It was not often that Rave Merrill looked at an object of historical value and obvious power and found herself repulsed. Found herself sayig I have no desire to possess this, no matter what its utility. Perhaps it stemmed from the mistuned Mindharp's ability to overcome her mental defenses, which were ranked fairly high -- like most in this day and age, it seemed. Perhaps it stemmed from her inability to categorize the Mindharp's letheic effect as technological, Force-based, both, or neither. On balance, she was prepared to assume that it was a technology which affected the Force at a deep level. That should have fascinated her, much like Thaissen crystals' admittedly low-level ability to convert the Force into radiation, and she could think of a dozen ways to use this effect on a variety of scales-
She still wanted nothing to do with it. But money was money, reputation was reputation, and she'd already taken the job.
There were standard protocols, things she'd drilled into her collection teams, items she'd prepared for situations like this. They might help, they might make things worse. A hardshell case disgorged crystalline assemblies, which she placed around the perimeter of the room. The effect began to dim. A reminder, if she needed it, that Voracitos' command of the Force had been exemplary. With a grimace, she began to approach the Mindharp once more. No alchemist got far without the ability to analyze, and she braced herself to put her mind in contact with the Harp. That was what she'd always done-
Like staggering back from a cliff edge, she recoiled before she could make full contact. That was one way to get a fresh start, should she desire it.
The Jedi called desire ugly, and now she tasted a portion of that. She was, at heart, a Merrill -- she had to know, had to fly into the teeth of the storm to see what was inside. And that desire was despicable, right here and now. Antithetical to the principles that kept her alive and successful. Even here, at the edge of her knowledge and maybe beyond it, she couldn't stop moving forward.
To do otherwise would be to walk away, to admit defeat, to refund the commission, to give up the possibilities. None of those outcomes were acceptable. But to risk the complete erasure of her memory and even her genius, like the Sharu-
"Hell with it."
Her voice rose in a grim chant and she drove her mind into the Harp.
I don't want you, I don't want to break you, but I will understand you.