With eyes wide open (a past rp)(complete)

[Garith Darkhold]

Funny thing was Yokuni was nobility. He did not know Arianna got clues of that and he did not know she was thinking she could not relax because she was nobility. It was just a silly notion to think one had to be stress out all the time because they were born of nobility. “Then someone should slap your parents. Not just for raising you to think you had to be stressed out all of the time but also for letting you believe that only Force User could learn to meditate”, here we go. If she starts to throw things it was going to get really awkward because he was currently in the shower.

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

It wasn't that she was mad at him, she was stressed, "Well my foster parents did the best they could with what they knew." Stress she thought what does he know about stress. She was making herself small sitting there. What was there to throw everything was thrown all over anyhow.

She wished someone could slap her parents, what right did they have getting killed and leaving her. Arianna shook her head, no she wasn't going to do this no she wasn't. "Why else would anyone else know they could meditate, what's it do??" Rianna didn't share that much with her about her jedi training so how would Arianna know about meditating.

Think about something else she told herself, don't lose yourself now.

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

She may not like it but he was laughing. “Maybe it could help you relax. That is what good it could do. What do you think I have nothing to stress about? Do you think the only responsible I have is to myself? That the only person my choices affect only myself? Maybe it is a good time we learn a little more about each other”, he turned off the shower and stepped out, grabbed a towel and started to dray off, “We’re going to have to rely on each other here Arianna. Right now nothing else matters that is happening off this planet. If you wish to get back to your life off of this planet then you need to focus and stop stressing about stuff that is not happening here and now with us. Right now your name is just Arianna. As for me it does not matter how many colorful names I have been known as. The only name that mater is the name Garith. Our sir names do not matter. It does not matter that we might be of someone of importance somewhere else. Right now the only thing that matter is your Arianna and I’m Garith. We either fight to survive or we die. We can’t go down to the corner store and by something to eat or cloth ourselves with. We’re now subjected to the law of nature and not the laws of men.”

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

Well I'd like a glass of cold water, and a beautiful green salad Her thoughts were her own, and yes she could hear it in his voice he was laughing at her. Which seemed to only fuel her rising emotions.

Only their first names matter, there were no titles she had never thought about the damn title, she had never even thought about the ease in which she could get a sandwich, or water, or a clean shirt for that matter. Right now she had nothing that was hers, heck the only thing on her right now that was hers was..........well use your imagination on that. She licked her lips. She knew he was right but she had no one to talk to for two days, no one to vent her own frustrations and fears to, She had to just do it.

She wanted no she needed something else she needed to be able to vent and yell It was the way she could relieve her stress. But she never showed her bad temper to anyone, only to the room and pillow that she had beaten into submission.

"Nature is not my friend and I don't know if you noticed but the laws of men wasn't helping me out earlier either" She sighed heavily, She was tight inside, tense, ready to spring the moment something didn't go right.

"I'm imagine you have some kind of plan" She thought she had one but maybe he had a better one.

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

“Yes I do have a plan”, he said and walked out with only a towel around his waist. “You may not know this but I can sense how you feel. Your anger and your frustration feeds the very Force I can tap. Your suffering can empower a man like me. Bottle up how you feel is not good for you and not good for our team. Yes we have been a team for days. In this team sport we ride together and we die together. So why don’t you cut the act and say your anger. Raise your voice if that will help you feel better so you can get your mind on what is important after you vent. Come on, you think I’m going to think less of you because you have feelings?”

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

She groaned inside it was so easy to forget he was a force user, and he wasn't not as he put it one of the good guys. She slowly pushed herself up, "I don't have anything on that's really mine except my under clothes, those rations are making my stomach hurt," she started to well up, but also sucked them back down, "AND I DON'T HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER ANY OF THIS!!!" She turned and slammed her hand into the wall it hurt, it did but it wasn't the first time she had done it, the skin was already cracked from before.

"I'M ANGRY ABOUT THIS" She heaved a great breath, "STUPID TITLES THIS IS WHAT IT GETS YOU!" That is what got her parents killed and why she tried so hard not to have a title to be a nobody, but she had not succeeded. She turned away, her face was red, she was breathing hard, "For once I'd like something just be simple, easy" She frowned, "I don't know if I am strong enough to get through this, I have no skills that apply to this...." She turned and looked at him, "I"m useless"

She had finally said everything she wanted, what her fears really were and how she felt about it.

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

“Yes there it is”, dramatically he motioned with his hands for her to bring it on as she spoke. “Bring it on”, he encouraged her to keep on speaking. There was the rub, she said what was bothering her. Now it was said there was an emotional release. Now that it was all out there, he could motivate her.

Anger could be a useful tool. Either she was going to give up or keep on fighting. “That’s right keep on telling yourself you’re useless. You have nothing and you’re worthless. It was crazy of me to have helped and I should have left you there. If I did, I would have not been cased, nearly killed, and I would not be marooned on a planet with you!”

“All of that is self defeating rancor bull dung. You apparently do not see what I see. Would you like to hear what that is?” He attempted to put a supportive hand upon her shoulder.

“Arianna”, he was smiling, “You’re strong. During this whole time you did not give in. During this whole crazy last few days you help me up when I needed the support. You were with me every step of the way. There is a fighter in you. As for titles, hell I have and had some. I have had dozens of them. I was born of nobility. I have command armies, fleets! I once lived as a king. I even once known as a Dark Lord long ago. Title in the end they’re just words. What truly matters are our actions. Own your actions. If you wish to be greater then whom you believe you are then take ownership and fight for what you want. Be who you inspire yourself to be but never give up, never surrender. Hold your head up high and fight.”

“As for not having anything other then your under cloths, you have far more then you know. You have yourself. You have me standing right here fighting with you. We have control of ourselves. We have control of the person we wish to be. We have control of our action wither they are good or bad.”

“Not to mentioned we’re marooned. This ship is our home for now. It is ours. Everything here is ours. That is until we get out of here. Does that sound fair?”

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

What he was doing was a little aggravating but that was probably just his way. Remember he's the bad guy, the bad guy that saved her life. She had a feeling he was winging how to deal with her.

"You're right look at all the trouble you could have saved yourself" she fired back at him, and then realized he had not finished talking. He was coming closer and put his hand on her shoulder she looked at him and listened. She knew how to listen. When he said her name she looked at him she would not dishonor him by not listening.

Yes she had done those things and had tried hard not to think on them as she did them, she laughed as she looked around, "Our house needs help." She put her hand on his arm, "Its fair, but I have warn you my frustrations will probably seep out again I usually" oh she would tell on herself, "melt down once a month for a few days" She felt drained she had been so tight over the last few days now once released was tired.

It was as much control as she had, just over herself, never circumstances. "thank I'll try to remember it all Garith." She hoped that she was stronger, she had to be.

"What do you want to do first besides dress?"

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

Being silly he rolled his eyes, “Being dressed is over rated”, he laughed.

“You’ve been working for a couple days while I sat on my rump. How about you relax for a while. If you like you can follow me around and chat if you wish. After I at least put a pair of pants on I will check out the engine and the important parts of the ship we hope is all in one piece.”

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

She shook her head. "Ok. I can follow you around maybe learn a new thing" She was tired she had been busy but now that she was better she could function. What would it be like to share this space with him ? It would be interesting for certain.

"So in your 900 plus years how many times you been marooned?" Might just as well see what his experience was.

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

Wow, did he just hear that right. He was walking backwards into the bedroom when she said that and he stopped dead in his tracks. He knew he did not say anything to her when he was conscious. Did he say something when he was asleep? “Wait what did you say”, he was wondering how much of the truth she knew, “did I say anything in my sleep?”

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

Well she just shook his world up. "Yes you did. Your age. Your first engagement. What happen to your family. And what you've been doing. And that your family name is Togashi. " She wasn't sure why he looked so rattled.

"So how many times?"

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

He blinked several times, this was a first time for everything. “Well ok, I might as well be honest. Before I do know this. It might be safe for you never mention my true history with anyone. I’ve lived a long life and that gave me more time to make more enemies and I do not know how many of then are still out there. My true name is Togashi Yokuni. I am a noble of Artisia and head of the noble clan of Togashi. I’ve held that rank within my noble home since I was of the age seventeen. I am nine hundred and eighty two years old. I am not even truly human. I am a Kashi. I was off world when the plague hit the galaxy. My people of Artisia closed the quarantined the entire planet off from the galaxy so it would be spared from the horrors of the plague so many other faced. I was the Admiral of the Imperial Task Force Fleet Vengeance and commanded the refurbished SSD Executer II. As part of tradition the vast might of Clan Togashi served in the fleet with me. We were cut off from Artisia and we had to relocate under some very heard times. We were welcomed on the planet of Shogun in Mando’ade space. My clan adopted the traditions of the Mando’a as well kept their Artisia traditions. We were welcomed and accepted into the culture. One day the planet of Artisia well stop the blockade and allow us to come home. Between then and now it has been hundreds of years and I have lived many life times. Any questions?”

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

Wow. She digested this information. "I won't tell anyone. " She scratched her head thinking she looked over. " so do I call you Yokuni or Garith? " she thought a little more.

"What's a kashi" she'd never heard if that. This was a lot. She made sure she looked at him. "I didn't hear how many times you've been marooned I did hear that you've faced many trials though. That had to require a lot of endurance." He was very complicated.

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

“You can call me either Garith or Yokuni. I have lived by both names. The name I was given at birth is Yokuni so if you feel more comfortable calling me by that name, it is fine. This is actually the first time I’ve been marooned. Though in the past I have found it very good sport to be dropped off on a hostile planet just to hunt ans survive and be picked up a month later. What is a Kashi. The Kashi are a race that is nearly dead. The original planet of my birth was destroyed long ago when the Jedi and Sith were in their infancy. They were one of the slave races to the Celestials. I do not have the connection like some of the old Kashi had in the past with the Force. Kashi tend to have a strong connection to nature. They are mostly exclusively attuned to the lighside of the Force. Me am the rare later and a are bread of the Kashi. I’m the rare darksider or rather I have the ability to use the darkside of the force as well as the lightside. To many have been fighting this war over what is evil or not when it comes to the Force and they forgot the most important thing. It is our actions that make us evil and not if we use emotion to use the Force or surround ourselves with serenity. Yes I’m capable of great feats of evil but I’m capable of doing good too.”

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

Arianna thought about it she was use to calling him Garith and to change now would feel odd. “I will still call you Garith.” She wasn’t sure about many things at this moment when it came to him and she felt sad still for him. Not sorry like pity, just sad that so much had been taken from him.

“Well Garith, I wish that you had not had to suffer so much losing so much as you have had in your life. I know that such things make people stronger having lost my own parents I understand.” She wanted to make sure he understood her for some reason it was becoming increasingly important that he understand her.

“But I am glad you brought me with you” She began to feel softer right now, not something that she often let anyone see in case it become a weapon against her. “I lost a home world once but was able to go back to it. The people there have high expectations of me, my family.” She half smiled now, “I don’t want to let them down.”

She was nervous now exposing herself like this. “So if this is your first time, its mine too guess we’ll muddle through it” She then realized, “someone will be looking for me by now but they will start on Corellia.” She blinked, “Garith…so show me how to fix the hull”

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

She felt sorry for something that happened such a long time ago. Yokuni had let go of those feelings a long time ago. It was pleasant to hear the sincerity within her voice though. “Thank you”, he honestly answered and it was all he gave as she continued to further explain what she wished to.

“Well I’m glade you’re here too”, he picked up the conversation when she was done speaking. “It would be quite lonely here without you”, he began to jest to lighten the mood. “Repair the hull now? We have not even checked the engine yet and did you wish me to do all of this in our towel”, he laughed hard because of how all of that sounded.

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

"Absolutely, haven't you figured it out yet I got no idea what comes first. What do we look for at the engine? " She wouldn't know what to do with an engine. She was schooled in many things not engineering.

"So you know engines , forging, and weapons?" She smiled and waited.

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

 

[Garith Darkhold]

During this time he was backing up into the bedroom. It seemed she had followed and may have not realized it. Was the conversation that interesting or was her eyes just distracted? “Things is no I’m not really adept at repairing engines but I can currently tell if something is broken. Maybe even be able to make light repairs. Lets just hope nothing is broken”, he was kind a wondering if he should take the towel off or wait to see what she was going to do. He stood there waiting...

[member="Arianna Darklighter"]

 

[Arianna Organa]

[member="Togashi Yokuni"]

She was following but not realizing she was following him in a towel. When she stood there waiting it suddenly dawned on her he needed to dress. She smiled cheeks turning red "I'll just go out here and wait. "

how embarrassing. Backing out. Turning and going out of sight. Damn. How ridiculous if me standing there like a school girl.