IT'S ALWAYS DARKEST BEFORE THE DAWN...
Location: Ossus Temple
Equipment: Conservator and Vanguard 2.0 (Lightsabers)
Comm-link, Rebreather, Custom Robes
Starship: Starlight Sentinel, (Dilorian in cargo bay)
Companion: Astromech R01R - "Roller", Pilot droid Mu51c - "Music"
Desbre Gensan, Milya Vondar (both unless specified)
Tag:
Grundark
Darth Empyrean
Cato Demora
Alina Tremiru
Irina Volkov
Melydia Gold
Tegan Starfall
Vexander Graves
Mathieu Brion
Vulpesen
Taiia Locke
Caedyn Arenais
Romi Jade
Starlin Rand
Maja Fiore Nathaniel Wellchoestor
This conversation suddenly reminded him of another day, one not all that long ago, relatively speaking, and a callback to an older conversation he once had with the same individual. It was annoying as the Bendu had an acute way of getting under his skin without meaning to or even trying to, but he was something to behold when it came to simply converse.
Atollon was a planet that Caltin had not expected to come back to, not for a long time. Yet more and more, with what he sees in the galaxy, he needed to speak to someone that he
could speak to, one who “got it.” So he was here, on this planet again, to speak to the one being in the galaxy that could judge him, and in his eyes, be allowed to. It’s not that Caltin had thin skin, maybe he did to an extent in some cases, but he took his choices and his lot in life seriously, others did not seem to get that.
He could sense the presence of the being easy enough, there was no mistaking it. Caltin was no that far away from the Bendu.
An ancient being, Bendu claimed to represent the center of the Force, standing between the Ashla and Bogan, or “The Light Side” and “The Dark Side”. Caltin was by no means the first Jedi or Sith, or even sentient to meet the being, Jedi Knight Kanan Jarrus once met him while meditating after losing his sight. He told Caltin about this, the Bendu did and led him on a bit of a wild mynock chase. He told Kanan the same thing that he told Caltin, that “imbalance” woke him up.
The massive Jedi Master normally would have been on the defensive on the comment, but something about what he said, put him at ease in the fact that it made sense. The big guy knew at the time that he was touched by the Dark Side and that while he felt he could control it, there was a problem that he felt inside. The problem is that at the time he felt nothing, nothing at all, he could not feel anger, happiness, pain, anything. The Bendu told him that it was the Force fixing his imbalance. The Force was changing him into something different altogether.
That day was vivid in his mind as they conversed about why he was imbalanced and the Bendu’s view on it.
After conversing, the Bendu told him how he stood and where his position was. It was then that Caltin put it together that he was much the same way, no he did not compare himself to the Bendu, nor did he consider himself “gray”. The outlook he gained was that
both sides have it wrong. There is no “Ashla” or “Bogan”, there is only the Force, period. The Force is a gift, not a tool, not a curse, it is something to be celebrated, not feared, or weaponized.
Caltin was forever changed after that, not looking on the Jedi as well as the Sith as anything more than people. It was the choices that were made not the “side” that made a being who they were. This was always the case, but more so to this point.
“Hello, old friend!” The voice as booming and full of wisdom as ever, Caltin could hear in his mind before he had even seen the being. That was still something weird to experience on this end as it was always he who had done that to Padawans. It wasn’t so much unnerving but just went to show that if you are open to it, the Force and its possibilities are indeed limitless.
I thought that I would find you here.
“Where else would I go? Glad to see that you were finally found.” He said happily, almost flippantly.
Wait? You knew where I was all that time? Why did you not contact someone?
The Bendu smiled. “I know that it had not been that long for you, but it was still over 800 years. The planet you were on was covered in ice, and I sensed you. However it was also the residence of many different beings and almost none of them would have been happy to find you… or maybe they would have in a bad way… it does not matter now, does it?” As aloof as ever, the Bendu just smiled. “It
is good to see you though. What brings you here?”
You as well. I came here because I wanted to let you know that I finally understand what you told me, all those years ago and I want to thank you.
“Thank me?” He asked sounding rather confused. “Did I do anything?”
Caltin just nodded.
I lost my way when I came to you. I did not know what I was doing anymore and it felt like I had absolutely no purpose. In your own way, you showed me that I had the same one as always, but I needed to learn exactly what it was. Only recently did I see exactly why I learned to feel the way that I do. That what I do is about me, and who I am, not what I feel that I need to do. For that, I thank you.
The Bendu just smiled. “You did that yourself, so you should thank yourself.”
He half expected what the Cragmoloid would say, it was after all the natural justification, but Caltin was not talking about that at all. He had met many "darksiders" during his time, was actually friendly with some of them. This was even to the point of, well, we won't go into detail about where I was going out of respect, but anyway, "Sith", "Jedi", were choices and labels to him at this point. and in a way, they always were. The "not as big as THAT guy" big guy... man that is cracking me up...
Focus, Nerf Herder!
You know, I could still make you say what I want you to...
Oh be the best ever person on the planet and one I... HEY!
Oh, that was funny... anyway, Caltin shook his head.
Not what I was saying. There will always be two sides to every proverbial coin. That is the nature of evolution, evolution is conflict. The fact is, all sides have it wrong, the Force is not something to be feared, it is not a tool or a weapon, and it is delusional to think about "balance" as it is not and never will be. The Force is a gift to be celebrated.
What I am saying is that there is no honor in what I am sensing here, and that is what bothers me. You and I are locked in a duel of honor, that will not change things. I simply do not see this as something a being such as yourself would involve themself in. I have known Sith Purebloods and those trained by them. I have known their passions to be little more than "honor" and integrity. They would be repulsed by this. I am not trying to change you, or "turn you to the light". I'm just surprised that you are not like that is all.
With a shrug, he shook his head at the query that the enormous elephantine sentient asked. Truth is, Caltin didn't care how or where anyone got out to, this "attack" was something that was low and dirty, not that battles were meant to be clean. It was clear that this "herder" completely bought into whoever was leading this group of Sith and their methods. A shame really, but what can you do? Simple, you can fight. As the huge Sith attacked with a swing meant to separate his head from his neck, Caltin ducked again at the last moment and after Grundark missed, he would leap straight up, and his free hand leading the way would
hopefully land a hard punch to the face. Chanting the Guardian's mantra...
I am a Guardian of the Force.
Oh yes, it was going to hurt and Caltin was prepared for it, however, he was not delusional and knew that, at best, he would walk away from this really sore.
The Force is with me, And I am one with the Force,
He did not flip or twist his body, but the momentum gave more distance, allowing
him to close it. Leaping at the much larger target, Caltin's permafrost blade finally in the air, his intention was an overhead strike.
And I fear nothing Because all is as the Force wills it.
... YET THE DAWN ALWAYS COMES.