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The Thyrsian turned as she heard the familiar voice of Viers. She offered her a smile. “Of course not, please take a seat and a cup.” Viera took another sip of hers, careful against the scolding heat. She went to reply to Viers, but held off as she saw Dagon take a deep breath.
Whatever he was about to say, was something that had been held deep within, weighing against him.
Viera’s eyes never left Dagon as he spoke, her expression giving away nothing as she watched and observed the emotions on display. The young man before had been burned by war, physically, emotionally and mentally. She wasn’t sure when he was first thrown into those fires, but she wouldn’t be shocked if it had been at a young age. And then of course there was Dagon’s brother; family. Something Viera couldn’t share, there was never a family for her. But she had learned how devastating losing a loved one could be. How it could add fuel to a desire to end the cause for good.
Part of Viera wished her old Master had returned to one of the Orders, perhaps she could’ve helped guide them, prepare them for the weight of war. She had done that for the Thrysian, similarly throwing her into the fire, but with a guided hand. Viera had seen what war was like, on both the frontlines and in the medical tents. The effects it had on the combatants; Jedi and Sith, as well as those caught in the middle; civilians.
“The dark side is corruptive, drawn out by those that seek power and thus allow it to fester in their wake. It innately draws upon our inner darker nature. We all have it, there’s no denying that. But it’s a matter of whether we’re trained enough to keep it at bay. And then, it’s not enough if you’re exposed to it for a long period of time, consistently without much of a break. Even if you yourself know you’re not slipping, there’s still a part deep within you where the phantom memory of that corruption has latched itself.” Viera took one more sip, before placing her cup down and turning to face Dagon fully.
“A portion of your drive to fight the Dark Side is fueled by what happened to your brother, but you cannot forget yourself. Yes, we kill those that would bring death and destruction; the Sith, but it’s still killing. We’re still taking lives no matter what. That strikes a toll, and over time you will lose yourself, Dagon. Don’t lose this, ever.” She pointed at his chest; his heart.
Viera’s mind wondered for a few moments, back to the assortment of Jedi that had converged on the commotion earlier. Her thoughts turned to the other Thyrsian, Aelys. The impression she had gotten, was that he had already closed off some of his heart to the violence. Would he have been in Dagon’s place right now? Or would he have called them cowards for not jumping into the fight?
It was all utter speculation, based on observations and no deep knowledge of Aelys. Maybe it would change if she got to know him better, or perhaps it would solidify the speculation.
“The fact you’re sitting here, telling this is proof that you’re already helping yourself. You haven’t closed your heart to the violence. And I won’t lie, this isn’t a simple matter of throwing some more Jedi into the war, to fight side by side in a unity of strength. There’s a problem higher up, beyond the one that enacted the order to bomb a Sith Academy, It goes beyond the one who gave the order, but to the one that greenlit it, considered it a justified act.” Pause, breathe. “Those that push that button, not knowing who's going to live or die. Not to mention the emotional and mental damage it’ll do to those on the ground, witnessing it. What they care for, are results.” Viera pulled away, sinking back into her chair. “But that is war for you, it’s not purely black and white, it’s got a whole mess of grey in the middle.” Viera moved forwards again, leaning closer to Dagon to grab his shoulder. “But you will have my aid, Dagon Kaze.” Then pulled away, only to give the young man a gentle poke in the stomach. “If only to ensure you actually have some decent R&R to heal, in between battles.”
Whatever he was about to say, was something that had been held deep within, weighing against him.
Viera’s eyes never left Dagon as he spoke, her expression giving away nothing as she watched and observed the emotions on display. The young man before had been burned by war, physically, emotionally and mentally. She wasn’t sure when he was first thrown into those fires, but she wouldn’t be shocked if it had been at a young age. And then of course there was Dagon’s brother; family. Something Viera couldn’t share, there was never a family for her. But she had learned how devastating losing a loved one could be. How it could add fuel to a desire to end the cause for good.
Part of Viera wished her old Master had returned to one of the Orders, perhaps she could’ve helped guide them, prepare them for the weight of war. She had done that for the Thrysian, similarly throwing her into the fire, but with a guided hand. Viera had seen what war was like, on both the frontlines and in the medical tents. The effects it had on the combatants; Jedi and Sith, as well as those caught in the middle; civilians.
“The dark side is corruptive, drawn out by those that seek power and thus allow it to fester in their wake. It innately draws upon our inner darker nature. We all have it, there’s no denying that. But it’s a matter of whether we’re trained enough to keep it at bay. And then, it’s not enough if you’re exposed to it for a long period of time, consistently without much of a break. Even if you yourself know you’re not slipping, there’s still a part deep within you where the phantom memory of that corruption has latched itself.” Viera took one more sip, before placing her cup down and turning to face Dagon fully.
“A portion of your drive to fight the Dark Side is fueled by what happened to your brother, but you cannot forget yourself. Yes, we kill those that would bring death and destruction; the Sith, but it’s still killing. We’re still taking lives no matter what. That strikes a toll, and over time you will lose yourself, Dagon. Don’t lose this, ever.” She pointed at his chest; his heart.
Viera’s mind wondered for a few moments, back to the assortment of Jedi that had converged on the commotion earlier. Her thoughts turned to the other Thyrsian, Aelys. The impression she had gotten, was that he had already closed off some of his heart to the violence. Would he have been in Dagon’s place right now? Or would he have called them cowards for not jumping into the fight?
It was all utter speculation, based on observations and no deep knowledge of Aelys. Maybe it would change if she got to know him better, or perhaps it would solidify the speculation.
“The fact you’re sitting here, telling this is proof that you’re already helping yourself. You haven’t closed your heart to the violence. And I won’t lie, this isn’t a simple matter of throwing some more Jedi into the war, to fight side by side in a unity of strength. There’s a problem higher up, beyond the one that enacted the order to bomb a Sith Academy, It goes beyond the one who gave the order, but to the one that greenlit it, considered it a justified act.” Pause, breathe. “Those that push that button, not knowing who's going to live or die. Not to mention the emotional and mental damage it’ll do to those on the ground, witnessing it. What they care for, are results.” Viera pulled away, sinking back into her chair. “But that is war for you, it’s not purely black and white, it’s got a whole mess of grey in the middle.” Viera moved forwards again, leaning closer to Dagon to grab his shoulder. “But you will have my aid, Dagon Kaze.” Then pulled away, only to give the young man a gentle poke in the stomach. “If only to ensure you actually have some decent R&R to heal, in between battles.”