dreams it seemed..or any that..... she........ could........... remember.
Wait-
She suddenly recalled a shard of a dream. A dream she had no dominion over. That all too familiar voice she had known so long ago and thought it expelled, she took to remembering. But it weren't clear. Not like the dreams she normally would be part of. Had those old dreams returned?
Ayda barely remembered those old dreams also, as she were much younger when she had expelled them. But the old dreams were of little importance as she were awake now, and those dreams along with the last one were distant enough not to linger around any further, like her willed ones were.
While she were still gathering her thoughts, Skye was there close to her side. And she were still in remorse about what her masked self had done. It were something Skye herself found difficult to get over and even forgive herself.
Ayda wanted so much to ask Skye to stop. It were not what she wanted, not now at least to have Skye be so sad. After all, it were not really Skye whom had hurt her so, but the mask. Still, it were comforting to her at the moment to have Skye without mask speaking to her without anger. As thus, she didn't stop Skye from getting her feelings out. It were good for the spirit...for both their spirits.
Ayda looked about the upper chamber, nodding her anxiousness in having Skye go and start that fire she so wanted to warm up to. And with ease, there was fire...and with it, came light.
Ayda were immediately drawn to it. And with Skye's invite to sit, she had no reservations in doing so, drawing herself closer to it and sitting by the warmth of the fire.
Skye did same, sitting next to her. Only now and for the few minutes following, they sat there in silence again. It weren't awkward by any means, just peaceful.
"I don't know where I went, actually..." Ayda broke silence.
"Really nowhere..." She had even less recollection of it now as that dream had for the most part dissipated almost in its entirety.
"I'm OK though... still here...just- " She shivered a second, as her temple shed the remnants of a few days of cold. her body temp had in fact dipped a bit, and only to rise just below norm before awakening. This in a way was like she had hibernated and were coming out of it slowly. perhaps it were her means of healing, perhaps nothing at all. The fact that she remembered little of the days gone by made her realize what Skye had said a few minutes before down below. Skye too had noticed the Summer heat had been absent. It were so unlike what Ayda had read up on Dagobah, back before she left Utapah.
Utapah...the Galactic Alliance...
THAT, she remembered vividly. Well why not, right? It had been less than two weeks ago.
"...just that-
We don't belong here." She said, almost as if she had a revelation. Almost.
Only it were a partial one...a connection to the universe that somehow was-...'off '
"Skye..." She turned to her, thinking maybe perhaps it were the concept of their initial alliances, or at least Skye's interpretation of it that were causing her to feel so..so, off the plane.
yet, she had felt their similarities a while back, even before their ordeal within the labyrinth. Ayda couldn't place it before, and it sure as hell still eluded her, but they were so alike in more ways than both could understand at this moment in time.
"...I am not an enemy.
Not your enemy, nor anyone else's. I know you've known that for most of our ordeal. Fear has a way of darkening things which are not immediately understood. It changes people, like the mask changes you. But fear were given to us for a reason. It is not so unnatural as the feeling of joy...love...hate. " She continued, more of trying to describe in her own words what she herself were able to understand.
"All these emotions will always be a part of us. It is how we make use of them that determins who we are and will be."
The flames danced their shadows around in what at first seemed like a feverish dance of two darkened spirits against the stone cold walls. She watched the flames flickering this way and that, making for their shadows to meld and dance like two untamed spirits.
Ayda turned from the frenzy of their dancing shadows to Skye, whom was aglow by the warm fire light when she invited her to sit.
Her orbs took a moment to absorb Skye's soft features. Yes, there was much remorse in not only Skye's tone, but her demeanor. All that which had transpired between them in so many wrong turns, could well be vanquished like the smoke upon which the fire expelled. But there were just as many rights...just as many good things by which had made them survive Dagobath too. There had been nothing but death all around them. Even Dagobah had wanted to devour them at every turn...yet, they prevailed...both of them.
"I know it weren't you, Skye. There's nothing for me to forgive you for."
Ayda drew closer to the fire, now that the flames had taken to a steady burn.
"And I don't think forgiving the mask would mean anything more.
It is not a living thing...but one made of darkness pitch. It cannot be forgiven, for it has no soul. It will never feel remorse, pain.... love.
It only feels the need to feed, to devour more of your spirit." She looked into Skye's eyes who seemed ablaze in reflection of the fire she had created to warm her.
"The mask has taken a part of you which it holds fast. You cannot destroy it and not loose that part of you in which it possesses not be lost forever. It is what some refer as their demon, Skye. The mask is your demon.
We all have one, in one form or aspect.
I have one too.
I know I do, for I felt it's presence a long time ago... and just before." Her head dipped low, finally coming to terms that what she thought had passed, had not at all ever left her. It followed her....always. At least while she were in mortal form.
it were the price she and Skye too paid for having souls. Their temple could be infiltrated by darkness..by hate. By the very fear given onto them upon creation. And with that, they had the capacity of love, compassion.... enlightenment.
All these and more were what made them mortal. And it were their ability to balance them all, which made them who they were and define their spirit, their soul.
"...and I fear mine.
Fear that it will one day take hold of me, change me...eat away a part of me, that I don't wish to part with." No, she didn't wish to change. Grow, yes.
Yes, she had much to learn and experience. And in doing it in the light as she were, it was what she felt deepheartedly she would want till her time here were spent. And then there would be her own journey to everlasting light.
This was what she wanted.
Then she shifted somewhat and leaned her back more against Skye, trying to shake that last bit of cold off.
Taking hold of Skye's hand to wrap it around her, certainly helped. Ayda wasn't as layered in dress as Skye was apparently, and it were something she unconsciously did; draw Skye closer to her for her back still held a chill.
It were apparent Ayda's hesitation. But it were not one of fear, no.
No, she didn't fear Skye...not this Skye. Her spirit had no fear of her. In fact, her spirit didn't have any fear at all, just that her mortal self had somehow developed an instinctual caution like reflex. It were nothing short of a learned behavioral trait much like that of a child learning the pain of a burn from fire. It was something by which Ayda had to be coaxed in overcoming. And coaxed Skye did, urging her to take her hand.
In less than a quick hop and tug from Skye, Ayda was atop on the upper room of the chamber. Oddly enough, besides what appeared to be a cache of dry woods, there was what she had come to recall as a shipping box of some kind. The sort of containers she had come across many times before on vessels and transports. But why was it up there and how did it come to be there, she wondered.
And as she soon discovered, it had been Skye whom had come across it and brought it over, while she had been in her deep sleep days before. This took Ayda to wonder more about that..her sleep. It had come about on its own and with little to no dreams it seemed..or any that..... she........ could........... remember.
Wait-
She suddenly recalled a shard of a dream. A dream she had no dominion over. That all too familiar voice she had known so long ago and thought it expelled, she took to remembering. But it weren't clear. Not like the dreams she normally would be part of. Had those old dreams returned?
Ayda barely remembered those old dreams also, as she were much younger when she had expelled them. But the old dreams were of little importance as she were awake now, and those dreams along with the last one were distant enough not to linger around any further, like her willed ones were.
While she were still gathering her thoughts, Skye was there close to her side. And she were still in remorse about what her masked self had done. It were something Skye herself found difficult to get over and even forgive herself.
Ayda wanted so much to ask Skye to stop. It were not what she wanted, not now at least to have Skye be so sad. After all, it were not really Skye whom had hurt her so, but the mask. Still, it were comforting to her at the moment to have Skye without mask speaking to her without anger. As thus, she didn't stop Skye from getting her feelings out. It were good for the spirit...for both their spirits.
Ayda looked about the upper chamber, nodding her anxiousness in having Skye go and start that fire she so wanted to warm up to. And with ease, there was fire...and with it, came light.
Ayda were immediately drawn to it. And with Skye's invite to sit, she had no reservations in doing so, drawing herself closer to it and sitting by the warmth of the fire.
Skye did same, sitting next to her. Only now and for the few minutes following, they sat there in silence again. It weren't awkward by any means, just peaceful.
"I don't know where I went, actually..." Ayda broke silence.
"Really nowhere..." She had even less recollection of it now as that dream had for the most part dissipated almost in its entirety.
"I'm OK though... still here...just- " She shivered a second, as her temple shed the remnants of a few days of cold. her body temp had in fact dipped a bit, and only to rise just below norm before awakening. This in a way was like she had hibernated and were coming out of it slowly. perhaps it were her means of healing, perhaps nothing at all. The fact that she remembered little of the days gone by made her realize what Skye had said a few minutes before down below. Skye too had noticed the Summer heat had been absent. It were so unlike what Ayda had read up on Dagobah, back before she left Utapah.
Utapah...the Galactic Alliance...
THAT, she remembered vividly. Well why not, right? It had been less than two weeks ago.
"...just that-
We don't belong here." She said, almost as if she had a revelation. Almost.
Only it were a partial one...a connection to the universe that somehow was-...'off '
"Skye..." She turned to her, thinking maybe perhaps it were the concept of their initial alliances, or at least Skye's interpretation of it that were causing her to feel so..so, off the plane.
yet, she had felt their similarities a while back, even before their ordeal within the labyrinth. Ayda couldn't place it before, and it sure as hell still eluded her, but they were so alike in more ways than both could understand at this moment in time.
"...I am not an enemy.
Not your enemy, nor anyone else's. I know you've known that for most of our ordeal. Fear has a way of darkening things which are not immediately understood. It changes people, like the mask changes you. But fear were given to us for a reason. It is not so unnatural as the feeling of joy...love...hate. " She continued, more of trying to describe in her own words what she herself were able to understand.
"All these emotions will always be a part of us. It is how we make use of them that determins who we are and will be."
The flames danced their shadows around in what at first seemed like a feverish dance of two darkened spirits against the stone cold walls. She watched the flames flickering this way and that, making for their shadows to meld and dance like two untamed spirits.
Ayda turned from the frenzy of their dancing shadows to Skye, whom was aglow by the warm fire light when she invited her to sit.
Her orbs took a moment to absorb Skye's soft features. Yes, there was much remorse in not only Skye's tone, but her demeanor. All that which had transpired between them in so many wrong turns, could well be vanquished like the smoke upon which the fire expelled. But there were just as many rights...just as many good things by which had made them survive Dagobath too. There had been nothing but death all around them. Even Dagobah had wanted to devour them at every turn...yet, they prevailed...both of them.
"I know it weren't you, Skye. There's nothing for me to forgive you for."
Ayda drew closer to the fire, now that the flames had taken to a steady burn.
"And I don't think forgiving the mask would mean anything more.
It is not a living thing...but one made of darkness pitch. It cannot be forgiven, for it has no soul. It will never feel remorse, pain.... love.
It only feels the need to feed, to devour more of your spirit." She looked into Skye's eyes who seemed ablaze in reflection of the fire she had created to warm her.
"The mask has taken a part of you which it holds fast. You cannot destroy it and not loose that part of you in which it possesses not be lost forever. It is what some refer as their demon, Skye. The mask is your demon.
We all have one, in one form or aspect.
I have one too.
I know I do, for I felt it's presence a long time ago... and just before." Her head dipped low, finally coming to terms that what she thought had passed, had not at all ever left her. It followed her....always. At least while she were in mortal form.
it were the price she and Skye too paid for having souls. Their temple could be infiltrated by darkness..by hate. By the very fear given onto them upon creation. And with that, they had the capacity of love, compassion.... enlightenment.
All these and more were what made them mortal. And it were their ability to balance them all, which made them who they were and define their spirit, their soul.
"...and I fear mine.
Fear that it will one day take hold of me, change me...eat away a part of me, that I don't wish to part with." No, she didn't wish to change. Grow, yes.
Yes, she had much to learn and experience. And in doing it in the light as she were, it was what she felt deepheartedly she would want till her time here were spent. And then there would be her own journey to everlasting light.
This was what she wanted.
Then she shifted somewhat and leaned her back more against Skye, trying to shake that last bit of cold off.
Taking hold of Skye's hand to wrap it around her, certainly helped. Ayda wasn't as layered in dress as Skye was apparently, and it were something she unconsciously did; draw Skye closer to her for her back still held a chill.