T'sid Surt'r petted Laertia's scalp as she lay on Surt'r's sofa, clutching her black Lightsaber hilt, the crystal within soothing her agony.
"How did it happen, my Love?" T'sid questioned, fingers coming across the long thin trench in her scalp as Laertia recovered from her migraine episode.
"It was..." Laertia stopped, uncertain why she wanted to tell the creature this as she reclined, looking up at ancient stars, head resting on Surt'r's lap.
"It was a suicide attempt..." Laertia finally said.
She felt T'sid wince emotionally.
"Why?" Surt'r asked, small tears falling from Cat-Like eyes.
"I...I was...heartbroken..." Laertia asked.
"Over who?"
"Someone who is now dead..." Laertia answered.
"Oh."
"It was a long time ago."
"Understood..." T'sid replied. "Do the headaches always happen, Julia?"
"Yeah...my one attempt to end my pain ended up causing me pain for my life..."
Laertia rose up, raven hair slipping out of T'sid's fingers.
"Why didn't you try again?"
"Because I was ashamed of having attempted it the first time..." Laertia answered. "Part of me thought I could just disappear...but there is no disappearing. Gods know I tried."
Surt'r paused.
"I've never understood what I am. People were always afraid of me, even when I was nice. Even Jedi were afraid of me. I've been...tempted towards where you went...at times...'
Laertia glanced at her. Against her better judgement, she reached out to touch Surt'r's face. Surt'r touched hers in turn.
Laertia felt extreme sadness for both of them in that moment. About what it meant if Surt'r was right...
It still didn't change what she had done.
She was an exile. She had fought so hard she wasn't a Jedi anymore in anyone's eyes. But she wouldn't stand aside. There had to be a way to Force the GA and the NIO to the table, but how?
Killing the Leadership would help, but that would solve maybe a quarter of the problems. The rest needed to be either negotiating or inflicting enough damage at precise points...or just plain subverting the military for an attempted coup. For now it was enough they were arranging things just to harrass them. But a more long term solution to force those governments to the table would be needed...otherwise the other solution would be to absolutely destroy one government and isolate its assets for absorbtion, while isolating the remaining government and forcing them to the table, and hopefully forcing the other Jedi to an Alliance whether they wanted it or not. She refused to let their stubbornness doom the Galaxy.
"The Bryn'adul? Is that their name?" T'sid asked.
Laertia turned her head slowly to face her.
"I couldn't help but hear it. You were thinking about them so loudly...is that who we fight in the future?"
"Yeah. We won't have Jedi support..."
"Right...you said you were an Exile...how did you become one?"
Laertia stood up, looking out at the city.
"I wanted to fight the war in a way they didn't want to..."
She felt Surt'r's concern deepen.
"It came to blows, didn't it?" Surt'r asked gently.
Laertia turned. "Yes. I'd rather not get into details."
"I have my own views on fighting...they don't always mesh with the Order's views. They've been trying to 'civilize' war for millennia. All it ever does is blow up in their face. Cruelty is practically a requirement to win. Undesirable. But unavoidable. Nowadays they just use me for whoever they can't knock over easily. You'd think that would get me some respect. It doesn't. Not really. Because I know, the moment I openly disagree with them on anything about fighting the Darkness or spreading Peace...all that is over. They'll shut their ears. I'm tired of them, in a lot of ways..."
Laertia said nothing at this. The words reflected her own frustration.
She watched this golden city. It was so peaceful and tranquil looking. Full of Jedi who thought they didn't have to compromise with the rest of the universe.
They were going to lose this. All of this...and like it was in the Clone Wars, it would be entirely their fault. And they would still think they would be in the right for all of it...
Laertia felt Surt'r's hands on her shoulder.
"Do you want to fight them?" Surt'r asked.
"No. But I believe they are wrong. And I am willing to fight them because I believe it."
Laertia put her hand on Surt'r's.
"Are you willing to fight them alongside me?" Laertia asked quietly.
"Always...wherever you go, I shall go. Your burdens are my burdens." Surt'r assured, turning Laertia to face her.
"I have to go back to the future, T'sid." Laertia said. "It's been a lovely evening, but I cannot stay."
Surt'r nodded sadly.
"My blade is yours. You being here means I will eventually conceal it. And you will eventually find it at the very bridge by which you first arrived--"
T'sid stopped, looked around. Laertia saw shuttles from the Jedi temple approaching in the distance.
"Oh no. They've felt it..." Surt'r whispered in frustration.
"They felt the disturbance from your magic..." Laertia realized.
"I had hoped I was thorough enough to hide it...pity..." T'sid remarked, gesturing for Laertia to follow her back into the apartment.
"Here..." Surt'r said, removing her jacket, exposing a crimson shirt underneath. She pressed it to Laertia's grasp. Laertia was so confused she didn't know how to take the gesture. She just grasped it.
"I wish we had more time. There's so much we had to discuss..." Surt'r spoke. "I would have liked to duel you..."
"Don't worry..." Laertia replied calmly.
Surt'r smiled, kissed her. Laertia felt a strange safety with her, in spite of how they had met...
She pulled away.
"This shall not be our last encounter..." Surt'r assured her.
The world went white...
Laertia stumbled back into the arms of a confused Nine Lives, still grasping the strange Lightsaber.
"Laertia? What happened? You froze for like a split second and then you jumped back..." Nine asked. "Hey, where'd you get the Jacket..."
"What?" Laertia muttered before staring at the crimson jacket in her hand.
"It looks like yours. What the hell happened when you touched that blade?"
"I dunno..." Laertia answered truthfully.
She let Nine hold the jacket, and examined the blade, activating it. She sensed what she had sensed when examining it at Surt'r's apartment. Great and terrible power
Its surface was burned, but the craftsmanship was superb. She found the twist motion that split the saber in two, the second half a dual phase blue blade.
She spun it. Even with the longer than normal hilt and the energy quillions, it had excellent balance.
"We should leave..." Laertia spoke.
"No chit..." Nine muttered, handing Laertia back her new jacket.
Both soon exited the caves. That's when they sensed them.
They wore black and red armor familiar to Laertia. Familiar since Dantooine. They approached the mine entrance from all angles.
Imperial Knights. Assassins, Laertia surmised.
"Laertia Io, by will of The New Imperials, your life is now forfeit. You shall pay for slaughtering our brethren, as well as your own..." one of them said, activating a white blade.
"You're the fools who would rather kill Sith than Bryn'adul. Die." Laertia said quietly, activating her new blade. Nine tossed the jacket aside and drew her katana.
"Never killed me New Imps before..." Nine muttered as she stood next to Laertia. "What's it like?"
"I wasn'treally paying attentionto the sensationof beheading them..." Laertia answered as she sprinted into battle to meet the first white blade, Nine going into a frenzy of blade swings herself as battle erupted totally...