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[Stardust Solus Skirae]

She looked to her" hmmmm I do much regret not being able to assist you when that happen "she said with much regret "I am glad to hear the crystal ills safe, a saber outside may change but the crystal shows who the weilder is on the inside, it reflect a person may change on the outside but are always the same inside"she said and gave a chuckle" I think you should always have it on you, just in case I get disabled
[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay nodded as [member="Stardust Raxis"] said pretty much the same thing that Veiere did. She sipped her tea. "Alright. I'll carry it in my satchel. It's decorative, and isn't so easy to ignite. That way if someone stumbles upon it, I can just tell them that it was a gift, instead of revealing my secret."

 

[Stardust Solus Skirae]

She smiled and sipped her tea, it was now or never she had got her relaxes it seemed, time to spring her trap question"that's good to here sister, now then....something is bothering you, and don't go lying saying everything is fine I can feel it...it's not
[member="Gray Raxis"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay's smile faded. It seemed as though [member="Stardust Raxis"] and Gray haven't talked. Her body stiffened as she tried to figure out what to say. "I'm just...trying to get over what happened at the trial. It was similar to how my husband died and I just want to forget about it, okay?" Of course she refrained from mentioning that she suggested to Gray that she should leave the clan so that her words and stubborness wouldn't get them into trouble. But, he told her that she was being selfish and wouldn't allow it.

 

[Stardust Solus Skirae]

Hmmm" stardust did that sound, made her sound a lot older then she was, she stood as she sipped her tea and walked to [member="Lady Kay"]'s side before sitting down by her and looked into her eyes, those green emeralds had seen countless battles death destruction and hell....but it was obvious that trial bright forth things she had been try to put down as well

I understand sister, it has left me scarred and has opened new scars within me...many I thought healed and paid no heed to them" she said drifting into wise tone of voice" however rather then hide from my demons I face them head on, what makes us strong is not how we fight with a sword" she said and pointed to the center of her chest" it's in here that makes us strong

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay held her gaze, but only for a moment. [member="Stardust Raxis"] spoke of the same thing. That she wasn't facing them and running away or hiding instead. She clenched one of her fists as she just couldn't understand why they would think that way. "And what would you have me do, Star? I didn't run from the trial, I wasn't even invited. I stayed for the whole thing. That's not running or hiding. And not wanting to join or have any part of the Crusades isn't running or hiding either. It's what is right! Punishing innocent people for the crimes of another is wrong! Don't any of you see that?!" She forced herself to pick up her tea and have another sip. What did they want her to do? Confront Ra and try to make him see his own stupidity? Doing that would only cause Ra to punish the rest of them, and they didn't need that right now.

 

[Stardust Solus Skirae]

Stardust remained calm and cool, she looked to her and closed her eyes feeling her anger, she did not react to it but stand walking over to her and crouched so she was eye level" I ask you not to face the physical world demons" she said and pointed to her head" you must meditate on the force, enter your own mind and face the demons there, I care not if you support the crusades for its your choice not to"she said still calm and placed her hands on her shoulders" what is hurting you isn't physical it's in your head as I said...meditate and fight the demons in your head conquer whatever it is...in fact I know a place that could help
[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay frowned, letting her shoulders slump with the weight of [member="Stardust Raxis"] ' hands. It was all in her head, was it? Demons within her head? Sounded like something [member="Thraxis"] would say, when he held her prisoner inside of his mental institution. Did she need to talk to his doctor persona? The one that pretended to care? Was she going down that route where she might end up hurting someone?

She furrowed her brows in thought and then closed her eyes. No. She should be by herself, dealing with things by herself as she always did after Shaw was killed. That tragic event changed her life forever and even to this day she was being reminded of it.

Kay opened her eyes and spoke very softly, "Where would you have me go?..."

 

[Stardust Solus Skirae]

She looked at her knowing she was thinking, she sat down and waited till she responded and star sat forward " we will be heading to dagaboh prepare something you want to get dirty
[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

"I have to leave Commenor?" Oh she wasn't sure if she liked this idea. Yes she had a Vice President and her Ministers could take care of things for her while she was gone, but still, she was hesitant. History told her what was on Dagobah and she wasn't looking forward to it. This was going to be very difficult.

[member="Stardust Raxis"]

 

[Stardust Solus Skirae]

She nodded to her"yes it's the only way for you to get rid of your troubles in your head" she said as she sniled" and I'll be their to help just I'm case anything happens
[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay wanted to sigh, but she didn't. Instead she merely nodded. "Okay." She got to her feet and gathered her datapad and left her tea behind as she headed out of the kitchenette towards the exit of the warehouse. The landspeeder and driver were there to wait for herself and [member="Stardust Raxis"] to take them to the Presidential Palace. "Shall we take the Free Lady?"

 

[Stardust Solus Skirae]

She stood and followed she came up beside and and gave a soft smile* your doing the right thing my sister" was all she could say before noddimg" yes we shall take the free lady
[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay nodded, leaning against [member="Stardust Raxis"] as they got into the speeder. "I know....I'm sure that I'll thank you for it later." But getting to that point was going to be the hardest part. What will she see? Who will she see? It was nerve racking.

The speeder took them to the Palace. Kay had Star wait while she went inside and grabbed a few things, arranged her time away and sent word to her Ministers. Fifteen minutes later, she was back in the speeder and they were heading to the Free Lady. Terrac was there waiting. This was a flight that he knew that he could handle. Kay got out of the speeder with her satchel and headed into the ship to the living quarters. It was going to take a while to get there. "We each have our own rooms for the trip. Though once we get there, you'll have to give Terrac directions to where he should land."

 

[Stardust Solus Skirae]

She boarded as she nodded "you will in sure " she said then said to herself" if you get out

She sat on the speeder as they arrived, she waited as she started to prepare herself mentally for the journey to come, truth be told started was gonna head there to fight her own demons...and attempt to see if she can contact her parents some how...

She entered the living area and sat down as she looked to her" once we get there I'll need to take control, I know of a certain place to land where the ship will be safe" she said and looked to her" kay...I need you to prepare mentally..if you can...for I will not lie what you may see can be quite....I can'tdecscribe it
[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay clutched the strap of her satchel, holding it as it gave her comfort. But maybe not as much as it used to. "Prepare myself?...I already know that I probably won't like it. And if you're taking me to where I think you are taking me...you might have to give me a push..." She wasn't sure if she could go through with it, so it was good that she wasn't going alone.

[member="Stardust Raxis"]

 

[Stardust Solus Skirae]

Hmmm" she bowed her head and gave a gentle nod a sshe looked to her"I'll be giving you a push just to make sure you do what is needed, besides I have been needing to go anyways....I have business there with my own demons
[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay sat down, curling up on a chair. "You do? What demons do you have to deal with?" It made it a little easier that [member="Stardust Raxis"] wasn't going to be there just for Kay. And it gave her something else to think about.

 

[Stardust Solus Skirae]

She closed her eyes as she took a breath in" I need to see if I can find my parents and call me to them...I figure this the the place I can do so, along with that....a bunch of memories have came up that I must put down again..." she said with a grin expression and mumbled" that and I wanna see if she is dead...
[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay raised a brow. [member="Stardust Raxis"] needed to go to Dagobah to bury memories deep inside? She could do that anywhere. But maybe she needed a different method. "My father is still alive, but he'd just rather pretend that I didn't exist. And I guess that's okay. Both him and my real brother work for the First Order."