Private For A Piece of Chocolate

[Myvette Faeli]

Myvette 'stared' longingly at the gaping expanse she crossed, the wind carrying Jax's teachings into her ears. She could hear the crumbling of pebbles having plummeted to the bottom of the cliff, see the rocks be lost in the foggy void and it conjured an alarming reality in her mind. Jax spoke on how many before her failed their first attempt at a jump and at first it brought pride and relief to Myvette and it still did. But now there was a darker undercurrent a murkier reality.

She could have fallen.

She could have broken her arms, broken her legs, broken her arms AND her legs. But she didn't, she made the jump and now she was here. She'd overcome herself and let go of her fear. And that was the lesson she now realized. People fear what they cannot control and in this case that was her own power and now that Myvette's stopped trying to control the Force and channel it, work with it, she's managed to avoid breaking her legs. The traps are the same as they always have been, defeating an opponent before they even draw their weapon is the surest form of victory there is and that is precisely what fear aims to do. Turn the blade in one's hand upon themselves.

"I'm so lucky to have you." Myvette's appreciation could be felt warming the air around her. "If I fall or get hurt or just need guidance I can turn to you. But..." Myvette turned toward her master as she sprung back onto her feet and lifted her chin to meet his eye level.

Through her use of Force vision she could see Jax's pristine ocean blue hue which had flowed smoothly like water when she first met him now had intervals of jagged spiked spasms. There was clearly something disturbing the waters or more precisely there was something disturbing him and whatever that might be he's elected not to share with her.

"When YOU need help and YOU need guidance, who do you turn to? You're like a man with a broken leg who's too stubborn to go to the hospital because he thinks he can 'walk it off.' But also like you, keeping that injury and trying to fix it on his own is just making it worse. You have to tell me or SOMEONE what's going on."

Myvette straightened her black mask. "And not to be rude but stick to the truth, and don't try to brush me off like before either. I don't need eyes to see there's something on your mind." She truly wasn't trying to be pushy but Jax just didn't seem like the type to be this jaded over something, hell he just got finished telling Myvette to stop being so damned paranoid!

 

[Jax Thio]

Location: Alderaan
Equipment: Jedi Robes, Jax's Prosthetic Arm, Jax's Second Lightsaber, Promise Ring to Jairdain
Tag: Myvette Faeli

"I've put a strong mental barrier," Jax thought staring at Myvette stonefaced and slowly stroking his chin. "And she STILL managed to penetrate it with relative ease. The Force is very strong in this girl."

She just needed confidence in herself, that'll take time and some care since one slip up and Myvette can regress back in her shell. However, Jax was happy at the progression they've made so far. If Jax can just get Myvette to stop probing his mind though he suspect it was unintentional due to her natural ability of an empath.

"Myvette," Jax chuckled. "I appreciate your offer, but you can't help me. There are many things that are beyond your understanding. Things that are best left unsaid. My problems are something that I need to handle on my own, just like you will have to deal with your own inner turmoil."

The Jedi Master sighed, he knows that Myvette means well but she can't help Jax. She's too young and too insecure to help Jax in his internal fight against his father: Darth Carnifex . This was his fight and no one else's Carnifex will just use Myvette to get to Jax and there was no way he was going to allow that to happen.

 

[Myvette Faeli]

Myvette frowned and folded her arms defiantly, the girl clearly wasn’t going to take no for an answer. Her stubbornness was both her greatest asset and her longest standing enemy but today it didn’t have to be either, it could be the thing that stopped someone from going down a path that might lead them to ruin.

“Okay okay, I get that you want or maybe even HAVE to walk this path alone but look at me! I’ve been walking this road to find confidence and identity my whole life and I didn’t do it alone! I had tons of help most of all you! In the end you’ll have to do what you have to do on your own but that doesn’t mean you have to get to that point by yourself! Let me help you!” Myvette’s desperation was growing, it could be felt in the weight of her words and the ripples in the Force she sent to speak.

“Look at me, we both know that if you won’t tell me what’s going on I’ll just be more worried! But more than that we both know I won’t give up and I won’t give in.” Myvette breathed deeply a faint blue shimmer running over her skin “I might not be able to help you but…talking about it can’t hurt. I mean what's the worst that could happen right? I really REALLY just wanna help. Tell ya what…”

Myvette reached into her bag and pulled out two…one she pulled out one bar of chocolate and waved it in front of Jax’s face. She was at the end of her rope and willing to part with her love of sugar in the pursuit of a friend. “I’ll give you this if you give me a hint or something! You can’t just leave me in the dark, master! You spent all morning pulling me out of my shell and now I’m going to do the same for you! Are you really just going to not tell me? Honestly you're a Jedi master, you of all people should know that keeping secrets from the people around you is usually a really bad idea!”

Jax Thio

 

[Jax Thio]

Location: Alderaan
Equipment: Jedi Robes, Jax's Prosthetic Arm, Jax's Second Lightsaber, Promise Ring to Jairdain
Tag: Myvette Faeli

As much Jax was grateful that Myvette was willing to help, she'll only end up hurting herself. Carnifex will corrupt her and turn her to the Dark Side, Myvette was too insecure with herself to constantly fight the mental onslaught that Carnifex inflicted on Jax ever since he revealed that he was his father. "No Myvette," Jax gave her a warm smile closing her hand to cover the piece of chocolate. "What I'm dealing with.... is beyond your abilities right now. But I know when the time comes, you will help me."


Just then Jax heard Carnifex voice, it was faint but Jax recognized the ancient tongue that he spoke in. The auditory torture of the words caused Jax to stumble. He could feel his strength fading but the Jedi Master took a deep breath allowing the Force to flow threw him once more. Carnifex's voice began to fade as Jax sighed. "Come on Myvette," Jax let's continue your training.

 

[Myvette Faeli]

Myvette couldn’t help but feel dejected when even sugar couldn’t sway Jax even a little. She should have expected this, one who could be moved so easily with chocolate could never become a Jedi Master. It made her think that if she were in his position, if she was so deep in the bowels of distress would she be able to make the same choice as him? Hold the same resolve. She shuddered at the thought and at the warped form Jax’s aura was taking.

“Master, are you-” Myvette held the thought within herself, not allowing it to enter the ocean and ripple outwards. She knew what his answer would be and she knew it would be a lie or at least a half-truth. Besides his words didn’t matter for she could see the corruption within him, the way a red shell of a hue washed over his brilliant blue and hid it like a spirit possessing flesh, clouds of dirt in murky water, a dark corner in a light filled room. Was he holding this darkness within himself? No she would have sensed it and the crimson power was foreign to him, it chained him, imprisoned him and it was leaving its scars.

The cold…this power it’s so…malicious…is this what he’s been hiding? Who could possess such a carnivorous spirit?

Myvette shook her head to clear her thoughts, she needed to stop probing Jax and people in general now that she thought about it. It was invasive and it was wrong, if they didn’t want to share something with her it wasn’t in her right to just go into their head and steal the info. But when the world is black and white and the only colors are the shadows of people's souls and the silhouettes of their intentions, it was hard not to be enthralled.

As Myvette adjusted her mask she tried to focus on training but truthfully it couldn’t be farther from her mind, how could it not? Still, she’d made more progress than she thought was possible and it seemed there was another lesson to come. He was likely to test her courage and faith again but this time she’d be ready for him, after jumping over a gorge with a bottom hidden from view there wasn’t much she could think of that Jax could put her through.

Hopefully that doesn’t come back to bite her…

Jax Thio

 

[Jax Thio]

Location: Alderaan
Equipment: Jedi Robes, Jax's Prosthetic Arm, Jax's Second Lightsaber, Promise Ring to Jairdain
Tag: Myvette Faeli

Jax gave a sad smile at Myvette, he didn't blame her for peering into his mind. It was her people's innate ability to sense the heightened emotions of others good and bad. Jax hoped though that Myvette understood that the darkness swirled within him was something that she cannot handle. "I know you mean well Myvette and I appreciate your help," Jax said. "But you are not ready to face what I'll eventually have to face. If you abandon your training now. If you choose to follow me to battle this darkness, then you will die and painfully."

He remembered Aveline Cuiléin and how Jax failed her training. How he nearly killed her back in Korriban, it was a painful memory that Jax had never recovered from. He was sure if he ever would, regret started to fill his body as he turned to Myvette. "Don't focus on the future Myvette," Jax said. "Focus on the here and now where it belongs, when you focus on things that could happen you run the risk of ignoring what is happening now."

The Jedi Master motioned Myvette to follow him. "Come on," Jax said. "We got ourselves a mountain to climb."