Ziare Dyarron | Keilara Kala'myr | Mercy | Freedom
Mongrel's Shadow and his widow; Matriarch of the Scar Hounds Tribe; Guardian of Mongrel's armour and sword
Objective: Try to contact Manifold and ask his help.
Location: Ancient ruins, Selvaris
Equipment:
FS-18-UP2 Assault Rifle | 2x
Sunfury Pistol |
Light Armour |
Viper Mk. I Skinsuit | 2x
Vibrodagger | 2x
Riftblades |
Promise of Freedom ||
Cloaking Device | 5x
ASBF Probe Droid ||
OPBC-01m
Writing With:
The Manifold
(and as Kallan) | Closed
[ Come back… ]
"Galactic Basic" | ~ Telepathic communication ~ | << comm. channel >>
~ Mercy ~
I didn't know what to expect, because he was a machine. For a machine, there were no feelings, only logic. Although I think this decision was logical, I don't know how he or Freedom would have decided. That's all I had. I couldn't have offered him anything else. I didn't have much power, I wasn't a Sith, I wasn't a Jedi. Only a telepath and an empath who could best use his powers on Asher. On him to protect him. I could defend myself and others very well, and I was able to attack somewhat crudely, but offence was not my forte. It was on instinct that I attacked Tu'teggacha on Exegol before the twins were born.
I was able to change the mind palace the way I wanted, my mental shields were strong, I was able to draw others here, protect them. Or killing dozens of people with a telepathic scream. And of course I could read other people's minds, but I never mastered learning to control them. It wasn't necessary. I never manipulated Asher. If I had, he might would be still alive. It was my fault too. But the Maw hurt him so much and so much time that I didn't want to cause any pain to him, I didn't want to hurt him, just protect him. I could have easily done it at any time, for power or whatever.
But I never did, I never even looked into his memories. Only to what he allowed. I didn't research it. Yes, I've regretted not manipulating him and Barran on Tython countless times. That I didn't do everything to make them both give up the fight. I wouldn't have expected her to understand, I would have hated myself for the rest of my life for doing this to her. But he might would be still alive. It would have been worth the price. I felt hot tears running down my face again. Then maybe it would have hurt less.
And finally Manifold spoke. I was relieved when he accepted the offer. That means I can go find Asher in the Netherworld soon.
<< Thank you, Manifold! >> I told him honestly.
<< You will receive the coordinates soon. Not now, I still have a few things to do and soon according to intelligence reports there will be a major attack on the Maw. Then we'll strike. Then I will contact you again with the same beacon. I don't have another one, Freedom helped me build it, so when you get the signal again, you will know it will be me who is looking for you. You come to me first that day, then we go there together. And from there to the Netherworld, where you also get Freedom. >>
However, there was one more thing I had to ask before it all started. I didn't want to go there unprepared, to jump into this.
<< Do you need anything from me for the mission? A weapon, some equipment, anything? >> I asked him again, since next time we will only talk when we go, and then we won't be able to plan. Just now.
~ Keilara ~
I loved when he smiled; he seemed much younger then, a bit naughty. It's like he's a completely different person, carefree and happy. It gave me the most joy to see his sincere and carefree smile. After all, what else could I have wished for? Despite this, his fear, fright and despairing look were also there in my mind's eye, from the memory of me dying. Tython was painful for everyone, infinitely painful. But I tried to get lost in his smile, which wasn't difficult. After all, I loved him with all my heart and soul. Everything seemed so easy next to him, even the most difficult things.
I smiled at him too, but even though Kallan was smiling and his words were optimistic, I could feel the darkness and dark thoughts. This also caused me pain, though I didn't want to show it. I just wanted her to smile. After his words, I reached up to his face and stroked it kindly.
~ I don't like it when darkness surrounds you and affects you so much. You just have to hold on a little longer ~ I asked him.
~ Why do I think you would want to do to him what he did to you? Or do you just want to kill him? ~
I don't know if this fear of mine was true or not, but I was afraid and worried that he might think such a thing. Even now I didn't look into his thoughts, I respected his privacy, despite the fact that we were already one. We were able to be ourselves, we became stronger and that was okay.
~ I know how much you suffered, that he took everything from you and that you still don't remember a lot of things and maybe you never will. I have no right to ask you to try to forgive him because you got so much else. Me, our children… ~ my voice stopped for a moment.
~ But if you let the hate get the better of you, he wins. Don't seek revenge, leave that to Mercy. Don't become what he wanted to mould you into. You don't have to become Asher, he and Mercy are our worst sides, they were born from hate, anger and fear. The Jedi weapon is compassion, not revenge. We don’t need revenge to defeat him. ~
I stood on tiptoe and now I gave him a kiss on the forehead.
~ Fight the darkness a little longer, it will soon be over and he can no longer harm you, or me, or Mercy, or Asher, or Abi, or little Asher. I won't leave you alone, never! ~ I whispered and laced my fingers between his.