Spare Time? What's That?

[Kay-Larr]

Kay gave [member="Joshua DragonsFlame"] a playful nudge as he teased her. "It's only been a few years. And I know....it feels like -forever-." She picked up a piece of driftwood and began to doodle with it in the sand. "Tracking down slavers? It's been a while since I've done that. My adopted family have been keeping me busy with other things. I think that it caused too much trouble."

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

"I haven't had the chance in awhile. With Shmi out somewhere, I've had to handle affairs for the Defense Force" He would remark, casually kicking a stone and letting out a sigh. "Paperwork just isn't my thing. I couldn't be a politician, I don't know how you do it" Josh would admit, with a shake of his head. "Well, I mean I know HOW. You sit there, and you listen to idiots drone on about things that don't actually get fixed, and then they spin it to where it benefits them to try and seize power. And they're ALWAYS trying to stab you in the back and take your position if you're higher then them at all."

"Did I get it right?" He inquired with a cheeky smirk. "My father was a politician."

[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay just smirked right back at him. In a way he was right, but it just wasn't her own personal experience. "You get some people to bend over backwards for you, as though you are royalty sometimes. You should have seen what the First Order gave me when they came to work out a trade deal and construction of their Embassy. Jewels, expensive materials, wine, all in a trunk. But I'm not royalty. My position can easily be taken away of which I'm glad about. Otherwise I'm sure that I'd have a long line of suitors wanting to marry into power."

She laughed a little as she thought of one Knight of Ren that invited her and her Ministers to a First Order ball. It wasn't until later that she discovered that he had assumed it was a date. But the guy was 15 years her junior. And a Knight of Ren to boot. Her secrets were still secret. She didn't want anyone in the First Order to know about them.

[member="Joshua DragonsFlame"]

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

"So... Kiss asses, even from the Sith? Geez, either you're really important or people are just really desperate" The blonde would joke, shooting her a cheeky grin in turn. "But I'm sure when you're ready to settle down, you'll pick someone who you want to be with for the rest of your life, not something that benefits business. But you know the score by now, right?"

He hadn't meant to bring up her husband like that, of course. He was just a practical guy sometimes, and Kay did indeed have experience in actually marrying for love instead of gain. That was what he was trying to get at, but well... Things got skewed sometimes. Josh wasn't the best at this sort of thing. Jedi usually weren't.

"So. Seen anyone good lately?" He would tease with a cheeky smirk.

[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay smirked. More than likely people were desperate. Afterall, she didn't see herself as very important. Yet she couldn't give the gifts away. More than likely she would have to wear them when the First Order came to open up their Embassy.

To [member="Joshua DragonsFlame"] 's remark on why she would settle down, she merely nodded. Yes, she knew the score and what the dangers were. But she couldn't keep that from holding her back anymore. She had to respect other people's choices in regards to herself.

To Josh's question on if she'd seen anyone lately, she smirked and gave him a playful shove. "No. It's only the playboys that try to get anywhere with me. But I've turned them all down. Thankfully they give up right away, and that just proves to me that they weren't wanting to get to know me at all." Oh but she was starting to get feelings for her Jedi bodyguard and advisor [member="Veiere Arenais"] . Whether or not he felt the same way, she wasn't quite sure just yet. The Jedi kept his emotions hidden quite well.

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

"Sounds about right. Sounds typical from the Sith too" The Jedi would remark with a casual shrug. "Always want to get to the business and the nitty gritty, and never just want to hang around and cuddle" Josh would joke, letting out a laugh. Well, he knew this one from experience, after all. Shh, shh,

"Are you suuure?" The blonde would tease though when she said she wasn't seeing anyone. There was something in her voice, he could almost swear he picked up on... There was more to it then what she was saying, wasn't there?

[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay smirked. Perhaps it was typical. All of them were Sith too. It was funny how that seemed to work out. Maybe opposites really do attract? But she didn't feel the same way, despite the fact that her late husband was a Dark Jedi. Still, she just couldn't find it in herself to take advantage of people and be selfish. It just wasn't her way.

And then [member="Joshua DragonsFlame"] was teasing her, trying to push her into revealing something that she wasn't even quite sure was true yet. So of course Kay pushed back. "Yes, I'm sure. And besides, who would want to go into a relationship and have to be followed around by bodyguards all the time? Most won't."

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

"What bodyguards?"

A grin crossed his lips as he motioned around them. It was true, though, they had lost her bodyguard quite some time ago, and he hadn't returned. Josh still figured something was fishy about the fact they hadn't been found yet, especially if this wasn't the first time that Lady Kay had come here. But for the time being, at least, they had certainly lost her bodyguard quite easily. It wouldn't be hard to do it again, most likely.

"I don't see a bodyguard around here" He joked with a light chuckle. "Sounds like your situation is covered and well in hand."


[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay smirked again. [member="Joshua DragonsFlame"] was right. She did seem to ditch her bodyguard. But more than likely, he had done a background check on Josh and wasn't worried. The same couldn't be said about others though. She shrugged her shoulders a bit. "Well...there's no reason for one of them to be here right now, is there? No plans on taking me hostage or trying to kill me?" Of course there wouldn't be, so she just gave him a goofy look in question.

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

"I don't know, maybe I could be taking you hostage?" He would remark, shooting her a devious grin. "Maybe I intend to kidnap you, and subject you to unforgivable tortures?" He would crack as he raised his hands. "Such as... Tickling?"

The blonde would jokingly wiggle his fingers, with a laugh. "Maybe I've already kidnapped you and it's too late to get away now?"

He was kidding, of course. What did he stand to gain from kidnapping and keeping her hostage anyway? He couldn't think of anything. In the end though, Josh was just being a big goof as usual.

[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay feigned a look of fear, placing the back of her hand on her forehead. "Oh no! Not tickles! The horror! I shall die!" Of laughter maybe.

She smirked to [member="Joshua DragonsFlame"] and lowered her hand. "I don't think that you have it in you to kidnap people. Bad things happen when you do bad things." She knew from experience.

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

A laugh escaped him from response as he would wiggle his fingers a little more. "Yeeesss.... The Force Tickles, Kay! The Force Tickles will spell your dooom!"

But his laughter would be cut off by her next comment. He let out a mocking gasp and placed a hand on his chest. "Ah! Kay! You wound me! Me? Do bad things? Preposterous!" He would joke, trying so far to hold in his laughter. "Now what bad things have I done? Hmm?"

[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay just couldn't help but laugh from his antics. It felt really good to laugh and relax. Maybe she should watch comedic holo-movies if ever she gets the time. It could help take the stress off.

"You dared to threaten to.....kill a politician....with tickles. That could mean another ride through the canyon on my speederbike of fright!"

[member="Joshua DragonsFlame"]

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

"Oh right, that. Well uh... It was going to be an easy death Force Tickle, I swear! It wouldn't have hurt! Much!" He would remark in mock defensiveness as he would hold his hands up. Geez, these two should -star- in a comedy at this point.

"Besides, a good tickling never hurt anybody!"

[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Yes, the two could star in a comedy. Perhaps they would put on an improv show of theatre sports games at the University. But Kay had never been on stage for that kind of thing before. Her purposes for being on stage was always for speeches. She wondered if [member="Joshua DragonsFlame"] had ever done any acting on stage.

She stuck out her tongue as he said that tickling never hurt anybody. "No? But it sure can cause someone to lose their bladder control."

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

He'd done a bit, actually. Not much, but during his stint away from the Jedi for a good year, he had busied himself with a number of missions on his own, and one of them involved being in disguise and going undercover. It'd been a ... Strange case, but it was kind of fun, actually! He'd have to try it again if Kay ever wanted to do it for funzies.

"Hah, President Kay pissing herself. That'll be the day" The Jedi would crack with a laugh in turn. "I mean, there's worse tortures... Like marrying one of those Sith suitors of yours."

[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay smirked at [member="Joshua DragonsFlame"] while he didn't believe her when she told him what too much tickling could do. She folded her arms across her chest, and laughed mockingly to his next comment. "Sith suitors? Ha! They aren't suitors if I don't allow them to touch me." She then stuck her tongue out at him.

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

"Well, alright. Attempted Sith suitors" He would correct with a laugh in turn. "I'll remember that" The blonde would joke as he would move a bit of golden blonde hair from his face, staring out at the horizon for a moment, and frowning, seeming lost in thought for the moment.

"Have you ever thought of just... Running away, one day? Trying to live a normal life?" He spoke quietly, just... Staring out at the view.

[member="Lady Kay"]

 

[Kay-Larr]

Kay stopped laughing after [member="Joshua DragonsFlame"] grew serious. His question was one that she had heard a number of times. Everyone goes through that kind of thinking every once in a while. When Veiere asked her, she half wondered if he was enquiring so that he could do better at keeping her safe. If she had lived a normal life, then maybe trouble wouldn't of find her so easily.

"I did that. Sort of. After my husband was killed, I ran. I ran and hopped from ship to ship, planet to planet, trying not to leave an easy trail to follow. And then I lived by myself outside of a small village on Bakura. I remained there alone for almost five years before I was drawn out. And then politics found me once again. So I lived a normal life...but it wasn't what I was meant for."

 

[Josh Dragovalor]

"I sort of did, myself. Sort of, anyway..." He would admit, biting his lip and just closing his eyes. "It was less running away though, and more just... Trying to recover. How does one live their entire life in service to something... To a group of people... And then during the happiest period of your life... They just turn their backs on you, and take it all away because they wanted power for themselves? How does one recover from that? I... I don't know if I ever will, I'll admit..." He spoke with a light sigh.

"I never did. All I could do was... Go away for awhile. Try to live normally. But I couldn't. I couldn't stay away. And so here I am... In servitude again. To the same people who include folks who turned on me the moment it was convenient for them. It's one of the reasons I primarily work alone. But.... The temptation is still there, to just.... You know, someday... Run away from it all. Just take Shmi and run. Get away from all of this. Settle down, start a family... Reclaim the life that was taken away from me when I was just a child."

Josh shook his head. "But I know no matter what... I'll always go back, Kay. It's just...

It's just who I am now..."

Josh opened his eyes and just stared at the sights for a little while.

"But... Is this really what I'm destined to do? To serve, until they turn on me again? And then... Just take it? Pretend it never happened and look them in the eyes and pretend that these people didn't lie to me? Didn't stand in front of me and call me unfit for my position, when I had done nothing wrong and had only just gotten started? To see everything I had lived through, everything I had built, everything I had experienced... Just crumble around me because people were selfish?"

He buried his chin in his palms.

"I... Never quite got over it. I try to be upbeat on the outside, but inside, that memory still torments me. It's a cruel reminder that at any moment... Whether it's the Republic, the Silvers, or some other Order... They won't hesitate to throw me under the bus if it benefits them. It's a cruel reminder that it can just so easily happen again... Just so long as it lines up with their agenda. It's a cruel reminder that in many cases... Some Jedi can be just as cruel, just as conniving and ambitious... Just as evil as the Sith. And deep down... It disgusts me. Deep down... Part of me wants to hunt down the people who did this to me, and... I... I don't know what I'd do if that day came. Would I kill them? Would I go on some long-winded speech about being a proper Jedi? Would I take the Force away from them because they are not truly Jedi? I.... I don't know what I'd do if faced with my demons.

I... I don't know if I want to."

He moved a bit of hair from his face.

"I wish things were as fun, and black and white as they used to be. When I was just... You know, a Jedi. And I was happy just being that. But now, what is a Jedi now? It used to be so simple... And I couldn't see myself doing anything else, ever. I wanted to serve the Jedi forever, it was my life... I loved it more then even my life itself.

And yet now... All that part of me wants to do is run. The fun is over. Now I do it because I feel obligated to... Like if I don't... Then the Jedi will just be represented by... Well...

Those..."

He sighed again.

"And sometimes I almost do it. Sometimes... I almost run. But I always come back... I can never escape.

I never will..."

[member="Lady Kay"]