The joke's on me...

[Dune Rhur]

Sigh. Somebody just drove away an excellent, long term writer here with their idiocy. That person should be banned.

I'm very sorry to see Corvus go. A really, really nice person to everyone does not deserve this.

 

[Kira Vaal]

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I try and convey my feelings through gifs because I'm too stunned to do otherwise...​

You will be missed.​

 

[Ashin Varanin]

That person should be banned.

She said it was someone IRL.

 

[Sor-Jan Xantha]

[member="Corvus Raaf"]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ih7N9_VUU4U​

 

[Amz]

Wish you all the best, take care of yourself.

 

[Lord Ajihad]

[member="Corvus Raaf"]

Actually teared up a bit at this :thunder:

Since the day I joined the board, you've been an inspiration to me as a writer. I'm a little upset that we never got to finish that acolyte tourney all that time ago (Vi'kas vs Melori) haha. We never threaded much, but it was cool to see how much you helped out around both the OS and GR, as well as belting out non faction related threads on the side!

I hope that sometime you'll be able to overcome whoever said these hurtful things and rejoin us here. If ya ever wanna talk shoot me a PM. Best of luck

 

[Ben Corscifine]

[member="Corvus Raaf"]

I post very little OOC. I haven't been around here long. We didn't know each other very well, but I was very happy for the time that you were willing to put into developing my character when I joined the board, even despite your mountains of duties and the expectations put on you with this character being the Grandmaster of the Order and all. I don't know if you're even coming back to read these or not, but I hope that you are, because I want you to know that people like you made a big difference--all the difference-- for those of us who are new to the board and trying to get our feet in the door.

Thank you for your work. Thank you for your openness. I loved your character and I loved writing with you.

(Also, knowing from lightly stalking all of your posts how you love gifs

While it's very sad news, I'm glad that you are doing what you need to do for yourself.

So much love.

*Ben smiles and bows to his master, one last time.*

 

[Allyson Locke]

I hope that the staff look into this in depth. This isn't the first time I've seen someone forced to leave this board because of harassment. There are a lot of cocks on this website that need a good dressing down.

From reading the post - it seems like something happened IRL. [member="Vazela"]

 

[Ellie Mors]

[member="Corvus Raaf"]
Please read my message.

 

[Ellie Mors]

I will wait.

Spoiler

[media]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_iA3yW8n7cM[/media]

 

[Katelyn Feanor]

[member="Corvus Raaf"]
Noooooo, now I'm sad

 

[Orphen]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v0dUnoecoZ0

Goodboo,

I hope that one day you do change your mind and not allow the thoughts and actions of others to be in the way of what you enjoy.

people suck,

so you may as well do what you enjoy.

people love you here.

remember that.

 

[Ellie Mors]

people love you here. remember that.

 

[Antoir Setrrin]

I'm a little late to this. Hopefully not too late to get a word in.

Though you probably already know this, I will say it anyway, because I feel the need to: I am not good at goodbyes. Sometimes I say the wrong thing- something hurtful or spiteful, something rash, or something I do not really mean. Other times I say the right thing, but not enough of it. Most times all I can manage to do is post a few gifs. That never manages to capture how I'm feeling. Recently I've tried to use poetry to convey my thoughts- but the thing about poetry is that everyone gets a different message from the same set of words.

The fact that you are the one leaving makes me desperate to try, somehow, to say goodbye, despite the fact that I do not believe I would be able to do so properly.

I... I know we didn't talk much- no where near as much as I would have liked to. That, of course, is mostly my fault. I've left without saying goodbye more times than I can count. There were stories I wanted desperately to write with you. There still are, really. Hundreds, probably, that I have asked to write but never followed up on. How many threads did I promise to start?... Life has a funny way of making it hard to do the things you love, especially when you're trying to do it with people you love.

Love, of course, is a strong word. One that I have a history of using improperly, without much regard to its meaning or its strength. Perhaps I cannot say I love you, Corvus- we did not get to know each other very well, after all- but I can say, with no doubt in my heart, that I have loved your writing. I have loved the stories, the emotions, the characters, all of it that I have seen. It's not hard to find good writers on this site. Finding great writers, ones that you will never forget, is... harder (though not much, perhaps).

You are, in my mind, most definitely on the list of great writers who have called Chaos home.

From the small conversations we shared, I wish to place you atop the list of great people as well. You've been kind to me, Corvus, and I've seen you be kind to many others. Whether or not you wish to return here at some point, whether or not you do, you will always have a home here. You'll have friends- nay, family- ready to welcome you back, should the world be kind enough to let you bless us with your presence once more.

At this point, I have said much. But at this point I still don't believe I've expressed myself the way I want to. So, in the hope that somehow I get my message across, I will try to say things in another format.

Spoiler: Old Words

Spoiler: Something Something, Au Revoir, Probably

Originally to Matsu Xiangu:

I am a drifter
A wandering soul
With no home of her own

I travel and roam,
From one place to the next,
Only ever stopping to take a rest

Upon my searching,
For nothing and everything
I often meet people worth remembering.

Some make me cry
Whether when I depart,
Or when they find their way into my heart

Others are the reason I leave
Whether to painful to bear,

Spoiler: Old Words

Spoiler: Something Something, Au Revoir, Probably

Or to grand for me to keep near.

You were not the latter,
Of course you were the former,
One of the few who made me want to stay

From day to day,
From summer lights to winter nights,
The shine of your soul helped keep things bright.

Now, for once in my life
I am not the one leaving.

The winds of change
Have turned us onto different paths
Sending us to travel on opposite-bound tracks

We've both found gold,
Buried within or taken with pride,
There's no longer the question of if we tried

Am I crying?
I am a drifter, a wandering soul
And here, where I found you, I have found a home

You and the others
Have given me a place I can stay
It's a sorrowful thing for any of us to part ways

None shall forget you
Nor will any even consider it
We will keep you in our minds, even if we leave too

But this is where
We say our goodbyes,
With shakes in our hearts and shimmers in our eyes

No, we won't say goodbye
No matter where you go, no matter how far
The most we'll ever say is au revoir.

Spoiler: There Will Come A Time

Originally for Reverance:

Spoiler: There Will Come A Time

There will always come a time
When words will not work,
And the winds will not turn away.

The mountains will not break,
No matter how much we howl,
Or how much we wish them to.

There will always come a time
When we have to walk our own paths,
And we have to part ways.

The rivers will not cease to flow,
No matter how much we beg,
Or how much we do not want to go.

Goodbyes are not forever,
The friends I keep have taught me so.
Yet still the partings bring us sorrow

I cannot say when you'll be back,
Though I know we hope it'll be tomorrow,
We cannot ask the world to bend for us.

There will always come a time
When a full glass turns half-empty
And we must wait for it to be filled.

The cup will not take our tries,
No matter how sincere our hearts,
Or how many tears we cry.

There will always come a time
When we will push you away
And you will feel the sting.

The ache will not vanish so easily,
Yet we may try our best
To bring you back to our family.

There will always come a time
When you must walk away
And distance yourself from us

The rift will not be for long,
It will never really stay.
Yet we mind it just the same

There will come a time
When you must take a break
And walk another path

But you are always welcome home,
Into our sweet embrace.
'Til we meet again,
May light guide your days.

Spoiler: And New Ones

I Am Not Good At Saying Goodbye:

Spoiler: And New Ones

These get simpler and harder every time
I learn the patterns, the rhythm, the rhymes
But I am slowly running out of lines

How can I tell you my goodbyes
If I use the same words I used for them?
It just wouldn't feel right

I can't keep stringing words together
To tell people I care, and that
I hope things will get better

Eventually I will run out of new words
And every poem will become
Nothing but a lowly remix

But there will come a time
Where I still feel the need to try
And string words into a goodbye

I will say that I don't know
Exactly what feelings
I am trying to show

I will tell you things you've heard before
I'll forget everything that I've already said
And forget what's still inside my head

But maybe these words can be something
That means more than just nothing
Some syllables forming emotions

And I've already forgotten what the first line was
And I can't remember what kind of poem this was
And I am still trying not to trip over my tongue

I know that I'll miss you
And that I'll keep looking for you
In places you will no longer be

You've said that you're stubborn,
And damn, so am I
Maybe that's why I can't say goodbye

This is getting too long, the words are all rambled
The rhythm's none-existent
The patterns are refusing to be consistent

And I've already forgotten what I was trying to say
And I can't remember what makes a complete sentence
And I am still trying not to give up too soon

Because I'm trying to let you know
That I care for you
And love what you've made

In five years I still will,
And I'll still understand
Why you couldn't stay

But understanding and accepting are two different things
You already know what sadness your departure will bring
I am not the only one left with broken heart-strings

I don't know what has happened to you
I don't know if there's anything I can do
To make you feel better, if even in a small way

I'd try to string words together, or play you a song
But I fear that I would only do it wrong,
Or somehow cause you some harm

I am not good at goodbyes
I stutter and stumble
My every word a mere mumble

So often the most I can say is Au Revoir
Never a full promise of parting,
Just wishes of well-traveling

Even when the departure is forever,
A trip to whatever lies beyond
I can only say 'til we meet again

This, too, is what I shall say to you
"I hope to see you soon,"
"My dearest of friends."

Sincerely, signed
Upon a single line,
Jordan "Nyius" Van-Daalen

Au revoir, Corvus. You shall always be an honorary Van-Daalen. If you ever wish to chat with a small, moderately awkward teenager, I will be available.
Sincerely,
Jordan "Nyxius" Van-Daalen
[member="Corvus Raaf"]

 

[Tellos]

Didint knwo she'd left which now that I knwo makes me Sad. I enjoyed time RPing with her and hope she is happy. Whoemver hurt her better hope I never find out who they were.

 

[Jamie Pyne]

....This happened almost a year ago you know. The thread was started last January. [member="Tellos"]

 

[Tellos]

[member="Jamie Pyne"] No I didint knwo sorry.