You Got Something I Need II (Coryth)

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]

How did Siobhan feel about potentially being Force bonded again? On the one hand she valued her privacy as much as any human being. On the other, well, she craved closeness very strongly. Perhaps she was biased, but she felt like being linked to Mirien had done her a lot of good. Since then she felt calmer and more accepting of who she was. The absolute certainty that she could trust and depend on Mirien had obviously helped as well.


But there was still the nagging feeling that Coryth would look upon her differently if she saw her for what she truly was. Never mind the immense alignment conflict between them, something the two of them had somehow always been able to look past. Finally, on a practical level, such attachments were dangerous, especially bonds between powerful force-users. And how would Tegaea take it? There was a part of Siobhan that felt she was being unfaithful and that her wife would have every reason to leave her. After all, she was not supposed to have other emotional entanglements, though she had already crossed that line with Mirien.


But she did not say any of this. Coryth trusted her. "Ok. My beautiful, brave, kind Coryth," she said softly as she deepened the kiss, craving the closeness between them. "You're far more amazing and a greater Jedi than you give yourself credit for. You make me actually believe there's some value in their beliefs." Siobhan kicked off her slippers as she climbed onto the bed. Her hands travelled down to...Coryth's feet. As has probably been said several times, Siobhan's fingers were very...flexible and nimble. Now they were gently yet firmly lapping attention upon Coryth's feet, first on one then the other, stroking, soothing and massaging. "Have I ever mentioned how cute I think your feet are?" she asked sweetly.

 

[Coryth Elaris]

Another sigh passed. I built these walls of stone, all to protect myself and now ... Now, I may not be able to prevent two others sharing what I keep hidden. My insecurities and fears, ... my passions and loves. The idea was still a daunting one but as she had already said, it was worth the risk to save her mind.

She exhaled slowly, "If I can make you believe there is value in the Jedi's beliefs then I must be doing something right." A smile spread across her lips. At least there was that.

The redhead gave a small squeal as Siobhan touched her feet, not quite expecting it. Perhaps she should have though. "Mmmm...." She moaned softly enjoying Siobhan's very nimble fingers. "You have now." Said with a slight blush spreading upon her cheeks. "So .. I got a few memories from you. I remember ... ugh this is confusing. It's not me remembering but yes... Adril was it?" The little Jedi had to ask.

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]

 

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]


The adorable little redhead, whose halo may or may not be held up by horns, would probably blush even more because Siobhan simply could not resist the temptation to bend down and kiss her ankle. Then her very skilled, flexible tongue travelled over the toes of one of Coryth's feet, lovingly stroking and licking across them. Well, she could not be blamed, Coryth simply had cute feet!


However, she stopped her ministrations when she heard the short stack of fire speak Adril's name. "Yes...Adril Tythorin. The first woman I truly loved, the Jedi who trained me. She was an Eldorai. She gave her life to save me. What did you see of her?" her tone was gentle but curious. While she spoke her fingers kept loving over Coryth's adorable feet.

 

[Coryth Elaris]

And blush she did, so unexpected for Siobhan to do so to her feet, but not that the woman minded. A pleasurable squeal or two escaped from her as Sio did lovingly kissed her ankle and licked at her toes.

The redhead nodded, "Got the impression that you loved her deeply. With .." The redhead coughed a moment as her skin picked up a brighter red hue. "Ahem .... some rather interesting sexual images. That and there was the feeling of love that you held. It could not be missed." Said respectfully as she glanced down to Sio. "I'm sorry for your loss. Can only imagine." Though if things kept going it was undoubted that she might learn more about that relationship.

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]

 

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]


"Relax, Cory. You're a gourgeous woman and I enjoy pampering you," Siobhan said sweetly as her nimble fingers continued to work their magic on Coryth's adorable feet. The redhead had been caring way too much tension, but under her loving care it would melt away. Her tongue blazed a loving trail up one of Coryth's legs, though obviously not far enough to do anything that would upset the kiddies, before she leaned up to plant a kiss on Coryth's lips.


"Thank you, but it's ok. We both know...a lot about loss. Things between Adril and me were...often complicated. I guess it's because we were both pretty tempestuous, but I know she loved me. She made me realise I'm actually worth a damn. When I was teaching Tempest, I often thought about what Adril would think. Losing her was...very painful, but Tegaea helped me move on. I owe them both so much," she said, tone almost wistful for a moment.


"I met Tegs early in my Jedi career, when I was a Padawan and my relationship with Adril had just started. She and I were on vacation...it was our first time together. Things were heavenly, little did we know that the resort was a cover for energy vampires. Monsters. Long story cut short, we were captured, separated...I was raped, tortured, lost an eye...but it was nothing compared to what Adril went through. Then [member="Tegaea Alcori"] came. It was back when she was a Republic soldier. She was this larger than life figure, this strong, muscular amazon. She saved me from the monsters and we went on to kill them all and save Adril." The memory was clearly painful, but more than pain, there was love in her tone, perhaps coupled with a degree of hero worship.

 

[Coryth Elaris]

"Maybe I should let you do this more." Coryth smiled genuinely, allowing her empathy to share her joy with Siobhan as she let down her outermost guards. "Mmmm... That feels sooo good. To think Harmony got me hooked on having my feet massaged." She returned the kiss sweetly before withdrawing with a silly little grin.

Listening she nodded, "I understand." And our relationship isn't complicated? What is our relationship exactly? It's something more than friends but I'm not sure exactly what it is. Thoughts that she couldn't speak aloud just yet. "Well, I am glad she made you realize that you are worth something. You mean the worlds to me, you know that right? One of the closest friends I've ever had. And one of two people I've ever let inside my mind." Mirien doesn't count yet. Not till I actually like her. "I'm just thankful for both women. They've helped to make you into such a wonderful woman."

A nod came. "I saw a little bit of that, just didn't want to say anything about it. I understand too well how painful things like that are. Didn't want you to have to relive that." A soft sigh followed, "I'm glad Tegaea got you and Adril out of that"

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]

 

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]


Now it was Siobhan's turn to have her face turn a bright scarlet. Both from Coryth's words and due to the redhead letting down her outermost mental guards, letting Siobhan bask in the redhead's joy due to the wonders of empathy. "Thank you, darling. You're pretty amazing as well and have always been a great friend. You mean so much to me," Siobhan said warmly.



What are you exactly? Come on say it already. It's just three words, eight letters. It can't be so difficult to spit it out. Have you forgotten that I'm married? It did not stop you with Mirien. Point. But...look...The words were on her lips. Just three words, eight letters. Three words that could make or break you, make her life even more ridiculously complicated. But she did not speak them aloud...not here, not yet, though she knew that she could not escape them forever. "I'm glad we got out as well. Adril and Tegs...never liked each other, but I know they both love me deeply and it means the galaxy to me," she spoke, while one of her hands was busy acquainting itself with Coryth's firemane in the most loving manner.


There was a pause before she spoke up again. "So...Andreas. I, uh, saw...relived everything. Got to say, love the part about you kicking his butt and asking him out for a date. He was an, uh, good guy, respected you as he should. And...well, a good kisser," Siobhan could not possibly get any more flustered and embarrassed. Or get more red in the face.

 

[Coryth Elaris]

Coryth smiled, "Thank you." She couldn't help but blush a little more.

Love ... The redhead could sense it, but she wasn't certain if it was related to her or if it meant anything than the love of a friend. Perhaps a converastion for another day. Love was complicated enough. Nevermind how complicated this situation would soon be. "Mmm..." She purred softly as Siobhan ran a hand through her hair, loving the feelings it brought her. "A shame they didn't get along, but I'm glad that you have had such love in your life."

Then Siobhan ... Well, Coryth turned a lovely shade of crimson from her hairline all the way down her chest. For a moment she couldn't say a thing, but then her lips cracked into a bright smile, "That was a fun day. The fact that after that day he always admitted that I could kick his butt, always made me happy." Her grin widened, "He was. He really, really was. That and the games of hide and seek in the cabin, that ended in sex were always fun too. Or there was the time ... in the lake ... and on top of the waterfall.." Yep, Coryth totally had a more wild side that she rarely showed to anyone in public. As if the conversation couldn't get more awkward.

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]

 

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]


For her part Siobhan suddenly had a dreamy smile on her face. "You naughty girl. It was such fun....especially that time one on top the waterfall...and the pranks I...we played on him when we suddenly pulled him down into the lake. That was so hilarious. He did that...amazing thing with his tongue and he had great stamina, didn't he?"


Then suddenly she seemed to snap out of it and realise what she was saying, an expression of deep shock and sheer confusion crossing her features. "Wait...why...am I saying this, feeling like this? I don't like men! And these aren't my memories, they're yours!" Unfortunately for poor Siobhan, this writer thought it would be hilarious if memory sharing confused her mind a bit.

 

[Coryth Elaris]

Coryth couldn't help but grin as she thought back to those wonderful memories. Now, talking about it with someone who remembered felt amazing. She'd never really been able to share like this before. "The lake cabin was always such a great place for us to go back to." A chuckle soon followed, "The pranks were great too... Invisibility is so much fun for pranks. Makes it a lot easier to make someone think a ghost is in the house. The waterfall... those were good times. And yes ... Mmmm ... No one has quite done it the same. Can't ever forget that." A soft sigh fell from her lips, enjoying the walk down memory lane.

Coryth couldn't help but laugh a little. "They are my memories. That is for sure. Can only imagine how ... strange it is for you to have those memories with a man when you don't like them." Her cheeks, still a vivid red, but it was starting to fade a little. "Still, it's strangely nice to talk about this, with someone .. who knows the memories. Been a long while since I've been able to smile thinking back to Andreas."

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]

 

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]


Coryth was super in so many ways. In fact, she was so super that her memories could suddenly give Siobhan straight thoughts. "Damn right, I don't like men. Just hot girls, Like you," she insisted, her face having turned a bright scarlet.


"But...I've got all these memories and feelings in my mind and I know they're not mine, but they feel like that. And...since they just got all stuffed in it feels like I just came down from having a long week of sex with Andreas and...enjoyed it..and feel that he was real sweet. Like I can still feel his touch on me. I know he was a good man." By now Siobhan was really looking like a lobster.


"And for some reason I want to know healing because I 'remember' working in the hospital and...losing that poor patient. Maybe...we can do something to compartmentalise the foreign memory sets. It was confusing enough when it was just Mirien's memoris. Before I suddenly don't know what my name is. That...and I could some lesbian sex now. You owe me. And you better pull off some of those illusion tricks," she declared.

 

[Coryth Elaris]

Coryth smiled brightly at Siobhan's reaction. It was far too cute and humorous to her! "Well I knew that you liked me plenty." She gave a small wink, "But now you have straight thoughts in your mind! Who knows you might even give it a shot one day!" Oh yes, Coryth was having far too much fun with this now.

She nodded, "It's strange sharing another's memories that are not yours. I've never had it happen before. Just sharing others emotions that were not mine and that was strange enough." She then couldn't help but chuckle at Siobhan's reaction once more as the woman turned even more scarlet than before. She did smile warmly as she thought back to the kindness of Andreas, how much she'd been in love then, planning a life, a future together. It had been a beautiful time in her life until it all fell apart. Though her mind wasn't really even drifting to when Xerexes, his uncle got a hold of her and it all went downhill. Her mind was dancing through the good memories for a change. "He was a really good man. Best man I've ever known. Loved him so much, with everything I had."

The redhead smiled a little brighter, "I wouldn't have thought my interests in healing would have transferred over, but I suppose that makes sense given how much of my memories surround healing and working to help others." She nodded, "Losing my first patient. That was so hard. I was doing my all to save the elderly Twi'Lek. But I couldn't. I could feel him slipping through my fingers, felt everything in his final moments before he took his last breath." The tiny woman sighed heavily as she shifted to lean her head onto Sio's shoulder. "That stuck with me for a really long time. I had to learn the hard way to block patients emotions out when they are that close to death. Because otherwise the results are devastating to me."

She then nodded slowly, "We'd probably have to talk to Mirien about helping to compartmentalise them. I think ... I think I can to a degree but this is all really new to me. I can keep someone out of my mind. I can make a box to clutch at precious memories, to keep them guarded and not lose the core of who I am but actually separating the memories into yours, mine, and all. I'd need her help." The redhead chuckled then as the conversation moved to more lighter things, "Well ... we can do that. But ... there is something else I want to talk about first."

The serious expression on her face, a warning that it was not going to be all fun and games that she wanted to talk about. "I just, I want to talk about Mirien for a minute before we move on to play time. That's all really." The redhead said with a heavy sigh. "I just ... yeah. I never thought I'd see that woman again. Much less like this. And ... opening my mind isn't easy. I protect and guard it heavily for a reason. It's never been easy for me to let someone into my mind after Andreas. Always afraid that I'd be hurt. And ... gods Sio, it makes me feel vulnerable and ... vulnerable makes me feel very weak. Anyone can hurt me when they know all of my life, my past, my hopes my dreams. All of it."

Once more she sighed. "It's so hard to be open like that, to drop every last guard I have. Of all the things I've done in my life, that is one that frightens me more than anything. Especially with a woman who nearly killed me." Closing her eyes, she ran a hand through her own hair, trying to soothe herself. "But, hearing all that. Feeling a lot of what the two of you both felt. Feeling how much she hates herself, loathes what she was... I pity her Siobhan. I really do. I am still angry with her for what she did, but the person who did that to me, she doesn't exist anymore. I can feel that difference. I guess ... what I'm saying is I'm more indifferent to her than anything else right now." Another sigh as she shifted closer to Siobhan in bed, laying her head upon her ample bosom. "And it's so damn complicated, to feel the disgust in which she felt to see that memory, the horror of what she'd done.... I can't hate someone who hates themselves for that so much. But I need time and I think you know that. It's hard to get used to the idea of someone with the same face, doing something so horrible, with the same name ... but being someone else entirely that hurt you so badly. It's really confusing and it leaves me feeling all sorts of conflicted."

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]

 

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]


Siobhan made her face. It was not enough that Coryth had to make her act like an infatuated fangirl when it came to her very male fiancee, she also had to tease her about it! "You're such an evil troll. If I ever consent to giving a manling the honour of touching me, he'll be a slave there for my pleasure. It should be an honour for him to even kiss my feet," she insisted. No, she did not have certain images in her head that involved subjugating very muscular and well-endowed manlings.


However, the moment of levity soon passed as Coryth turned serious. As much as Siobhan wanted to get into her pants, she respected her enough to pay attention. Then again, the short stack of fire was a special snowflake, so that was only proper and common sense. As for healing, obviously Siobhan would be unable to practice the art the way Coryth did, but there was Dark Repair, though calling upon powers of darkness could not truly mend your body.


"I understand, Coryth. Really I do. I...love Mirien, but you'd have every right to hate her. I could not fault you for that if I did. You need time, no one can expect anything else. It was...very difficult for me to let her into my mind. Really, I wouldn't have done it unless it had been that or me losing all memories and going insane," as Coryth laid her head upon Siobhan's ample bosom, the Countess hugged her tightly with one hand, whilst the other lovingly stroked her beautiful firemane.


"Made me feel weak and helpless, like I had no control. I had to lay my entire life bare. Then I realised she was probably a lot more scared than I was, for obvious reasons. But...and I can only speak of my own experience, as I got used to the bond, it became a comfort for me. Never thought I'd feel that way, but there was something reassuring about having someone who knows you inside and out. Who's seen everything you've been through, even the stuff you try your utmost to keep hidden. I think it's helped me a lot."

 

[Coryth Elaris]

"You know I'm an Empath right?" Coryth had to tease as she got a sense for where Siobhan's thoughts were drifting. "I can sense where you are going with that, just saying ....." No doubt something that would cause Sio to further blush.

The redhead nodded slowly. "I understand Sio." She did shake her head though, "I still can't hate her. She already hates herself enough for the both of us." The Jedi said softly as she shifted against only to get more comfortable on her side against Siobhan, happy to let her run a hand through her hair.

She sighed heavily, "Its the not having control that scares me, Sio." Wasn't often the redhead admitted she was frightened of much. Especially about something as simple as control. "I wasn't always such a good person. I'm not who or what everyone thinks I am. Certainly didn't always put others before me." Something she really didn't want to talk about, and something few actually knew of. "Accidents happened. Lots of pain I can't even begin to tell you about and a lot of death caused at my own hands." She gave a shrug, "Andreas knew. Saved me from that hellish path. But otherwise, ...." She bit at her lip. "Look, Sio I don't talk about this. It was always easier to never let anyone else know." Even the redhead had a secret or two that she'd been carrying all this way, entirely alone. "Saying it, makes it real. And suddenly I'm going to have to live with two women knowing about that part of my past. Knowing of all of those things I want to keep hidden from everyone. That terrifies me." Would the end goal, really be worth it? The redhead did wonder. "Makes me feel all sorts of vulnerable. Don't want to ever be vulnerable again, which is half the reason I was willing to do this."

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]

 

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]


Darn, that blasted empathy! Needless to say Siobhan's face turned completely scarlet. As a matter of fact, her blush was spreading to more than just her face. No, she had not been having fantasies about subjugating and riding manlings together with Mirien Valdier. Not at all. Even more evidence that Coryth was a total troll.


Fortunately for Siobhan the short stack of fire did not pursue the matter further. For her part the Countess showed the good sense to take her mind off her sexual identity issues by focusing on far more important stuff for the time being. She was still getting payback later on! "Coryth, dear, I understand what you mean, but let's get some perspective. Mirien used to be a serial killer and a torturer and from a certain point of view you could argue I'm a mass murderer. Neither of us would have any right to judge you. I don't know what you did, what evil you think you did, but I won't change how I feel about you. It doesn't change who you are. And that's the best Jedi I know. You have this handy empathy so you know I mean it and am not just saying this to make you feel better."

 

[Coryth Elaris]

The redhead nodded, "I know I shouldn't worry. But, Siobhan ... It's not quite as simple. Which even with you and Mirien being the way you each are, doesn't make it easier either." Another sigh, "Still I don't know what its going to be like, having both you know of the things ... all of them that I don't let anyone else know. If it was just you, I'd not be so worried. Mirien changes it all. I trust you. I know you, her I don't."

She couldn't help but smile a little feeling what she did through her empathic gifts, "I know. I know you mean it. Just ... never felt so vulnerable before. So easy to hurt. That's what really worries me." She'd done her best to build up a million walls to protect herself. At the same time, those walls had kept her trapped, unable to really let anyone in deeply again. Not since Andreas. I let Andreas in, and I lost him. I thought his death was going to break me, shatter me. But it didn't. She survived that, but still she'd only kept going. Burying herself in her work and duty to others so much so that she'd been blind to the damage she was causing to herself. Now, she feared letting Siobhan in, to know every last secret. Afraid to let herself be vulnerable. "Perhaps it's just irrational. I don't know. But still Siobhan I worry. I don't want to be pushed away, rejected. Or perhaps worse, lose you in the process."

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]

 

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]


Err...Cory, did you miss the part that I'm in love with a former serial killer? It's...a bit hard to top that in terms of things that should push people away, Siobhan thought very dryly, but perhaps wisely did not say anything like that. Maybe she was exploring this little thing called tact. You know, you could just tell her that you love her and get it over with. Right, because that would not make things awkward at all. They already are! Point, but my love life's already complicated enough. And that may just push her away. You're making up excuses. Yeah...and?


"Coryth, there's nothing you could have done in your past that could push me away. You're too precious...too important to me for that. Anyone who doesn't see how amazing you are, no matter what you did in your past, is just an idiot." Aww, you're so sweet! She gently stroked through Coryth's lovely firemane as she huged the redhead against her voluptuous chest, then bent down and kissed her deeply.

 

[Coryth Elaris]

Coryth managed to smile. "Makes me feel a little better to hear you say it." It was one thing to feel it, sense such things through empathy, and something else entirely to hear it when you truly needed to. "Really needed to hear it." She managed before she was pulled into a deep kiss. To say she was still getting used to such things was an understatement but it was getting easier. Reaching up she ran a soft hand through Siobhan's hair as she returned the kiss with as much passion as she could muster in that moment. It'd been one hell of a day, that much was certain.

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]

 

[Siobhan Kerrigan]

[member="Coryth Elaris"]


"Some day I'll finally make you see how amazing you are, sweetie," Siobhan said lovingly after finally breaking the kiss. For the record, her lip gloss was cherry-flavoured. She released Coryth from her hug and then lazily spread across the bed as she lay down. Some day she would muster up the courage to tell the redhead how she felt about her.


"Want me to take your mind off all this? I am...very good at being distracting. And you still haven't attended to your special duties yet. I desire you be upon me. Or under me, for that matter, pet."

 

[Coryth Elaris]

Coryth smiled softly, "Maybe someday you will actually convince me of that." The redhead smiled softly, licking her lips ever so slightly. Mmmmm Cherry....

"For a little while, would be alright." Though she wasn't certain she would actually be that easy to distract. The least she could do was try, and let Siobhan help her. The little redhead shifted, onto her knees coming up to nuzzle Siobhan upon the nose. "I suppose I'll let you pick, mistress. Under or on?"

[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]