Ziare Dyarron | Keilara Kala'myr | Mercy | Freedom | Anonymous
Mongrel's Shadow and his widow; Matriarch of the Scar Hounds Tribe; Guardian of Mongrel's armour and sword
Objective: Help the Maw forces with intelligence information | Continue to rebuild the mental defences and the mind palace.
Location: Capital City, Empress Teta
Equipment:
FS-18-UP2 Assault Rifle | 2x
Sunfury Pistol |
Light Armour |
Viper Mk. I Skinsuit | 2x
Vibrodagger | 2x
Riftblades |
Promise of Freedom ||
Cloaking Device | 5x
ASBF Probe Droid ||
OPBC-01m
Special tags:
The Manifold
(as Kallan) ? |
Thomas Barran
[ Come back… ]
"Galactic Basic" | ~ Telepathic communication ~ | << comm. channel >>
~ Mercy ~
I don’t think it helped me and, in my mood, much that the command tent was in exactly that place. At the place where I sat down after my latest task here and looked at the city. I watched the road and waited for him to come after he said yes to my offer. As he finally showed up and approached me. In reality, he couldn’t smile, but at home, in our connected minds, he smiled at me as he approached. My hands clenched into fists from the pain caused by the memories. It hurt, I was desperate, lost and alone.
They say time will solve and heal everything. However, there are wounds that never heal, no matter how long we wait. Mine will be similar. They can only be healed if I get the other half of my soul back. If I'm there with him in the afterlife. Forever. Even Kallan agreed with me on this question, which was surprising.
I tried to pay attention to the data to work on them. But I failed. In just a few moments, I was paying attention to other things. Every moment he came to my mind. My husband. If he had listened to me and run away after the first battle here, all four of us would have been happy. True, the kids wouldn’t be a "problem" yet, but if everything had happened the way it was in that life, they would have happened within a few years. And then Kallan and Keilara could live separately. Not like this, not like currently.
Everyone would be happier and I wouldn’t have to worry that… doesn’t matter.
I had to agree with Kallan that Asher would probably be very sad if he saw me that way. But he knew what would happen if he left me, if he died. He knew I had told him the truth. That I will never be happy, that I will seek death, and of course that I will try to kill everyone who has anything to do with what happened to him. I felt warmth on my hand. More tears. I slapped the table angrily. I wanted to sob, but I couldn't let this afford to myself.
I saw everyone turning away rather than watching me in the weak moments. Right, at least they knew I would have killed them, as Asher did, so as not to come to light his or my weakness. Around Barran, a Jedi appeared… oh! She was Asher's opponent here last time. And the next moment, a surprising thing happened that made me unable to send a message to Thomas.
"If I think well, are you Agent Dyarron?" a man's voice came from behind me.
~ Keilara ~
Finally, I pressed the doorknob and opened the door. Outside, I was really greeted by conditions like I expected. Cold. I left the house and closed the door behind me. I reached into the snow, it was cold and wet. I smiled involuntarily; with a wide grin. I don’t know why, but I really liked it. I had to suppress the urge to run back to Kallan. I don't know if he would like it. But unfortunately, my duties were ahead.
I couldn’t remember if I had ever seen snow or just remembered it from the memories of Ziare or Mercy. Or from Freedom's memories. Freedom must have seen it, but I'm not so sure about the others. Oh! But, even on Tython, when Asher died, it was already snowing in the end. True, none of us sensed too much of it. I got worse for a moment. I wish it hadn’t had a big impact on me, but it had an impact.
Like everything Mercy did or felt. I couldn’t completely separate myself from her yet, as she had done before, before Tython. I know it couldn’t be rushed, and also that it’s going to get better every day. But at least here in my mind I was able to move quite easily. It was a moment to get from one place to another. It hasn't been this easy before. I think if the mind palace recovers, I will still be able to leave this protected area and can visit the entire mind, as will Kallan.
Although it was the most beautiful and best part of our common mind. Only the "walls" at the edges were now full of holes, rifts through which an attack could enter this area. Kallan and I are working to fix these. These injuries occurred when Mercy suffered multiple strokes when Asher was injured and died.
I sighed; we always arrive back to him. I shook my head, and the next moment I was at the part where the biggest gap was in the "wall." Even here I could feel the cold and winter weather. I was hoping we wouldn’t stay on the Empress Teta much, apparently this place wasn’t good for Mercy. And now she would have needed peace because of the children.
And she would need peace of mind for a full recovery as well…