"The Steward of Imperium"
3rd post
OBJECTIVE 1: REVELRY IN THE QUIET
THE_WOAD
APPOINTMENTS WITH THE WOAD: TO IMPROVE ON GREATNESS - PART 3
Ravelin, Bastion (Summer of 874 ABY)
Oh? What's this I see in the eyes of the inmate? This could be an actual bullseye, ol' boy....
The old Woad was hoping for a bite sooner rather than later, knowing for a fact that proverbially poking the bear in his ribs with a stick, and with the right amount of force, could primarily yield a truth or two out of the irritation-factor alone, let alone planting a seed for the urge to verbalise revealing corrections that gave more away than they'd be comfortable with. Whatever was about to transpire, an entire tempest of truths, the perfect revelatory storm of what he really thought about the whole affair, all of it was on the precipice of being spewed back at him, and to near-vitriolic tones of intensity. This was what the Lord-General wanted, something Annor could actually read that differed to the dejected silence she was growing visibly bored of studying; and yet, when Paircrit was done weighing the wording of his response, Barran inwardly assumed the Elite-Trooper would be glad to have something more meaningful to go on, happier than ever to adapt to the instigated revelation as it transpired before his very eyes.
'First of all, M'Lord, thank you for receiving me in such a place. I must admit that it changes from the ISB jails. Don't get me wrong, I don't flatter you for free, I just recognize good taste.'
Whit is it wae the youngsters an' their love o' the pomp these days? Forget it, Erskine. Jus' leave it be.
Despite the mild internalised complaint, the Lord-General was still quite aware of what else was being said in the open, taking due note of the fact the complement was delivered well enough to be considered sincere by most, though anything would've appeared to show a sort of grandeur to one who'd been interned by the ISB for any varied, extensive spans of time. It would've been seen as a grand blessing alone just to see some sunlight again, (or to feel the wind blowing through one's own hair in the same context) everything the free souls took for granted would be viewed as something grandiose to the many inmates of the ISB prison-system, perhaps even more so after surviving a full term on Prefsbelt IV, but Lord Erskine had no such lattermost designs on young Ewan - not whilst a sincere response was just a moment away from being divulged to every pair of ears in the room.
The trooper's facial expressions even became more serious, like he was attain a determined focus, almost a state of survivalist fighting-flow, going far beyond what one might consider as portrayal. This was something else, this was one who was remembering what came before imprisonment, one who was on the verge of recalling himself into a traumatic self-simulation flashback.
'Resentments... I never said or assumed this. If this is the conclusion of the reports you are telling me about, I am sorry but it is not. It's all just a combination of unfortunate circumstances. Once again, and I say it, since the first day at the Imperial Academy to this day, I have never dropped the Empire out of my heart. Again, reports prior to my departure will remind you that I myself pulled the trigger when my unit discovered the rebel pocket my parents were leading. Once again, it was not the resentment against the Empire that made me leave but rather the shame that these two faithful servants of our great Empire were in fact traitors.'
Closing his eyes as the inmate sighed with a dismayed intensity, Erskine could feel the pain in the trooper's words, and to a much harsher extent than everyone around him, as there was part of Lord Erskine's ancestry that still had some of that rebelliousness coursing through every capillary, vein and artery that gave vitality to everything his body asked of them. Even the act of joining the New Imperial Order publicly (exactly as the Stormchaser had in 863 ABY) would've been viewed as an act of sedition or outright rebellion by a faction that still retained a fair deal of their supremacy at the time, retaining a lot of losses to the upstarts at the time as well, but no doubt remaining a steady-holding menace before their downfall, enough of a threat that the Sith Empire's denizen still felt safe enough to throw around such terms like,"Sedition", and,"Rebellion", with an assumed impunity that had engrained itself in their culture for centuries before then.
'So what? What would you have expected from me? That I remain quietly in front of my subordinates after this incident? I have certainly been a coward, but not against the New Imperial Order, cowardly in the face of my men and myself, for failing to take responsibility for the acts of my family. So if you ask me to sign a document that says I deserted to harm our Empire, sorry, that would be a lie, and I won't lie while looking a high officier in the eye.'
'Quite right, lad. But these words of looking an officer in the eye mean little and less to me these days.', Lord Erskine began, letting the inmate gaze on the real horror in his eyes, eyes that Ewan might not have wanted to look into so much after that. Mildly reddened, with a darkness on his eyelids that either hinted at a lack of sleep, or endless trauma or both, adding to the cold blue of his irises, Paircrit would've known by then that sometimes looking an Imperial officer in the eye isn't always the best course of action. Sitting up proper and leaning forward, Barran continued,'Y'see, some deserters go AWOL solely through fear of the kind of person they might become. What they might see in the mirror should they continue down a particular path - but you'll never be that man.... That's for men like me to become, one you needn't ever ponder on becoming.', maintaining a calm demeanour throughout, despite the fact the subject matter was beginning to affect his mood.
'So here's what I think, it wasn't cowardice that drove your heart to behave in such a manner. As it is no shame to admit that love ruled it that day, an' to the extent that even God would've forbade me to shoot my own parents; after all, these were the very people who brought you into the realm of the living, were they not? Cowardice won't keep a blade from a rebel's throat.... Not with your training, an' especially not with the experience you gained after that training.'
'Anybody else, an' you'd be giving the order like you were ordering DRINKS AT A FUCKEN CANTINA!!!!', The Stormchaser continued, leaning forward as he spoke until he paused, looking Annor's way to find her looking back with (wrathfully) wide-eyed nodding confirmation, understanding the Spec-Ops training much better than Lord Erskine ever could. Elite-Troopers, as the Lord-General remembered from an outside perspective, were known for their effectiveness in Spec-Ops theatres of war as much as those of a particular conventional nature. Conferring the latter part of his process, the Woad regained eye-contact with the young inmate, and lowering his tone so as not to disturb readers in other wings of the library, Barran drawled,'I mean, how else would an actual killing-machine, like you, break at the pinnacle moment? Had to be closer to home than a man's feigned assumption of cowardice after all. But sadly, that's the only question I'll get to ask. I leave the second and third question to the initiative my peers can offer, other insights perhaps.', letting the rage slip away as quickly as it had risen up from within.
'Sorry, lad. I've just gone an' made myself just one of three makeshift tribunal members today. I don't trust myself beyond this point - but I'll keep my verdict silent until the last o' the others is finally uttered.... Up first, Colonel Konrad Bolter, commander of the 66th Armoured. That's right, you're in the presence of the commander of Hell's Hammers! And you will accord in our reverence of this man, according in our sincerity towards him with the same vehemence at that.'
Standing up with one last warning glance to one he was beginning to sympathise with, there was no doubt the lad's lack of dignity on the matter had sat poorly with him, but in the warning glance alone, hope could still be found if Paircrit was wise enough to show some humility and full-transparency when it mattered. Putting a kindly hand on the Elite-Trooper's shoulder, Barran muttered,'Sorry about that, Annor.... You're up after the Colonel by the way, I'll let you know why this subject hit close to home some other time.', before turning to close in on the cigar he'd left behind. Misha had been watching everything from the window-side of the Lord-General's reading bench, with eyes firmly on the inmate until Erskine stood up to take his place beside her, there to calm the tigress and assure her there was no threat to be perceived from his raised temper, fiery though it may have been before.
'Helluva day so far.... Quite the rollercoaster already, so it is.'