"This is new for me; This is all uncharted territory for me," Braze confessed, the wind playing with his hair as he spoke. The unfamiliar landscape of Lolthal seemed to match his uncertainty.
"I'm not used to Lolthal. Not accustomed to this planet. My master,
Jasper Kai'el
, and I have come here to assist in containing the Sithspawn outbreaks. I chose this field as my training ground since it's close to his ship. I wanted to practice a little more alone, I thought a bit of solitude would help me practice more effectively, but..."
He paused, his thoughts drifting to instances when his eagerness had led him astray, tempting him to push himself too far in pursuit of perfection. He had previously done some not-so-smart things to further his own training. This... this was different. This endeavor felt different, like a conscious effort to approach his training from a more balanced perspective.
"I'm attempting a more relaxed approach, I suppose," he continued, a wistful note in his voice.
"I'm trying to restrain my usual desier to exceed my limits and instead focus on something... simpler." With a playful gesture, he waved his hand before him, fingers dancing through the air as if conducting an invisible orchestra. The wind responded, surging forth in a serpentine pattern, weaving among the tall grasses like a fluid river flowing through.
"I think this is safer; It feels safer this way," he mused as if sharing a secret with the wind itself. But then he shifted as if realizing he should reveal more.
"I... I have this new ability – I tend to project my emotions without meaning to on others, or pick up on others' emotions, so I don't really like being near others when I'm practicing. I can't focus on what I'm doing and keeping my mental shields up at the same time... I feel rather... exposed to having my emotions projected. It's kind of scary and new. It's not something I'm used to, so it's been a bit of a struggle to learn to just 'deal with it,' I guess. Maintaining my mental shields and focusing on my training simultaneously is... daunting."
A soft sigh escaped him, the winds carrying it away.
"I appreciate the solitude out here. Makes it easier for me to work through these... challenges. And, well, there's something oddly freeing about sharing all this with a stranger. Guess it's one of my quirks – more willing to lay it all out for someone unfamiliar rather than those I know well."
Braze shrugged. It was odd. He seemed much more willing to word vomit his unfiltered thoughts to people he didn't know, rather than those he was more acquainted with. Just one of his nervous habits.