Darth Ophidia
He could feel the crystal's resistance as he attempted to breach into it, it was a sensation that he was used to. This wasn't the first time he sought to delve into the crystal, but with any luck it would be the last.
Alisteri could feel the tension in the room around him, idly feeling the hairs of the back of his neck standing up in response to it. His demeanor stayed calm and collected...for the moment anyway. Slowly and reluctantly, he peeled back the barriers that he had erected in his mind. He had locked away so much of his feelings about his past, there was just no reason to dwell on it in his mind. His thoughts had been shifting towards his past however; the trials that he had faced forced reflection upon him.
Each barrier that was cast aside stung, like a scab being pulled from a wound just after the scab had fully set in.
He focused inwardly, and inch by inch; could feel his calm break as a result of it. There was no going back either; he couldn't just ignore his own mind at the end of this. His scars would stick this time.
He remembered his childhood, growing up with loving parents. Those parents however, and by extension himself, weren't in a "loving" position. They made sure to instill in him that he was only worth what his body could provide. He was a piece of property, meant to work until he was replaced by either machinery or a better laborer. His body began to shake after a moment, his repressed rage at being robbed of his own childhood flaring up like a raging fire.
As his form trembled under the mental and emotional strain, he focused his anger at the crystal. His previous messy poking was reshaped into a ram against the crystal's resistance as he went through his own mind. He grew up in a place of suffering and work. As such, even though he was a child, he wasn't spared from it for long.
The days of labor flooded back as his mind settled on that one, accursed day. The day his parents died.
He was only seven, and yet he had already begun to work in the mines alongside his family. Cave-ins were fairly infrequent on Kessel, yet they still occurred of course. They tended to be caused by vehicles or machinery of some variety, and that was what had done his parents in. He remembered that he had been awarded with a day off that day, as the child slaves simply couldn't work as long as the adults could. He had been trying to learn to read at the time. That was when he was told what had happened.
His clenched eyes couldn't stop the tears that began to leak from his remaining eye. He had rushed ahead of the group of slaves, a dumb child in disbelief that his only family could be dead. Unfortunately, the cave-in was far from done by the time he arrived. He didn't feel the wrath of any rocks from the cave-in, instead he was struck by a malfunctioning light. He had fallen right into it, his left eye pressed against it as it exploded from overload.
Tears were flowing freely now, the pain of losing his eye coming back to him as he remembered how it had felt. The pain hammered against the crystal, mixing in and amplifying the rage that was already pounding its defenses.
He wasn't sure why his old master had taken pity on him. An injured slave, crying over the loss of his eye and of his parents. Regardless, his master evidently decided to be merciful that day. Alisteri was given medical attention far above the usual kind that was reserved for slaves, that saved him from death. There was no salvaging his eye however, most of that part of his face had to be replaced by machinery. He could feel the metal even now, as it sat in his skull and flesh. In that moment, he remembered that he had hated it too.
Then, the young man's knees gave out and he kneeled before the pedestal. His hands were still raised and his mind was still assaulting the crystal, yet his body still shook with rage and pain.
The rest of his life flashed like the light from a passing vehicle. His growth to adulthood, his education and hard labor during that time went by like a speeding shot from a blaster. Soon enough his mind replayed the events of his capture by pirates. The mine was assaulted by several groups of pirates, eager for free spice and some experience slaves. His adoptive...."father" had been killed in the attack, although that thought only brought a minor increase in his rage. He had never stopped hating that horrid man, even after all that he had gifted to him.
Those pirates that had taken him were disgusting. They only got him because of their minor role in the attack, so they only got one slave. He didn't care for why they had taken him, it didn't matter. His hatred sharpened into a brutal spear of pain and unfettered hatred as his anger began pouring from his mouth in the form of growls and shouts of rage. Said spear thrusted into the crystal's resistance with no mercy. The pirates had belittled him, changed him up like an animal and even used him as target practice at one point.
Killing them had been so sweet, so liberating. A cruel grin somehow formed on his face at the thought. And just like how he had torn them apart, he would tear this crystal apart if he had to.