Jaxton Ravos
Mindwalker of the Outer Rim
@[member="Inigo Montoya"] @A’dele
OOC:I’ve got no problem continuing RPing in the past if y’all two would like to continue.
Then
Jaxton saw the padawan offer to give his shoulder to lean on, but politely refused. “My back is burned.” Jaxton said, telling the man that putting arm around his back wouldn’t help. “I caught the tail end of a missile launcher. Explosions aren’t that good for the skin it seems.” He said jokingly, almost as a defense mechanism. As he arrived at the Medbay he sat on a bed, almost collapsing but making sure not to land on his back. He had learned the hard way laying down was too painful to maintain. “So why the lack of emotion?” He asked the Zabrak woman, curious as to her beliefs.
Now
Jaxton was surprised he had gotten up as early as he did. After all the past two days he had binged on glitterstim, he felt like he had gone through two kilos. Hell, he was surprised he had gotten up at all. Still, he had a duty to do. Jaxton took a shower, downed a few cups of caf and got dressed, electing to wear a suit instead of traditional Jedi Robes. If the funeral was being broadcasted he couldn’t be seen as a Jedi. Electing to leave his lightsaber in his quarters Jaxton joined a transport full of Jedi and other established dignitaries on the way to the funeral. His transport didn’t get cleared for direct docking at the funeral, and he wasn’t going to trouble Master Wraith or Vondiranach about it. As he sat in the transport he gathered looks from all across the transport, first glances for his size, and then second glances by Jedi, trying to figure out if he was the man who had fought with the late Teferi.
“Are you the one who fought with the Grandmaster?” a Jedi youngling finally walked up and asked. The boy was no taller then Teferi was, and had a glimmer in his eyes, the glimmer of innocence. He hoped the boy couldn’t see the glitterstim presence in eyes over the contacts he wore to hide the fact.
“Yes.” Jaxton admitted. He could feel sadness and curiosity from the boy’s emotions, both through the Force and with his Zeltron telekinesis. “He fought valiantly, but was taken from us.” Jaxton said. There was silence for a moment, but it was soon broken as a young rodiese padawan girl came up to him.
“Why didn’t you save him?” The girl asked in a way that was not accusatory, but child-like and confused. Jaxton swelled up a bit then found the strength to answer.
“I tried, but I wasn’t fast enough . . . I wasn’t strong enough.” He said admittedly and reluctantly, images and memories of Junction resurfacing. He remembered the scorched buildings, the wrecked capitol in which he fought. He remembered the smell of burning flesh, the sizzle his body made when he was struck by Force Lightning. He remembered feeling the heavy aura of the darkside, blanketing the planet like a fog, only partially broken by the small instances of light around the planet. But most of all, he remembered the feeling of a beacon of light in the Force being extinguished as if it were a candle in the wind, and Jaxton being unable to stop it.
Then came another youngling, this and older Chevin, perhaps even a padawan. He came and stared at Jaxton. “So it’s your fault he’s dead.” The young Chevin said accusatorily. Jaxton didn’t need to be a Jedi or a Zeltron to feel the sadness and anger in his voice. He wondered if the boy’s anger was at him or merely at the loss. In the end Jaxton thought it didn’t matter. He was mad, and that was it.
Jaxton rose his head, finally looking directly at someone for the first time in the flight. The boy’s eyes spoke anger, sorrow, loss. A tear fell down Jaxton’s face as he looked at the Chevin. “Yes.” He answered not putting up any denial, reasons or excuses. The Chevin seemed satisfied, or perhaps disheartened by Jaxton’s words. All of the other’s in the transport were quiet the rest of the ride. He could feel the mixed feelings of the passengers in the Force. Some felt anger at him, some felt sorry for him, and all felt sadness. All in all, it was a terrible environment for a Zeltron. Their emotions fed into him, only magnifying Jaxton’s guilt.
The transport landed, and Jaxton went to his zone, was scanned and authorized, then went to his waiting zone. He was supposed to speak a few words about the Grandmaster’s valiance and death at Junction. He wasn’t sure if he could do it, give justice to the man who had served the Jedi for the past five centuries. But he decided he would try, and give the best speech he could.
OOC:I’ve got no problem continuing RPing in the past if y’all two would like to continue.
Then
Jaxton saw the padawan offer to give his shoulder to lean on, but politely refused. “My back is burned.” Jaxton said, telling the man that putting arm around his back wouldn’t help. “I caught the tail end of a missile launcher. Explosions aren’t that good for the skin it seems.” He said jokingly, almost as a defense mechanism. As he arrived at the Medbay he sat on a bed, almost collapsing but making sure not to land on his back. He had learned the hard way laying down was too painful to maintain. “So why the lack of emotion?” He asked the Zabrak woman, curious as to her beliefs.
Now
Jaxton was surprised he had gotten up as early as he did. After all the past two days he had binged on glitterstim, he felt like he had gone through two kilos. Hell, he was surprised he had gotten up at all. Still, he had a duty to do. Jaxton took a shower, downed a few cups of caf and got dressed, electing to wear a suit instead of traditional Jedi Robes. If the funeral was being broadcasted he couldn’t be seen as a Jedi. Electing to leave his lightsaber in his quarters Jaxton joined a transport full of Jedi and other established dignitaries on the way to the funeral. His transport didn’t get cleared for direct docking at the funeral, and he wasn’t going to trouble Master Wraith or Vondiranach about it. As he sat in the transport he gathered looks from all across the transport, first glances for his size, and then second glances by Jedi, trying to figure out if he was the man who had fought with the late Teferi.
“Are you the one who fought with the Grandmaster?” a Jedi youngling finally walked up and asked. The boy was no taller then Teferi was, and had a glimmer in his eyes, the glimmer of innocence. He hoped the boy couldn’t see the glitterstim presence in eyes over the contacts he wore to hide the fact.
“Yes.” Jaxton admitted. He could feel sadness and curiosity from the boy’s emotions, both through the Force and with his Zeltron telekinesis. “He fought valiantly, but was taken from us.” Jaxton said. There was silence for a moment, but it was soon broken as a young rodiese padawan girl came up to him.
“Why didn’t you save him?” The girl asked in a way that was not accusatory, but child-like and confused. Jaxton swelled up a bit then found the strength to answer.
“I tried, but I wasn’t fast enough . . . I wasn’t strong enough.” He said admittedly and reluctantly, images and memories of Junction resurfacing. He remembered the scorched buildings, the wrecked capitol in which he fought. He remembered the smell of burning flesh, the sizzle his body made when he was struck by Force Lightning. He remembered feeling the heavy aura of the darkside, blanketing the planet like a fog, only partially broken by the small instances of light around the planet. But most of all, he remembered the feeling of a beacon of light in the Force being extinguished as if it were a candle in the wind, and Jaxton being unable to stop it.
Then came another youngling, this and older Chevin, perhaps even a padawan. He came and stared at Jaxton. “So it’s your fault he’s dead.” The young Chevin said accusatorily. Jaxton didn’t need to be a Jedi or a Zeltron to feel the sadness and anger in his voice. He wondered if the boy’s anger was at him or merely at the loss. In the end Jaxton thought it didn’t matter. He was mad, and that was it.
Jaxton rose his head, finally looking directly at someone for the first time in the flight. The boy’s eyes spoke anger, sorrow, loss. A tear fell down Jaxton’s face as he looked at the Chevin. “Yes.” He answered not putting up any denial, reasons or excuses. The Chevin seemed satisfied, or perhaps disheartened by Jaxton’s words. All of the other’s in the transport were quiet the rest of the ride. He could feel the mixed feelings of the passengers in the Force. Some felt anger at him, some felt sorry for him, and all felt sadness. All in all, it was a terrible environment for a Zeltron. Their emotions fed into him, only magnifying Jaxton’s guilt.
The transport landed, and Jaxton went to his zone, was scanned and authorized, then went to his waiting zone. He was supposed to speak a few words about the Grandmaster’s valiance and death at Junction. He wasn’t sure if he could do it, give justice to the man who had served the Jedi for the past five centuries. But he decided he would try, and give the best speech he could.